anw, i know i always wonder this and that. i guess that's how my brain works.
i wonder what is the scenario that is in ur nightmare..
i know that you are afraid that when you go NS and stuff, you might lose me somewhere along there.
what i would like to say is that i can assure you that my heart wont change. i will always love you.. you must know that if my heart will change so easily, i would had given up on 'liking liking' you so much initially so many months ago..
& you might be afraid what if you are in NS and when im sad, you are not there but some other guys are there for me.. would i fall for them? and my answer will always be NO.. in the past few years, i've been surviving all this sad things in my life alone. and if i can handle it, when you are not with me, i can be strong and handle it too..
times and times again, you will be quiet, and there's this thing that you will always be scared of. you will be scared of losing me. and of cos who's not scared. im scared of losing you too.
your dream....made me want to hug you and take the nightmare away from you.. but i know you have to discard the dream by yourself. it made me feel sad. ur dream...
and it made me ask you.. what if one day we're really not together anymore like how it is in ur dream? i guess ur dream made u scared cos it felt so real in the dream? ur dream made me feel like crying, to even imagine that... i can imagine.. that this unpredictable life of ours fate us to be not together in the future. but i do kno that i will always love you. n i always think that it will all turn out to be gd cos i believe that nothing will bring us apart. I BELIEVE. i know that certain things cant be controlled. but i know that i can always believe in good things happening. its called the LAW OF ATTRACTION. if i believe that things would not turn bad, it wont. i kno that couples do quarrel. and i always say that i cant imagine me quarrel with u cos im just not a person that quarrel with anyone. i know that quarreling is pointless. and of cos i will nvr. and idk, couples do quarrel, but i believe that we are not just any couple that is like any other couple. i believe in our unique-ness. n i know LAW of attraction. that is why i always visualize good things most of the time instead of thinking of the bad scenarios...
u made me feel like crying too. when u tell me that our love is like the balloon that fly up high in the sky. that you will always love me, n u will only stop loving me when u die. just like how the balloon will reach the time when it will deflate or burst. i nvr did tell u that i feel like crying every time u mention about the balloon. i will always feel like crying cos it made me imagine that day happening when ur heart will stop beating.. cos i will never want to see that day coming. and somehow, i know time flies and life is nvr predictable. and so, i must always cherish what i have. and everyone around me that i love.
and u know that the feeling of losing someone is very very sad. its undescribable. and definitely, i will feel like crying when i imagine u not there anymore....
i will always love you
