right or wrong

Sometimes, we often find our own perception of things to be right, and what others perceive as to be wrong.

I wonder if there's really a right and wrong.

More often than not, we'll all come to this conclusion at the end of the day as nothing is really right or wrong in their own way.

We often have explanations for things we find to be right.
Whether they are logical or not.
It will always be right in our own ways.

But at the end of the day, I guess it's really tiring.
To decide whats right or not.

Only maybe, in making others happy, will feel right eventually.
Might feel worth it eventually.

I've pen down my thoughts for now.

yesterday i was just thinking about this...
During courtship days, we all get the conversations.
conversation during mealtime, during free time.
quality time spent while being around the people you love.

during married days, people no longer get conversation.
no conversation during mealtimes or free time.
no quality time spent while around the people you love.
phone become the things you hold in your hand while around the people you love.

more often than not, we try our best to give the best to our child.
we try our best to put phone or work away
cos we know that quality time is not through screen time.
its the interactions that will create wonderful memory

and yes, I'm reminding myself hard,
in order to give this, to create this for my child.

are you?

or is it just to you, that you'll say "your life sucks"
just for the comments i give.
maybe im anal like always,
but im the mirror i guess.

you are my mirror, when you say "your health sucks cos you dont exercise"
it reminds me that i need to work on exercising

but did it occur to you every comment i make is cos im your mirror.

Just fyi. i wish you would see this, but you wont since my blog is kinda dead already.

i hope you know, my life doesnt suck.
my life is brilliant just because i want it to.
just because i comment doesnt mean my life sucks,
and i never understood this comment of yours because i really dont feel that my life sucks.
so im guessing maybe your life sucks.
it sucks that i feel like im the one that makes your life sucks maybe.

who knows. my life dont suck.
i see no problem. but u have a big problem and i wont communicate because u will just be accusing me or the situation.
im tired, i dont like quarrels.
why ignite one when there is actually nothing?

Love,
Z

Weird mood

Can't help but feel this way.
Can't be with my daughter cause gotta work to retire early.

Can't help but feel upset when hubz goes out to "enjoy" his day while I'm here slogging at work.

I think the stress is coming in again.

I wish someone would tell me it's all too normal to feel this way
when you're away from your kids.

I wish I could be with them.

goodness.

I have to stop thinking this way.
I still wish that i could stay home for 2/3 years till my daughter starts school and I'll work part time while she's in school.

Wish I hadn't have to put saving money first.

Moments

Hey there,

Im just here to jote down some precious funny heartwarming moment.

This morning, I tried waking early to make some food for little Rachel and to prepare for dinner.

Decided to make some pumpkin pancakes for her to try. Wondering if her picky mouth would love this pancake.

When she woke, she initially shakes her head when I tried offering her the food. I didnt force her, but simply shove the food in her papa's mouth instead. And put some in my own mouth. I then asked if she wanna try, and she tried some.

While she's in her baby chair, she reached out for the container where her pancakes were placed. Funny how she really likes the pancake and wanna have more. Once, she even stood on her highchair so that she could see the pancake on the table and pointed at the pancakes. HAHA. such a cutie.

P.s. Sam said that she usually don't take much breakfast...

Love,
Zi