certain things in life

RECENTLY, I've realized that doing certain things during the day reminds me of certain pple. I realise that sometimes, the reality hurts as u know that certain pple aren't gonna exist in ur life anymore.

For example, whenever my leg hurts, it remind me of doing certain action to try making it better. The method I use To try making it better reminds me of Eugene. Cos I rmb telling him my leg hurts, & he'll tell me to exercise my ankle, & I rmb asking him how come he knows tat'll make it better & he'll say he's red cross leh. So yea. Everytime my
Leg hurts, I rmb him. Then I'll find it a little sad that our friendship isn't that gd anymore. See how cruel is reality?

& also, Everytime I listen to sundial dream/ classical music, it reminds me of pei, then I'll feel good cos I know there's someone out there, my lovely bestfriend, also loves classical music too(:

Nowadays, whenever I smile, I'll rmb working @ Uniqlo, cos I realise that I smile to pple wherever I go, den I realise oh shit they r not customer, why am I so friendly. Hahas!

Whenever I do cards, I'll rmb laylin. I'll rmb how she put in her thoughts to make lovely cards. N I'll make sure I put in my heart to do cards.

When I eat chocolate, I'll rmb the chocolate laylin gave me , the ones where the coffee flows out :D

If I enter sumo house, I'll rmb the firsttime was with pei & junyang^^ they brought me there to eat(: n the previous time I enter was with Eugene, n we taste the yucky food in sumo house forthe first time.

Whenever I eats ban mian, it reminds me of the times when I study with cihui@ bishan library before o's, & we used to eat ban mian during those times.

Whenever I see tuna bread, I rmb eating them in class with pei, weisi, minji(:

Whenever I enters msn, I rmb how I miss talking to certain pple..

Whenever I listen to Taylor swift's back to December, I rmb handsome Taylor lautner cos the song is for him^^

Whenever I listen to enchanted by Taylor swift, I rmb Kelvin cos this song he told me to listen-.- lol

When I listen to 'whenever u remember' by carrier underwood, I rmb pei cos she gave me this song.

When I listen to kissing u by Miranda cosgrove, I rmb laylin cos she gave me this song(:

When I listen to bad day, I rmb class 6E cos the cd of 6E is played with this song^^

Whenever whenever.....
The list goes on n on, but too many things to list. Somehow u know what I mean by certain things reminds me.....

Bye. Goodnight.(:
Whenever I say goodnight, I rmb how certain pple says nights to me. Some just say goodnight sweet dreams(: <Then I'll rmb how last time, eugene says goodnight see u in lalaland, n I'll say won't see u, cos i dun dream.
I'll also rmb how Kelvin used to say 'goodnight sleep tight dun let the bed bugs bite'<
So these r some different quotes I've got. Some just say nights. Some say nights talk to u soon, some say nights sweet dreams love u(: some dun say at all.

Ok^^ where is my poly package?! Anw, I'm waiting for schto reopen! But den, that means more n more friends might get distant away...... Haix. KEEP IN CONTACT YEA MY LOVELY FRIEND READING THIS.:D

KEEP SMILING!!
BONNE NUIT ! zzZ

Small world

SMALL SINGAPORE AFTER ALL..

Today, I received some shocks during my day. It isnt literally shock. But it kinda changes my life or my thinking a little some way or the other. I wonder how nice it is to be young n naive. But I must accept the reality, whether harsh or not.. Seems like there's really many challenges in life. It's all coming in my way now. Just how much do I need to think & think & think..

UPDATES:
•one thing I can confirm. I'm not quitting Uniqlo anytime soon.
•today my long lost god parents contacted me. Shock number2
•I'm wondering if my father can afford to pay my sch fees. Cos he ask if he could borrow money frm me today D: shock number1
•wonder if I can pay for my laptop
•worried bout my own life
•took the Deyi sch magazine on 24feb. Super duper ugly-.- Anw, I'm the first to collect in 407^^ I'm so kiasu-.- lol

Okay.. Basically, I'm kinda stressed bout my life. So my father wanna borrow money frm me cos he's afraid tat my Sis sch fee coming, n waterer thingy, plus CNY just over, gave loads of ang bao away, etc etc. I'll reveal, he wanna borrow $500 . Half of my payyyy. I'm fine with borrowing. But den, now my plan of not needing to worry bout my laptop fund is in my head. Cos I calculated. I won't need worry only if I dun spend what I left now & my feb pay arrives. Now, it's like 1/4 of my planned money is gonna be borrowed. My freaking package haven't arrive yet-.- & when do I need to buy my laptop. Will my father be returning me the laptop money on time? Seriously.. Worried sia. Touched that jingyi actually offered to help me if I need. Seriously, although I've only known her for such short period of time, I felt that she's a great friend. Shes someone that cares, someone that gives all her best to pple she cares. Hahahs. Dunno how say. Time will tell me all.

I'm quite worried for pei, didn't kno how is she now, n she didn't reply my text. Anw, hope everything is going well, n I guess all of us in this stage of growing , is starting to worry bout our own finance. This is how our working life is gonna start. How the reality is gonna be revealed to us.. Hahahaha.

Btw, great eerythig goes well for laylin now. ^^ n it's Ok to have emo post, just venting out ur feelings. Hahahas. N great that actually u can have some things off ur shoulders now tat some things were cleared between pple(:

Hope I can meet up with all my lovely friends, go out with my friends n colleagues as promised, find granny often... But den, now, I guess I might need to consider whether I should work more hours than the 20hr for part time to earn more money. So good to be kids cos no needa worry bout money. Now, must grow up Liao. Must start learning to pay for everything le. Life~

But then again, is money that impt??
Haix. It's just a matter of choosing Wat makes u happy.. Not takin things for granted that is. Time to Slp..

Typed on 25 feb, actually 26 feb. But it's 1.05am now. I take it after I wake up den is 26 feb. Lols

the weird mood. will i CHANGE?

the rose from kelvin
it can be beautiful dead or alive♥

okay, just changed my blogskin. love the last one cinyee help me do but time to change a new one. was wondering whats wrong with my aunts com cos i cant listen to music on my blog. can anyone tell me if the music can be played????

ok. im fine now. idk what am i doing luh. yesterday i told my cuz maybe sch reopen i'll go back my own house n stay. she nvr ans me anything. but i think she told my aunt? n now they're gonna be talking behind my back. so whats wrong can u tell me pls? like no one is happy this or the other way.. haix. what a life. i should've went jc. den study hard n study overseas n say bye to all these. but seems like life isnt gonna be like that for me after all. okay...

thks pei n yonchin for all they advise. but idk, who can help me decide? idiot kelvin just kno how say he>world -.-''. but den, no one really give me any ans that can become my reality. i kno its my own prob. only i can change my life cos my life is in my hands... hahahahahs

♥ taylor swift's ours~

Ours lyrics

Elevator buttons and morning air
Strangers' silence makes me wanna take the stairs
If you were here we'd laugh about their vacant stares
But right now, my time is theirs

Seems like there's always someone who disapproves
They'll judge it like they know about me and you
And the verdict comes from those with nothing else to do
The jury's out, but my choice is you

So don't you worry your pretty little mind
People throw rocks at things that shine
And life makes love look hard
The stakes are high
The waters rough
But this love is ours

You never know what people have up their sleeves
Ghosts from your past gonna jump out at me
Lurking in the shadows with their lip gloss smiles
But I don't care, cause right now you're mine

And you'll say don't you worry your pretty little mind
People throw rocks at things that shine
{ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/t/taylor-swift-lyrics/ours-lyrics.html }
And life makes love look hard
The stakes are high
The waters rough
But this love is ours

And it's not theirs to speculate
If it's wrong and your hands are tough but they are where mine belong and
I'll fight their doubt and give you faith with this song for you

Cause I love the gap between your teeth
And I love the riddles that you speak
And any snide remarks from my father about your tattoos will be ignored
Cause my heart is yours

So don't you worry your pretty little mind
People throw rocks at things that shine
And life makes love look hard

So don't you worry your pretty little mind
People throw rocks at things that shine
But they can't take what's ours
They can't take what's ours
The stakes are high
The waters rough
But this love is ours

if i ever will love n trust any guy, i'll sing this song(:

anw, laylins chocolate damn nice(: thk u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!xpls make ur decision n be happy k!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

just what u wan? can't u tell me?

Lols. I'm like feeling so damn idk, sad? No? Not happy? No? Haix. Just I can only describe it with a Haix. But it's like idk who I can tell? Like I'm sry, I kno I can tell n ask advise from who. But I'm like super tired of it all already, idk what's my aunt saying. I just kno she's not happy. I'm sry. But I'm gonna say Idk what is she crapping to me when I'm eating. Well, I love my aunt. But den, idk why doesn't she understand y I'm working part time when sch reopen. U kno, seriously, it's life what. She say what are we(me & cuz) doing? Like work, come home, slp, work, come home, slp, off day go out, same old routine. What are we doin? Obviously working right? I totally dun understand what She wants, what she meant. Like lol. So off day stay home? Yea... N do what? Even if accompany aunt or enen is just like fly away time. Accompany is gd, but then I also have many things to do? Like help friend with o lvl, find granny, go out with friends I promised to? Den it's like even I stay at home, I'll just slack away my day, walk here n there in living room, tell my aunt some crappy things that she won't really listen to or whAt. Idk. Everytime I talks, it feels like she's not really listening. What's the use of me there??? Like huh???? Or if I stay home, in this situation, I'll just lie in my room on my bed, den she'll say the whole day dunno stay in the room for what. Seriously, idk what's the prob, Tats why I feel like saying Haix so much. N it's like hello? What's wrong with going out? It's not as if I go till dunno what?? Haix. Shes not happy. Somehow, it made me feel that it's time to leave. How I wish I could say bye to everyone n just disappear into thin air. Without feeling any guilts, etc. It's like my life is owed to so many pple. Idk who,actually I kno, but too much to be counted. Like Haix Haix Haix is the only way to describe. So it's like huh? No one really understands me. How I wish there's this person out there that'll know how I truy feel without me saying anything, & give me the answers I'm searching for, & save me from al these things. Seriously, I'm kinda really tired of life. But then who is Not? I'm like persevering my everyday, being a happy me. But somehow, when I really go & think so deeply, I know that somewhere , some part of myself isn't that normal. When I'm happy, I'm genuinely happy. But not everyone see that everyone has that part of ourselves being sad/ unhappy. I guess if I hide all these inside myself n not type it out, one day its gonna be true about me a crazy person.

Idk. U kno, pple say that pple becomes crazy as they dun wanna face the reality. I wonder what does a crazy person kno n not kno. I'm gonna study psychology. Someday..

Okok I dun think I'm gonna crap bout what I wanna do in life. But I kno there's plenty to do.

Haix. So I somehow feel the vibes of my answer appearing at my footstep. I dun wanna really make those decision. Life is so hurtful. If only I can split myself into many pieces & give them to pple impt in my life. The bits & pieces of life isn't good, but it's all worth it. Like how my sec sch life, there's so many prob between my friends. I lived through all those childish things that happened. But I nvr regret knowing all those friends. N I do love many of them. Also, I wont regret working off my holidays mostly in uniqlo & tiring myself out. Knowing all those friends there during this short period of time Is worth the while, even if I dun really kno them. Everythig is worth it. But den, I realise not everything is perfect in so many ways. I understood what it meant by no one is perfect now. Life is like that right? It's so hurtful when I kno that I might hurt pple. So hurtful to know I might take things in life for granted. So hurtful to kno I can't seem to solve them. So hurtful. Life uh. Idk seriously. I still have this long journey to go. Haix. Who is gonna be there, beside me, to bring me forward? U know, I feel like crying so much, I think I'm insane le. Hahas. I realise I think alot when I'm like alone. But pls dun like tell me dun think too much. Cos thinking is how my brain functions. Lol. Hahas.

Haiya. Sad): like Haix. So tmr how? Go out? Come back see a black face again???? I'm seriously sick of all these. Can u tell me what's wrong with going out? What's wrong seriously? What's like freaking wrong??? I'm already very gd u kno? I always go out, tell my aunt I'll be home before 8, n she already says it's damn late. I'm gd cos my cousin will like say she'll be home before midnight or 10? Like lol. So why not happy? I'm like 17 already, time to start planning n decide for my own life. But it's restricted with dunno what? I seriously dunno. I only live life once leh. N time waits for no one. Why can't I just do what I wanna do???????? I know somehow I sound ungrateful . But den, so what should I do? U dun talk to me, I dun talk to u. So let this be it? Idk seriously. I think I wanna cry my eyes off my face sia. Ok. I kno whoever reading this sure damnworried. Cos u'll be wondering what's happenig to the happy zihui? Ok. & u will ask if I'm Ok when u lovely friends see me. Idk how to tell u all, but it's just life I'll conclude. Cos many poles life is much worse than all these worrying stuff. & I'll be fine as ever wen u see me cos I would have found something positive to think of to be able to stand smiling in front of u. Understand? Haha. Pls oh pls dun worry.

Ok. So this stupid post is bout stupid going out n staying @ home thingy. Actually I've got manythings running through my mind. Just idk howto type them out cos after they run through my mind, it's as though I've typed. Tats why I'm like wondering who will be ever able to understand me without me even saying. Wanna cry. I miss my grandpa again. I wonder why. But it feels like he's the only one that understands me. I rmb when I was young, he is diagnose with dementia, which means he's gonna forget everything & die someday. I rmb I'll always accompany him there, watching tv, & him drinking his liquor . I rmb the day when he asked me what if one day he's gone. I rmb I feel damn scared of losing him, feel like crying right there & saying no he won't die. But I held back my tears & mumbled 'wont'... Felt like crying in that darkness. & my grandpa just hold my hand & tell me not to scared, say he'll be there, if anyone dare to scold me, he'll protect me. It's as if I dun need to say anything & he understands how I feel. That'd why I'm always crying when I rmb him. The fact that he's not there anymore. Not there for me anymore. )': & I dun even know if I'll ever meet him again in my life. But what I can only do is live my life, with the name he gave me. Going on happily, living everyday nicely..

So well, smile(:
Shit my eyes is swollen. How. Hahahhas. I can't slp like that or else someone will kno I cried. I didn't just tear.. I seriously idk, I think I just miss my grandpa. Haix. I dun even kno why am I born in this world. Im so not needed. Just something extra tat add burden to pple's life.

Okok. I shall not be so sad cos I'll scare pple, pple will worry. Okok pls dun worry k. Or else I shall close down my blog le. Hahahaha. Ok pls tell me how I settle my eyes. Hahaha. Oh no. Red???

what a dayyyyy

Not my dayyyy

Today, I woke up with a draggy feeling to get out of my bed. Maybe that's cos I slept @3 in the night! Hmmmmmm. Woke up @ 9! Damn tired-.- my own fault I guess.... Talk talk talk n talk to pple on msn, but only like 1/2 pple-.- Anw, the Internet was super lag yesterday.! I think soon I won't go fb or msn! Plus I can't log on to fb todayyyyy-.- what a bad start.

Anw, I didn't went n meet the lady who ask me to show her my work. I guess if I really draw something for her to sell, it seem like selling my soul. Somehow. Hahahahahahaa! No matter what, it's something that I've pu my heart into, n giving pple to sell will be like selling off my meat? Lols(: when I went to work, idiotic things happens!!
1)locker kena used by someone >:( so Badddddddd! & I found out which idiot Liao!!! So DAMN INCONSIDERATE):
2)I nvr bring specs!!!!!!!!! Blind cat for the DAYYYYYYY
3)stupid lady I serve when I starts work made me walk ard !!!! Like I wanna bring her to the stairs leading to B3, she kept walking away! Lol!
4) this stupid man walked to me directly, said many Badddddddd things, idk what he said exactly, but only heard ' what is ur shop selling? Clothes? ' ......'expensive'......'BULLSHIT......' den walked off!! He didnt even enter uniqlo sia!!!!! Just wanna find prob! What a stupid idiot! Spoil my mood! Seriously!! Damn serious ! Shock kno!!like I'm innocently standing there greeting then this man come spoil it!!!!!!
5)this customer anyanyhowwwww give my name & accuse me of saying that I've said no receipt can exchange! Firstly I didn't even do cashier! Den I didt even call somerset before they call me! Lol sia! IDIOTS ANYHOW USE MY NAME! Walao seriously @ the pt of time! I'm so innocent can!! Accuse accuse! Lols(: ok!

But ltr on, I talked to weisi when she called me! Laugh & laugh! Miss those sch days! When I got back to work, I didn't become happier at first, but ltr on, was talking & laughing with xinyi(: she made me happy too^^ okay! So I've realized how it is impt to have pple ard u in life. I guess I can't survive alone): Hahahahaha! Okok^^ I'm happy happy(:

Anyway, hopefully tmr can go out with weisi. When I say I off, she was like oh yes! Tmr is a happy day! Hahahahaha!!!! Hope luh! Hope pei might go oso! Call her tmr!!! Or hope she see this!!!!!!! Anw, I'm so sry to Kelvin! I would wanna go with him to explore neh! But if I dun go with weisi or pei & go with him, it's like idk??? Unfair leh. Sry to kelvin! Second wk of march!! Will I promise^^ but I bet he won't be reading this ba^^ the only ones that reads my blog I guess I can confirm is sometimes pei & laylin(: or maybe the Shawn?? I heard he & my cuz nvr talk Liao D: Omg huh??? Ithought they were very close de???? So I guess my blog is opened for my lovely friends(: so who wanna be my lovely friends?? Read it^^ keep u updated^^ n pls blog so that I can kno bout ur life currently n not Jst after sooooo long of not seeing each other

I wonder where will Kelvin bring me to explore????????? Mystery... Lols-.- why is it always I find it difficult to go out with guys?? Even though might just be friends, not easy too. Like what's the possibility of anyone in my family seeing?? Lol??? & why they need to be so worked up when they see me with a guy only?? Hahhaahhaaha. Kno they're worried. But why doesn't they believe that there's such thing called 'just friend' lol-.- what century Liao. Hahahahah!

Okay! No Internet, so no talking on msn!!!!!! Okok!!!! Sleep time!!!! Try to sleep now close my eyes, try to think of tmr~

LOLS:D Anw my rose haven't die!! Still got smell n colour! But it's dying ):

Typed on 15 feb^^ 12 midnight...

OKAY! NEW POST! 16 feb 2011!!

OMG I HATE MY CUZ! Sry if she read this! But it's my personal feeling, currently.. But bet she won't read cos she's not interested in my life anyway. It's as if my life revolves ard her. What shit is this that I'm having? Lol. Omg! I hate her! Hates so much although I kno I somehow love her too. Lol! Hates! So I'm not gonna repeat what I've said last yr. So I'm not gonna repeat le. Not repeating. What idiot. Why must I do things when she ask me to? Idiot. Seriously, I hope I'll say into her face telling her my life dun revolve ard hers, n she got no rights to ask me to do things, dun take me for idiotically granted. But I can't, cos idk if I take her for granted. Ok! Shall stop saying le! I feel like screaming all this idiotic stuff out. But I kno I'll forget bout it. Anw, WTH!!!!!!!

Ok. Anw, I'm quite worried for laylin. One moment everythig was fine & the other, everything changes. This really shows how life is huh??? I wanna be positive always, but whenever I gets irritated, I'm not that positive. I guess not everyone sees this side of me. Sometimes, I still can smile n get irritated. It's as if idk who am I also. Just who can tell me who am I???? Haix. I'm nvr getting any ans. I hates all these. But I'm still gonna live my life happily, whenever I talk to pple, I will be happy. I'm so damn tired. Everyday I go working there smiling happily. I wonder if I'll be working n not smiling. I wonder how long will it take for me to give up on everything. U kno, if I quit uniqlo, it might mean that I'm giving up on trying to smile cos working at uniqlo meant trying to smile brightly somehow^^ I love this job as I forgets bout all my worries n just smile n greet. This job make me become polite to pple when walking everywhere, makes me keep myself smiling. When that one day come, I guess I will give up in everything Liao. Lol, just what am I saying? Anw, so tired. Tired. Tired. Tired. How I wish I can isolate myself from everyone & No one will ever notice me missing . I wish I can just step out of pples life & will hurt no one. I guess, I meant living my life in empty-ness. Tats what I mean when I say I'll stay single forever. Single as in I live by myself, live my own life, no one care for me n I care for no one. But I guess this won't happen cos this world is filled with love. Haiyo. Lols huh?

Okok! Shall get back to msn. I guess I might just stop going msn anymore after today. The action of starting to isolate myself frm msn.... Lol???

Ok! I just saw WAT SHE WROTE ON FB! although it might not pin point me, but I guess it is. Cos I drew shoe for Miko, but didn't drew for her. FYI, I TOOK FEW WK'S TO START DRAWING IT. n u WAN ME DRAW NOW IMMEDIATELY FOR U! U DEFINITELY DUNNO WHAT'S INSPIRATION CALLED N I HOPE I CAN RUIN UR SHOE FOR U. WANNA WEAR IT TO WRK TMR? DRAW IT URSELF N USE UR OWN INSPIRATION. how dare say u can confirm I'll choose friends over family? As if u kno me so well. Yea right. As if. Live in ur own head ba. How I wish I can post ' u think u kno me very well huh?? Sry to disappoint u u're wrong. IDIOT' but I kno it sure stir up things. I wont end up sleeping happily cos she'll sure say it out loud n irritate me . Idk. I really HATES! nvm. Smile. I can imagine kelvin saying chillax-.- I wonder what my friends will say when They see this. She sure dun have the rights to say I'll choose friends over family. She dun have. She dunno what's in my life k. I dun even have a proper family to start of with. IDIOT!

Byebye! Relieved after typing.
To friends: pls dun worry for me. cos I'll be fine as always(:
I type to friends n not to family cos I only kno there's friends reading this. Lols

<3 valentines dayyyy

YAYYYYYY!!!!
Although didn't get to see Cinyee this yr, I still got a FRESH ROSE<3 Hahas!!! KELVIN WANG YONG TENG ROCKS^^ sry if he reads this:P cos he'll say it's jay Chou jielun-.-'' nvm. So which Is his name? I've yet to kno! Plus when oh when is his bdayyyyyy???!!! He says 18 Jan 1976??? Lols!! 32 yr OLD MAN!!!

Am currently walking my wayyyyyy home smelling my rose. So it's past 12 now. Valentines dayyy is over! What s nice day^^ 14 feb 2011 is a sweet dayy(: my day @ work started off nicely too^^ a customer @ cashier was asking if she could congrats me(: I'm wondering Whyyyy. & she said tat I've got a very beautiful smile:D

Hahas! It ended well too^^ cos rmb? FRESH ROSE:D okay. So must agree Kelvin is SWEET when he say he drinks 100% & above sugar for milk tea cos he gave rose. Hahahahahs!! Funnyyyy. Anw, today Miko came down to uniqlo too^^ she gave me that lovely handicraft n a heart shape biscuit. Too cute already^^ & I gave her the shoe^^ today, jingyi also made chocolate ^^ suyi bought ferrero rocher(: so good! Oh I forgot to share with her): jolynn also saved some chocolates for me! Se said it is nice(: so good^^ I bought koi for Valerie as she said that she haven't tried it ever in her life D: & she gave me ritterr sport chocolate D: damn good sia! Anw, I also bought koi for Kelvin! Omg 100% sugar! SWEET D: I yesterday mass produced 25 vday cards. Out of which only a few is special, wrote name & have got more sentence^^ the original ones only have 'happy valentines day ! Keep smiling!' on it^^ but at least I still did it(: bought merci chocolate n dove! Lucky small aunt let me take another box instead of the one I've bought! Cos it's not enough !!! Hahahahs!!!!!

14 feb 2011 is truly a happyyyyy day for me!!(: I got rose!!!!!!!! N chocolates!!!!! So nice^^ also, today Peipei, mh, weisi, minji, jingwen, Ted, keejin. Was @ uniqlo!!!! Am so happy today! Seriously, I'm gonna get real sad one day, when all these pple isn't in my life at all, someday? & also uniqlo, so am I quitting?? Dunno. Real sad if I quit): ok! Dun think bout it anymore, go with the flow neh! Oh I forgot! Today obara San was here! Got hersheys from him^^ today arao San bought Royce too!! Omg!! ^^ Nice(: a nice valentines day @ uniqlo^^ so what will valentines dayy be like nxt yr?? Will I have a valentines? I guess no. The answer will be revealed nxt yr^^ keep u, my blog, n pple who read this posted^^ ok, tmr work, tmr must meet this lady?? R u kidding me? Lols! Hahahahahahaa!!!! N Haix. Guess wed I won't go explore with Kelvin? Not so soon. But I will make it before my sch start. But I must not tell him huh. Dun promise pple anything cos I might disappoint them.

Anw, today I'm shock, relief, felt insulted , happy! Cos pei n mh told me bout Eugene & huimin^^ goodness. Wow. Hahahahahahahs!!!! I'm shock cos Eugene was just criticizing bout jeremy's bad taste in puiying yesterday. Now is he having something erm?? Ok I shouldn't be so bad, everyone is beautiful just not everyone sees it^^ relief cos that means i'll not need worry bout breaking eugene's feelings, felt insulted cos eugene said he have good taste, so I'm ugly?! D: ok I'm a Badddddddd person if u get what I'm talking... Ok ! I feel bad sia! Happy cos I'm FREE FROM WORRY^^ yayyyyyyyyyy!!! Great valentines day^^ hope to meet my friends soon, explore singapore, n ok! Forgot to discuss with suyi tmr wanna jog or swim anot): I shall jog tmr????

Bye!!
<3 X infinity!
Nice ROSE<3
<3 chocolate
<3 <3 <3 :D

job

Yesterday, I received a text from phillane (a trainer that I've got to know in d'art club's wood sculpture course) she asked me if I'm interested to teach @ her place. I wonder what will it be like, but I'm definitely not up for teaching? My art isn't tat good what. Its all inspirational things. I would love to learn at her place. Should I give it a try?? Anw, she asked if I could help out @ her exhibition this weekend. Wowww. I wanna go! But today I'm working & tmr I'm off to library with Eugene & laylin, & maybe Zhibo. Haiyo! How how?? Ok I shall call her on my break ltr on.

I wonder how much longer will I be working @ uniqlo ion...... ): when sch reopen will I quit??? Or convert??? Haix. Oi why I still dun have any ans?!

Nvm! Better go & bathe now!!!!!!!!!!! Should I RUSH TO BISHAN LIBRARY TO RETURN BOOKS LTR?!?!

realizing~

I realized that I let my brain control myself, I dun let my heart feel for all it can..
^^
Lols. What talking me neh???

Till I post! Damn sleepy neh!

confess my bad deeds

I'll say I'm so gonna making my life Omg! I ate two bar of dove chocolate!! Omg!! Omg!! My voice!! Aheemmmmmmm. Ok! Valentines dayy coming!! LOOK FORWARD! Omg I miss cinyee & her fresh rose! Guess this yr I won't get any fresh rose from this lovely friend^^ sad!! ): one yr flew so fast!!!!!!!!

Ok!!!!!!! End of post! Tmr can't eat chocate!! PROMISE HOr! But I wanna eat mc flurry leh:D

pi li pa la pa la pa~

Hahahahs! Oh woww. The CNY song is in my head <3 I guess I really loves CNY<3 the best days in the 365 days <3 Hahahahas!

Today, went to find nainai<3 she couture curry chicken noodle<3 but I prefer her cooking best<3 Omg, recently I keep eating. !! 10 years down the road I might just grow fat. Hahahahas!! Must exercise more! I'm getting more n more unhealthy! Sweet drinks keep drinking. Chocolates keep eating. Too much excuse Liao. Christmas eat chocolate, CNY eat chocolate, now valentines day coming. More chocolate.!!!! Wait after all these, everyday I'll eat choc cos I say chocolate makes pple happy. Who told me this?! My cuz!! Now I'll always eat choc when idk what to eat! Goodness!! Oh man! I wanna swim sia! Swim swim swim swim!! Omg! Should ask cuz if tmr after work wanna swim?? Aiya): she say if have faster route to serangoon swimming den say):

SWIMMING SWIMMING SWIMMING SWIMMING<3

Oh yea! Before I forget! I saw sun yan zi!!! @ uniqlo yesterday sia!!!!!! Hahahahaha!! Lols! Put so many '!' okok nvm.

Ok, @ nainai hse today, I ate I sleep. She say she shall let me keep my jewel. Woah. N she ask me if I wan this ring, my grandpa's, I wan! But she actually wanna sell it. So well, I just say go sell ba. Cos gold ring wor. will <3 to have it(: 爷爷's (: shall see(: if I have, I sure everyday wear <3

Ok. So well, ard 2:30, I went to find Jeannie, helped her in a few qn of physics.. I just realized that eugene's house is like one road away frm jeannie's . I'm kinda lagg. Everytime pass by Jeannie house oso dunno. Ok! I must revise my subjects when have time! So that I can help my friends, n if successful, I can teach tuition^^ ok. It's easier said than done. I guess one day I'll quit uniqlo job. But when? N after uniqlo, what job should I find??? Should I quit or not?? Why my answer haven't appear ): hates this feeling of floating everywhere with nothing, no aims, no ans, it's not nice neh.

Okay! IM LOOKING FORWARD TO VALENTINES DAY!!!!! <3 any nice movie to watch??

Anw, BONNE NUIT<3 why I haven't try sleeping the wholeday????? Okok! Work in e morning tmr!! Better sleep now! I AM VERY TIRED! ok! Shall go jogjog soon!!!!! SWIMMING!!! I WANT!!!!!!!!

Oh I forget! Forget to thanks peijun! For giving me advice via her blog(: the other day, quite long ago Liao! Peipei very long nvr update blog. I wonder what have she been doing lately! Guess it's piano-ing?? I wanna learn piano!!!!!!! Soon! Erm is it really necessary? Hmmm. Oh n oso this laylin too(: she oso gave me advice the other time(: <3 them both. Ok. Hope they'll post so as a way of keeping in touch when we dun see each other or talk much. Ok. Haven't check out my other friend's blog.

Bye! Woah need slp!
This Jeannie today for chocolate, almond jelly, sweetsssssssssssssssss..!! Lols! But she won't be reading this! Hahahahahahs!!

^^

cin(T)a

Directed by Sammaria Simanjuntak

Premieres 12th Feb 2011

Cina and Annisa love God,
and God loves them both.

But Cina and Annisa cannot love each other,
because they call God by different names.

Cina (Sunny Soon), an 18 year-old college freshmen, is ready to conquer the world with a strong, yet naïve, faith since it had never been tested by failure.

Annisa (Saira Jihan), is a 24 year-old college senior whose education was held back because of her career in the movie industry. Her fame and beauty left her so lonely that she drew a sad face on her finger as her companion. Until one day, another ‘finger’ came and she was no longer lonely.

(T), is the most unpredictable character. Everybody tries to describe Him. Everybody thinks they knew Him. Every art tries to figure Him. But nothing is really like Him…or Her?

(T) loves Cina and Annisa, but Cina and Annisa could not love each other because they called (T) by different names.

I WANNA WATCH THIS:D when will it come out?? Who wanna watch with moi?!







Okay. Today's pictures taken by min Sis iPod 4!!!! Anw, I realized that the photos uploaded using iPod app is like so kinda weird shape. Nvm. & hello, I still look so much like a kid can!!!!!!! D: but nvm nvm(: I'm childish. Enough said^^

Anw, I wanna watch movie leh. Ok. So sunday shall be movie day or bainian ? Or I shall go cinyee house bainian then go watch movie?? Hmmmmmm.....

Okok! Sleep now! Tmr work!!! Hahahaahahs!!! I'll be so happy tar cos I kno the day after tmr I off!!!! <3 so should I bring orange to work?????

HAPPY RABBIT CNY!!!!<3

3rd February 2011, first day of RABBIT CNY!!!!

Anw, I'm at waipo house or what now. Feeling damn tired. Wishing I could sleep soon(: Hahahahahas!! What a new yr(: nice(: feel like sleeping so much NEH:D Anw, I wanna go watch大世界 & black swan. What other movie?? Hmmmm. Recently dun even have the time to go watch movie. So who is up for movie???

Anw, I'm kinda worried for someone. If u're reading this, I hope that u could embrace ur new changes in yjc k(: hmmm. Pls do not eat too much unhealthy stuff just to make urself sick or what. Hopefully I can go to change with u soon. Pls endure ur days in yjc. It's just a short period of 2 yr! It'll fly pass very soon de!!!!!! Hmmmm...

Okay! I'm really feeling very tired. I guess I might just listen to any Taylor swift's song n rot there. Rot means sleeping. H A H A AAAAA

OKAY!!!!!
Till I type again!!!!

Still 3feb but it's night 10:58pm !!
I counted ang pao money! Not revealing Amt. But, summary(: from distant relative & mothers side, I got 19 ang pao. From fathers side, I think will be getting 7 angpao. But total add up, fathers side angpao the Amy more than those 19 angpao. Amazing. So this is how much pple at my fathers side dotes on me(: I'm gonna save them up. Anw, I ave those money in the 19 ang pao to my father. Hopefully he'll save them(:

Hehe! Should I go swim tmr???? At big aunts hse?? Tmr gonna go big & fourth aunts hse:D

About today(: I woke up at 9plus:O I guess I slept like a log!! My granny said my handphone rang damn early!! Goodness! I told her is msg! I'm wondering vibration so loud?! But I'm super laggggg!! Cos I just realised that my alarm clock is on repetition n the time is 5!!! Omg!!! Guilty!! I woke granny up!! Anw, I gave granny ang pao $58!! but she gave me back): gave me back the money but keep ang pao only!! Haix! End up I wanna give $8, but she insist on $2!! ): nvm!! Anw, woke up! First stop is my father's godmom hse! Which is also my granny's sister's hse!! So funny yea?? Hehee!! When I woke up n bathe, ate vegetarian vege. Ahhh. Nice! The one yr eat once vege' the mixed vege(in teochew) (: nice!!! <3 granny the best:D
When I went to my papa's godmom hse(ah ma's hse) I ate steamboat! Woah!! Super sweet! As sweet as my granny's!! Den se have the nor hiang oso!!!! Same taste as granny's too!! Omg! Seriously sisters! Den ah ma also made spring roll kno! Home made!! Taste same as the ones my granny used to make<3!!!!!!!:D Aiya!! Forgotten to take picture of those things!!!! Nvm...

So my second stop of bainian was at this ah mmmmm hse. My grandpa's brother's hse. Went there!! N ate my first bah kua!!!!!!!!!!! I also realised that many pple isn't there years after years. Seriously this is life sia.....

Anw, I only went to three house to bainian. Got a total of 19 ang pao. The last stop is at my mom's side the wai po house. Kinda bored. But actually, at least got pple to talk to. Got this two cuz, now studying uni. They so funny(: the rest, oh well, no topics like that. I felt so sleepy there! But I'm still smiling. There's ard some time, im like listening to taylor's song & closing eyes. Seriously. Even the tv is boring!!!

N afterthat, back to nainai's hse!! YAYYYY!! She made the thing that I love most!!! Idk what's it in chi, dunno how spell the teochew thingy! But my aunt say it's also called Dan Juan. The meat(: rolled up de<3 I can finish the whole plate. Nainai say eat eat eat!! Hahahahas!! <3 yesterday ate curry & steamboat, today also!! <3!!! plus the van houten chocolate is opened!! I ate 5/6 balls of chocolate!!! <3

Okay!! Tmr tmr !! Oh and should I go cinyee's house to bainian or what?? She invited me(: shall go(: oh n I promise many pple go out !! D: how to handle! Can pple pls book me?! Haiyo! Have jingwen & friends buffet, laylin's changi, Peipei n friends outing, help Jeannie in studies, find nainai when I off on weekday, movie with Noel since when I say wanna watch movie n idk who to go with n he volunteer (: , help Eugene & get some notes frm him, outing with CINYEE, plus idk who else, ah!! Prisica!! Outing with prisica. & also ms carol + Janice, & mdm ng still owe me treat for helpin her diy 'deyi star' banner!! Omg my lovely banner that Simin & laylin helped with!!

Okok!! Now time to enter ebuddy n see if anyone talking to me!!

Till I type!!

posts after work

1st feb! 12:16, midnight... On the bus back home frm work(:
Looking out of the bus, I see nothing but patches of black path, buildings... The night is so silent. I guess, I haven't learn how to appreciate the atmosphere of night.. I wonder when I'll learn to appreciate it(: I guess it just seem scary to me. Put alone in this silent night. Having pple worrying bout my safety. OMG I STEPPED ON COCKROACH!!!

2nd feb 12:02am midnight after work!!

Anw, my last post ended in a quite abrupt way yea?? Cos I'm tired after work yesterday, n busy getting disgusted over the ' I stepped on cockroach thingy!! D: yucks.

Anw, I feel kind of sick now. Flu-ing whole day. Kinda feel very heated my body. The feeling of getting sick. Hopefully I won't flu tmr!! Its the cny eve!!! I wanna enjoy my day @ work! & go granny hse eat curry she cooked!! Steamboat!!! & many many more!! So well, busy luh. Tmr I'll feel like singing cny song!! Yayyyyy Yayyyyy(: I'm like lol-.- bus 132 is heree. Up the bus I go. Hopefully I'll reach home safe & sound(:
Omg! I smell bear smell in the bus. I believe there's some drunkards out here.!!! Seriously. Pls do not let any drunkards sit Nxt to me or what! I'll freak out! Rmb that day when I was waiting for WEISI @ amk Mrt.. Sitting down peacefully doing some art things.. Den this drunkard sat beside me. Nvm. Nxt he face me & scare the he'll out of me by talking to me!! Lol-.- scaryy! Of all pple sittin there, he squeeze beside me. Even worse.. Ask for time oso ask till so Omg!! N I smell bear smell! Omg Omg!!!!! Hahahas!!! Scaryy pple nowadays!

Anw, gettig off bus Liao! I think it's nice to blg this way.. Jote down thoughts everywhere I go(: my moments!!

Anw!! I'm safely at home! Till I type again!! HAPPY CNY TO EVERYONE<3