dear friends(:

hey yo. idk what to type n say bout, well,

mh! why r u dying??? whats wrong??? if u are reading this, pls know im still here n alive n pls do not die k! embrace them all uh! dun stress! hahahahhas(: pls jiayou in ur sch and smile^^ talk to me whenever u see me online or im just a phone call away k^^ will get back to you whenever im on my phone^^ takecare<3

peipei^^ think u must be enjoying ur poly life(: glad that u actually updated ur blog to tell me bout stuff^^ touching(: LOVE YA PEIPEI hehe! jiayou!!! miss ya

laylin(:

u havent been posting!! hahahas! miss ya too!

hope everything is going on well for u. guess if u read my blog, u'll know whats been going on in my life yea? if i got the chance to go out with u, i'll update u k^^ miss ya

ok, who shall i type for?

yo cinyee, if u ever sees this, i will wanna tell u i miss u alot!!!!! hahhahas! u have ur hair cut short!!!! n seeing ur hair, how i hope i'll go cut too n take pic with u!!! hahahahsa! miss ya! i'll nvr forget how we first met^^ jiayou in sch <3

ok this is for jy if he ever sees this. u went into jc! n jiayou for that! hopefully can meet up with u n pei n mh soon^^

kim

long time didnt talk. n u dun update ur blog! ahahhas! hows life!?

ok, idk why, but my mind is like having u in it. i dun like it when someone occupies my mind too much. howwwwww

anw, today, studied with suyi<3 ahhahahhs! n ltr on kelvin joined

today study n talk with suyi(: nice friend to know in poly. always looksout for me n is so sweet^^

anw, the starting of this wk, i didnt get much slp cos im on the phone with jinson. hahahahahs. he nvr fail to make me laugh at his funny stuff. funny ginseng(:

anw, he intro this song to me. sounds nice(: i like the part 'cause we are gonna be~~'

High lyrics
Songwriters: Baiyewu, Emmanuel; Tucker, Paul;

When you're close to tears remember
Someday it'll all be over
One day we're gonna get so high

Though it's darker than December
What's ahead is a different color
One day we're gonna get so high

And at the end of the day remember the days
When we were close to the end
And wonder how we made it through the night

The end of the day remember the way
We stayed so close till the end
We'll remember it was me and you

'Cause we are gonna be
(Forever, high forever)
Forever you and me
(Forever, you and me forever)
You will always keep it flying high
(Forever, high forever)
In the sky of love
(Forever, you and me forever)

Don't you think it's time you started
Doing what we always wanted
One day we're gonna get so high

'Cause even the impossible
Is easy when we got each other
One day we're gonna get so high

And at the end of the day remember the days
When we were close to the end
And wonder how we made it through the night

The end of the day remember the way
We stayed so close till the end
We'll remember it was me and you

'Cause we are gonna be
(Forever, high forever)
Forever you and me
(Forever, you and me forever)
You will always keep it flying high
(Forever, high forever)
In the sky of love
(Forever, you and me forever)

'Cause we are gonna be
(Forever, high forever)
[ From : http://www.elyrics.net/read/l/lighthouse-family-lyrics/high-lyrics.html ]
Forever you and me
(Forever, you and me forever)
You will always keep it flying high
(Forever, high forever)
In the sky of love
(Forever, you and me forever)

High, high, high, high
High, high, high, high

And at the end of the day remember the days
When we were close to the end
And wonder how we made it through the night

The end of the day remember the way
We stayed so close till the end
We'll remember it was me and you

'Cause we are gonna be
(Forever, high forever)
Forever you and me
(Forever, you and me forever)
You will always keep it flying high
(Forever, high forever)
In the sky of love
(Forever, you and me forever)

'Cause we are gonna be
(Forever, high forever)
Forever you and me
(Forever, you and me forever)
You will always keep it flying high
(Forever, high forever)
In the sky of love
(Forever, you and me forever)

'Cause we are gonna be
(Forever, high forever)
Forever you and me
(Forever, you and me forever)
You will always keep it flying high
(Forever, high forever)
In the sky of love
(Forever, you and me forever)

'Cause we are gonna be
(Forever, high forever)
Forever you and me
(Forever, you and me forever)
You will always keep it flying high
(Forever, high forever)
In the sky of love
(Forever, you and me forever)

misses everyone^^

okay! let me be diligent bout blogging today^^

dont say im slacking! i'll do my work ltr^^

okay, i've just finished reading peipei's blog. idk why, but i think its very touching. hahahahs

u know, like how sec sch friends leave sch but still cares for each other. its sad to not be with pple that u've been hanging ard for so long^^ but yea, life still goes on yea?

okay,i think school had already start for one month?

hmmmm. okay, i've only posted bout my first week of school. so my story will start from the second week of school if i havent forgot what had happened yea?

so second wk of sch,things i rmb is that that's the wk of my birthday^^ u know, i actually felt so kind of sad on the bus ride to sch. while reading those birthday wishes, i just suddenly miss all my lovely friends so much. just look at the things u pple sent. its not just any simple happy birthday, theres more to it^^ felt so touch reading them cos i've realise that all of u still really cared^^ like genuinely^^ so damn touch(: then i started to rmb how my 16th birthday was celebrated. i really miss those times^^ though my birthday always falls on eng mid yr paper^^ hhahahhas! miss everyone in school^^ miss those times studying together, miss.......

ok, the list can go on forever as u know, im like talkative huh^^

okay, so on my 17th birthday, its was great too^^ i nvr expect anyone to help me celebrate. but my poly classmates celebrated for me. i was actually quite surprise when they bought cake out of no where. hahahahas. and yea, i got loads of chocolates from my classmates^^ they r so nice^^ plus i've only know them for one wk plus?? so yea, poly is fulled of these crazy pple to have fun n stuff^^ ok, i'll post those pictures of my presents some other day^^

*anw, on my birthday, i actually went for the swimming trial, and i got into swimming! am i mad??hahahhahs!

on the 3rd wk of school , yanting my cuz & i celebrated suyi's bday for her! she was damn freaking happy can?1 i've nvr seen anyone that gets so happy like genuinely happy over small little things that we did for her^^ it was nice to see that pple r happy^^

on the third wk's friday, i went for my first swim training! tell u i can die cos we swam for many laps! i wonder how long will i be able to keep going for training without feeling like giving up! but then, whenever i finish training, the feelis so gd, i guess, thats like a sense of achievement??? like 'YAYYYY! I'VE EXERCISED'!!!!!!!!!

during the fourth wk of sch, i rmb i skipped two swim training n only went for one. im super duper stressed out by sch work1 its just overloading! and i havent been doing consistent work! i wonder where all my motivation had went!!!! i used to love doig sch work! i miss doing maths hmwk alot!!! freaking much! i just haven't change my thinking! im wondering wth am i doing in business course?! its total alien to me! the only not so alien thing is commskill(somewhat like eng). i regreted not chiong-ing for eng last time! hahahahahas!!! but cant regret huh???

okay, to admit, i havemany things to blog about, but i've forgotten! so now let move on to this wk!

so on monday, i actually went for swimming! hahahahahs! theres this guy at swimming, he gave me the impression that he is those cocky guy. no offence. hahaaas1 ok i shouldn't anyhow judge pple!

on tuesday,i forgot what happened,hahahas!

okok! back to monday! i have commskill! n i kno i screw it up, im not about to continue bout how i felt....... but, i was glad that suyi is there^^ thk u^^ if she ever sees this..

anw, ok wed, i studied at sch library with suyi^^ n at f n b lesson, i actually smelled loads of herbs^^ at library, i was doing my stuff,n texting. i also saw jinson(: jinson was at lvl8? said he wanna come say hi^^ nice to see him(: somehow(: oh i forgot to say what he did. on sunday after work, i got a call from this unknown number, i pick up......... anw, that was a prank call. hahahahas! jinson is so funny cos i can recognise his voice n knew he prank calling-.- second failed attempt-.-

but afterthat when i reach home, he called me again n talk cos i cut him off half way while im in the train. hahahahas^^ he is so funny. he told me bout his childhood stuff. i tell u, i've nvr laugh till so funny on the phone. somehow, his childhood acts are extremely joke!! like omg! freaking funny!!!! i cant imagine. nice that i actually can have great laughs before sleeping^^

okay so today, i cant rmb much.. in the morning as usual, im rushing everywhere! wake up,bathe, etc! but i manage to sit daddy's car to the busstop, then im otw to sch with bus 15! went sch, waited for my classmates at mushroom! nxt,saw felicia, n suyi(: and i saw jinson too^^ nice to see him. im always saying that when i see him. hahahahaaas. okay. then in lecture, suyi was saying that yesterday at library, the guy that went n talk to me treats me very good D:?! ok the rest she say i wont reveal here^^

ok, this is typed on 26!!!!!

forgot to say..

lovely friends, u kno, on my bday, eugene actually texted me again, other stuff i'll update u all again. u knoo, all of u r so true, that he'll contact me again. now,i cant text him n everything seeems alright tat kind. i rmb those days where i used to talk to him alot, text him alot. what turns all this down is tat his love for me is like too much. idk, u all, some had interacted with him, says he's a flirt. i use to have diff opinion, cos i seriously dun judge all tat. i just looks at the character. he is tat caring gd friend, tat nice guy tat cares, but now, everything just changed. cos he changed. he smokes now, he used to say that he would nvr ever smoke. just look at it now. he smoke. he changed. but he still claims tat he loves me. i guess, idk, everything is just so hypocrite after all that had happen. n i dun wan to hurt him to cause him to become something unimaginable. but i guess, deep down, i dont think i will ever trust him like before again. he broke that trust, somehow, im the cause of it. but it cant be changed. i wonder why he doesnt sees it. he still hope that there'll be something more than friend between us, but i think that'll nvr happen. i told him to not like me, cos it'll hurt him. i kno i ask pple bout it, and they say i shouldnt say such stuff. but ,i must say them i think, cos it just makes sense to me.

im sry, im just naive, and i just have my own thinking. maybe i nvr think deep enough when i say or do certain things... hahs. what to do?? hmmmm.

anw, this post was typed yesterday night. hahahhas! and no batt so i didnt continue.

anw, last night, i didnt do much research. hope that luck will be on my side and that i'll be able to find something bout the hainanese curry rice.. pray for me please!!! yesterday, jinson aka ginseng, didnt pass his lifesaving thingy. he said that he is sad, or rather depress. somehow, idkk what does he really feels, but i thought it must be very dispointing and sad. somehow, sadness is contagious too right?? so i felt sad for him. hahahahahs. i wonder if emotions are contagious. like how laughter is contagious. does that meant that sadness can be contagious too???

anw, i was texting him, hoping he'll cheer up. hahahhas!!! cos i seriously cant imagine him being sad. he's just idk a big sized guy sad??? an imagineable. hahahahs!!! he really dun look 17 luh his size! oh n i told him he should call someone that'll make him smileorlaugh so that he'll cheer up cos he was like really sad. and then, i was on the phone with him?? how is it possible that i can make pple smile? but anw, maybe its cos of my blurness or way of talking that make pple smile or laugh@ me huh?? hahahahas! and im glad i was able to cheer him up, glad to hear him laugh^^ hahahahahs!

when you make someone happy, u might be happy too(: i think seeing pple ard me happy makes me happy too.^^

anw, nothing much happened in sch today i guess. in POM, the mr boh is like idk???? he dun really teach. haix. shouldnt start this blaming thing all over again. lets just embrace them. during APEL today, we are to draw things that represents certain things. somehow,there this blank to draw things that pple dunno bout me. well, idk who dunno what, but i kno that not much pple kno that i have a step mom(: but i didnt write or draw anything there. somehow i guess it just doesnt have to be shared cos they'll look at me and say omg sry. idk why pple does that but they just does.hahahas. like how there was once i took cab to school, i was talking to the taxi uncle, and talked bout many stuff. somehow, idk why but i can talk comfortably to some stranger, bout things bout myself. hahahahahahas.

ok, i should go do my freaking researches. its not fun. but i must see it as a fun thing in order to love them^^ ok i must embrace!!!!

takecares friend^^ <3

OH WELL...

anw, i havent been posting for long cos im a lazy pig, wanted to update u lovely friends bout my life, but lazy to upload pic, so i didnt update for long. i guess those stuff will have to wait yea? i change my blog skin to those customized ones cos im tired of chaning the skin n not getting what i want! oh well, at least theres something here, just comment on the comment place if u wanna say anything k my friends^^

anw, some updates!
1]i havent been catching up with those work at sch yet!
2] i joined swimming!
3]i've been slacking!
4]im gonna die soon!
5] thinking if i should quit uniqlo's job?
6] im totally not working hard))):
7] i got prank call today!!!
hahahahahs!!!

anw, nothing much i can say, although i know theres alot. recently, life just is so unexpected. oh well, life~

haix.haha anw i think i havent got used to my life now. work in any other way is stressing me out. haix. maybe i should really really qit yea? as in everyone is telling me to quit. i mean everyone. but then, not quiting allows me to earn my own allowance. haix..... maybe let me just forget bout those money stuff yea? but then in yr 3, i would like to go to a far away place for my internship. haix X infinity...

anw ginseng is so funny. prank call me ! wth ! zuella says that he is cute! hahahahas! anw, ginseng is this guy i kno from swimming! he's got that yr2/3 look, but guess what?! he is yr 1, he is 17! he definitely dun look like tat! im not saying that he looks old, just he dun look his age, kind of cool in certain wway! hahas. GINSENG!! COOL NAME BA?? ITS A NICKNAME!! IM GONNA CALL HIM GINSENG COS HE PRANK CALL ME TODAY!!!!! SOOOOOOOOO '!!!!!!!!'

kk! i shall update bout the last two wk stuff when my break is here i guesss^^ now when i blog i'll just blog bout current stuff. maybe i wont even blog bout two wks ago stuff. shall see^^

tOday!

haha.. okay, so yesterday, i slept at 3 and woke at 6.. went for work, till ard 3(: then rush to yck to eet my class. though the pple that went to the gathering is super small, i still enjoy it cos i realised that i miss the class alot. those pple just u know, i cant describe. its just something that u can feel for(:

well, @ work today, i rmb calling to tampines n on the phone is val!!!!!!! when i call vivo, kenji san is on the phone!!!! hahahaas. enough of work. the shop is just messyyyy. anw, today many pple last day. like a sad, but this is always happening uh....

at class outing, we laugh eat play n joke ard(: haix, how i wish i could go back to those easy days yea...but well, i cant go back there. must enjoy the present n look forward to uture yea..(:

ok enough, i guess i should sleep soon!!!!!! let me sneak a glance at episode 3 of vam diaries!!!

when sadness fills my heart.

lol. i know my title sounds so emo, but anw, so sad. like idk. those so sad till i wanna cry but i didnt. its like im hanging on hanging there, trying so much not to cry. how i wish i've got someone to talk to that'll make me feel better. make me feel that i've not disappointed anyone. but the fact is that i know i.ve made people worrry bout me. just looking at their disappointing face makes my whole day turn bad. idk, whats right in this world? what will really make me happy? pleasing pple??? i use to try making everyone happy by doing what will make them happy. but then, i realise that people always ask for more. and somehow, im very tired of making people happy. when they are happy, im happy. but when they are not satisfied, n became not so happy, im tired, im unhappy. im not living my own life. i rmb last time, the incident with cihui n my friends.. she dont like hanging ard with my bestfriends, so when im good with her, theres this missing hanging out with my bestfriend thing. so well, i end up making cihui unhappy cos pple say i shouldnt try to pls her n neglect my friends . oh well. so this is the friend case

another case is something that i had yet to figure out. my family. u know, they always nag this nag that. everyday dig something out to say, nag at us, scold us . i kno its meant to be for our goods. but seriously, we r the one that kena those things that we kena frm them u kno, being the biggest of all 'kids' in the family. im telling u, its like my smaller cousins will be experiencing things that's somewhat like found so called nxt era. now we get scolded for this and that, im sure when it comes to them at our age doing what we do to get scolded, they wont get scolded. things are just so unfair. u know, unfair. we kena the most things. we got beated by cane, broom,rubber band, when we're naughty, we gets to kneel on those beeer cap infront of the buddha, when we quarrel, we got sealed by masking tapes...etc. but for those younger cuz, they got nothing like this. at most only ruler beat their hand or cane only.. see we used to complain that they are more fortunate than us. but some say being beaten the most meant that they love us the most. hahas.

i really dunno what to do. im kinda messed up in my own thoughts. i know, some might say i think too much. but how can i not think? when i dun think bout anything, it seems that im neglecting everyone that cares for me... i starts to think alot since pri3, when im brought to the reality of my life. i suddenly realise that nothing is ever tha simple and same when i turn pri3. i start to care bout pple's feeling bout me when i turn p3. last time, i use to tolerate bout everything. when im bullied by my cuz in kindergarden, i'll fight back, and when she bully me, my grandpa is there to protect me from being harm. i love that man, my grandpa.when i go p1,and move to my cuz house, i started to listen to ppl, be obedient cos im staying at someone else house. when my cuz bully me, i wont fight back cos i've got no one to protect me.. so i rmb those times when i used to tolerate with all my cuz nuisance. and im over that period of time when i started getting irritated when she takes advantages of my tolerance. i slowly talk back to her, shooting back her due to her nuisance act. and i realise that when i does things right, my aunt will always support me. my small aunt is like my mother. she takes care of everything bout me. the only thing is just thst dhe is stubbornw ith her thinking and she is definitely very strict. but she doesnt realise we teaangers haveour own thinking too. and well, haix. even third aunt treats me like her own child too. i rmb them bringing me to eat meals n stuff. they're pple that i cared about and would nvr wanna leave. just too bad im not their child. all my aunts are like my mom... haix. i wonder what will it be like if things are different. if things wasnt this way, would i be thinking so much?? will i be who i am now?? obviously not i guess... its just terrible if i wanna think it that way. but i do know that i can trn everything positive ad be the happy girl that i used to be in 2010. idk, it seemed that so far , my 2011, i've always been thinking like a pessimist. and i hate this part of me. but i kno that this is the time when i show this other side of me alot. and if anyone do read this, they might suddenly realise that im such a negative person. i wonder what will pple that always thought im so happy, reads this, think bout me. will they look at me under a different light? hahas(:

haix. i do realise that when im sad, it reminds me bout certain pple. when im sad, i'll rmb grandpa, and realise that he isnt there to make me feel better. and that makes me feel like crying but i dun even know why as usual. just wth is wrong with me?

haix. i hax but i dun really haix cos i just wanna type haix
so well, smile:D i say smile n i do really smile. anw, anyone understands the shit im talking bout?? yea, its zihuis crap huh(: just what i feels(:

oh god. 4hr slp n have to wake for work)))): chocolate!!!!!! i need u to make me happy!!! im gonna buy chocolate tmr to eat eat eat!