Im finishing my final lap of Degree right now.... It's during this final lap that I can feel how draining the journey of studying hospitality and tourism is. Remember those days that I just cant wait to smell the freedom before graduating from this Diploma? Yupp, I use to think that it's all finally over, and here I am today battling with writing of essay after essay. Doing research after research, questionnaire after questionnaire. And yes I hate to admit this but group projects are easier to cope than individual essay writing. Now I finally knew the importance of team work.
Its just such a familiar feeling. And till now I still cant help but say how I miss that bunch of 'Best Grpmates' that I've ever work with. Although people all eventually get on with their life and there's the probability of people growing apart, it's still something that I would keep close to my heart. Those times where we suffer together, stay awake together, and get that sense of pride in handing up our projects together. Some had already been long gone, and I'm glad the few of us still cherish this friendship.
Im so tired. time to collapse into deep sleep.
Monday, April 27, 2015
Wednesday, April 22, 2015
Life. Relationship. Gap?
We never really grow to know what these words. Or how these words are related to each other. Is there really such thing as the right circumstances?
Sometimes, I think that gap in thoughts are the ones that causes the end of relationships. Its the difference in opinions that led to quarrels and unhappiness. Sometimes, it also meant that we get to see things clearer. Or maybe feel them more clearly.
It's never nice when what you said is not intentional. It's also not nice when what you said gave the wrong message across. And all these causes unhappiness when the wrong message was sent across. And when you are deprive of that urging moment to say something, or to try to make ur message go the right way, instead of the unintentional one. It is worse when someone gets disappointed because they belief rather in another thing about you. That accusation.
Yet it's no one to blame when such thing happen. Because it all started unintentionally.
Whether it'll be rescued or not, lies in that unknowing ground. But there, is the scar that might be unforgotten on each other. Maybe it's not as serious as a scar. Just a memory maybe? And we all just know how I don't forget hurt easily.
It's also surprising how I guess my heart wont hurt as much anymore. I've come to a point where I'm still afraid of losing someone I love, but that extreme pain felt before might just have numb that part of my heart already. I feel like I've got nothing to lose already. And Im definitely not afraid to go into the future with that same feeling. That unknowing, that blur path, due to the fact that plans might change.
It's just one of those night, one of those moment when I just feel this. These thoughts that I should've changed them for the better instead of just accepting them as how it came to me.
I could say sorry, but why say it when a person just believes in something else that make u wanna not even explain about.
Sunday, April 19, 2015
The Change in People
Hello everyone,
I've always wrote how it's been awhile since I wrote...
Truth is, I no longer have that heart that felt inspired and motivated all the time... At least not enough to write up something worth keeping, or something of a certain sort of reflection of my life.
As the days pass by in a blink of an eye, as our youth slips out of our fingers, we start to feel that blur distant of the future.
In this life, we often adapt to changes. Although we all have this feeling, of losing people we once love, losing friends that we do cherish.. It's all changes in life. As it goes, change is the only constant in life. Yet it is still a shock to me when I realize how even the change in our family member can come across as something so strange. Something that I couldn't comprehend of. How is it possible that you live with people that just change over a year. It's not minor change but a drastic one. One that is involved with the beliefs, attitude, character...
And in this century, most of us (not all), are very much hooked to social media. Social media is like a platform where we get to know people more. Even our relatives, or friends. It's the social interaction online that seems to make people know certain people more. Although much have been debated about how it brings people apart too - - when people meet up and all they do is use their phone.
So anyway, I'm pretty much sensitive towards things on the social media too. Especially when you realize that people goes to the extend of blocking you on the social network. It's totally fine that people of your past blocks you because its suppose to be left in the past. Yet, when it comes to people like family blocking you, it left me speechless. I wonder why it happened, and whats the reason. Still, I wanna respect the privacy and decision of 'family', and I would not question directly why so...
Now, I just feel that stranger feeling. it's just but a social media, but i feel that distant. hahahahahha weird.....
I've always wrote how it's been awhile since I wrote...
Truth is, I no longer have that heart that felt inspired and motivated all the time... At least not enough to write up something worth keeping, or something of a certain sort of reflection of my life.
As the days pass by in a blink of an eye, as our youth slips out of our fingers, we start to feel that blur distant of the future.
In this life, we often adapt to changes. Although we all have this feeling, of losing people we once love, losing friends that we do cherish.. It's all changes in life. As it goes, change is the only constant in life. Yet it is still a shock to me when I realize how even the change in our family member can come across as something so strange. Something that I couldn't comprehend of. How is it possible that you live with people that just change over a year. It's not minor change but a drastic one. One that is involved with the beliefs, attitude, character...
And in this century, most of us (not all), are very much hooked to social media. Social media is like a platform where we get to know people more. Even our relatives, or friends. It's the social interaction online that seems to make people know certain people more. Although much have been debated about how it brings people apart too - - when people meet up and all they do is use their phone.
So anyway, I'm pretty much sensitive towards things on the social media too. Especially when you realize that people goes to the extend of blocking you on the social network. It's totally fine that people of your past blocks you because its suppose to be left in the past. Yet, when it comes to people like family blocking you, it left me speechless. I wonder why it happened, and whats the reason. Still, I wanna respect the privacy and decision of 'family', and I would not question directly why so...
Now, I just feel that stranger feeling. it's just but a social media, but i feel that distant. hahahahahha weird.....