Its not surprising that Im surprised at the amount of energy I still have in me to do the things I need to do for my baby rachy.
Just being able to stay awake a whole day feeding and feeding is a surprise for myself. At the end of the day, seeing her sleeping so soundly by herself gave me this huge relief and great sense of achievement -- that she could sleep soundly not on my shoulder.
Now that shes asleep, I can finally pat myself on the shoulder, say its a good job, and finally take my well deserving rest after a day of struggle... struggle of not being able to go to the toilet properly, of not being able to think about eating or drinking up properly. And I cant even step away for a bath today))): Its quite a struggle. The struggle of being mother for real.
Goodbye for now...
Better get my rest before she wakes again. Goodluck to myself. I need that a lot I realize. Need.
