END OF JANUARY 2010

:D
guess from
now on,I'll post at the END of every month & during special ocassions(:
today,31jan2010,the end of the first month in 2010....
How MANY more months will there be till the BIG O's??
Haix.
Am so afraid to take a step forward yet I just hope it all ends in a quick and fast way. Really,contradicting yeah? Haix. its still a question mark for JC/POLY. I dunno what I am going after.do I want to have lesser years of studies or do I want to study more? Do I want to go out working as early as possible? I dunno anything . Is having another two years of stressful study what I wants? Haix. Am still confused as ever. Hope everything in the future turns out well for me & everyone in MANY different kind of ways.

Guess I feels like slacking n sleeping again. Haix. I'm gonna take things in the easy way for now. Will start when feb arrives(:

will I be able to follow my dreams?
What is there to follow when I dunno what my dreams are?
Haix haix n more haix
though I write haix here,I'm actually not feeling so much of the 'haix'(:
cos time flies! N after few seconds,haix can always get replaced by :D

Hahas(: HARDWORK IS ALL WORTH IT(:

Hahas. FLAG DAY FINALLY OVER(:
some pple r really kind hearted to stop and donate into the tin(:
some r well, just can't be bothered. Haix. Hahas
:D
I smile to anyone and everyone who walk pass me today lo(: walk round the amk areas with pei,mh,and jy. Hahas. We walk to one of the amk market there and ask for donations,and they all keep saying that I prey on elderly!! Hahas. Super funny lo. Pple there r mostLy elderly! lols! Haahas. Teenagers mostly dun donates lo. Hahas.
Nxt time whenever I go out,I'll bring coins ! And I'll donate to those pple!!
Hahaas!

Today am going to nainai's hse(: so long didn't go bukit merah (: miss there alot lo(: my childhood place(:

I wanna go swimming!!!! But no one is briging me there!! And I am not allowed to go alone I guess]; haix!
SWIM SWIM SWIM SWIM SWIM.!
I wanna swim leh!!!
Hmmm. Gtg(:
KEEP SMILING EVERYONE!
and donate kindly!!!!!!!
Every cents counts!
Lols:D

..........

CHOICES HAVE CONSEQUENCES.
the onli word I'm able to write now,after thinking.
Well,I'll leave maybe my last post for this month THIS.
Dun wanna get distracted AGAIN. and REGRETING. LIFE IS TOO SHORT TO BE LIVING WITH REGRETS. shall keep that in mind.(:

haix.hahas.
Well, my last words here for this month shall be 'u can always come to ZIHUI if u need someone to talk to(:'
byes(:

the picture might be true yeah???

hahaas.

today the fourth week of school reopen. already, everything is gonna zoom pass like a LIGHTNING!!! i guess this yr is really going to end very fast in a way that all the busy months will really fly pass everyone of us and the next thing we knows, it'll be time to take our O lvls result...

it seems scary to be thinking so far. guess i'll really need to start doing whatever that can keep my grades up. the onli thing that im afraid was my language. i cant hope to get good results for my eng n chi. i must work for it. i realise that hoping is of no use...

hahaaas.


since i wont be needed to stay back for much remedials, i shall start planning what should i be doing when i comes back home from school. i shall not slack too much from now on as time seems to be flying so fast ...

today is papa n xiuyings birthday! wish them happy birthday here!!! i will call them ltr!!!:D
i still havent come up with any idea for the ice breaking session on thursday! anyone can help me think???
anyways. dunno who will be replacing shirley for the emcee thingy!
i think it'll either be pei,jy, or me!!

:O

lets seeeeeeeee......
hahaaas.
hope tmr's artz assembly will be an interesting one....
:D
keep smiling!!!
jiayous everyone!

YAY YIPPEEEEE WOOOOOOOOO!

Yay yay yay!!!!
I pass my GOLD swimming test today!!'
though today is the last lesson. Hahaas. Uncle ishaak said to take our test today as it's the last lesson or not our training would go wasted. Ahahas!!!
YAY YAY YAY!!!!
my timing is 2min 45 sec n xy's is 2min48sec.
Hahas. It's a wonder! We thought we would fail the timing .but we PASSSSSS!!!!!
Hahaas. So happy! Finally take gold.but well, the rest is a question mark. I'll keep on training till there's chance for me to take gold star and all. Hahaaas. But why take? I dunno if I'll wanna be lifeguard or coach . Hahaas.
Freestyle.breast stroke. Side stroke. Backstroke. Nnnnnnnn,BUTTERFLY STROKE!
And I know how flipppppppppp. But flip is unstable. Hahaas.

I dunno how to write a story about reputation. Can die. Dunno when to hand in that. Poa not done. I'm the poa rep(thks to pei) hahaas!

Byebyes(: (:
keep smiling
keep swimminG!!!!!

HATE ME FOR ALL U WAN.it won't affect ME(:

Lols(:
i've discovered something. RUDE IDIOT. hahaaaas. Dun appreciate my kindness, well,go ahead and blame me. I'll not need to wake u . Hahaaaas. Being happy doesn't meant that everything is PERFECT, it just meant that I've decided to see BEYOND the IMPERFECTION. (:

yesterdays diagnostic test for a-maths had gone quite well (: knew how to do everything except for qn1... How I hope that qn1 has got prob and I'll get free marks.but well, dun think it has got any probs. The whole morning of my yesterday was ruin. Felt soooo upset. I cried in the morning. No one knows(I guess) , except for my diary... oops. The person reading my blog would know it:O well,shhhhhhhh . Keep it to urself! Hahaas. I cried.I felt sad. I felt bullied by my cuz. Blame me and not herself. I'm not wrong. I'm not responsible to wake u . I'm not ur maid. I'm not someone for u to scold as u like. I'm NOT SOMEONE FOR U TO PUSH AROUND. I'm not.

I cried as whenever I'm sad,I'll rmb 爷爷. Writing 爷爷down here ,I'm risking to let the fat tears drip out from my eyes. I miss him.
I didn't cry because I felt guilty or sad. I cried as I rmb about爷爷. Idk why I cry. I just miss him . I guess. Just typing 爷爷here had made my eyes misty. Oh why? Guess I've decided not to put everything down here.(:

she still blame me for waking her up late. Hates her attitude. U wan to talk,u talk,u dunwan,u jus dun talk. DO U EXPECT ME TO TREAT EVERYTHING JUST LIKE NOTHING HAS HAPPENED WHEN U DECIDED TO NOT TALK TO ME AND SUDDENLY TALK WHEN U LIKE?
Sigh. I hate to quarrel wif pple. Nvr ever like it. I'm not someone who can hold grudges. How I wish I can and so nothing will repeat again.
I hate temperamental things. I wan a permanent one.

Byebyes(: hmwk is waiting for me(: but I'm afraid I'll just lie down and CLOSE MY EYEEEES:O

I miss U I miss UR SMILE,n I still shed a TEAR every once in awhile.

Hahaas.yoz(: the titled is adopted from I miss u by Miley Cyrus. Haahas.
As for who I miss, read on and u'll find out(:
sometimes,I still cries when I thinks about him. I really do miss him. But he'll nvr ever be here again. I would nvr know when I'll not cry when I comes to think about him. He ,is someone I loves alot. I dunno why. But this is just it. I'll place him in my heart forever.nvr going to forget him . Nvr gonna forget the only thing he said to me that I rmb.I nvr actually talk to anyone bout this,missing him. And no one ever found out that I sometimes cry when I suddenly rmb about him. I dun let anyone find out I cry,easy yeah? But den, it meant that I can nvr cry it all out at once, but I knows that I'll be able to do that one day. I'll stay strong,and rmb that he's the one that dotes on me the most. I shall keep working hard for my everything..
Just well,the time has yet to arrive..
I also found that I can nvr sit down and write bout why I'll cry,whyy? Idk that tOo.
I just learnt that every one comes and goes in your life,when everything is over,i'l need to turn over a new page and keep on going . I'll go till the end of cos.hahaaas.

Tmr is additional maths qualifying / diagnostic test.shall finish my history hmwk on FASIST JAPAN, den start my revision quickly or I'll not be doing my best tmr.
Well,ending here(:
keep smiling!:)

nOwadayS...

YOz(: things r always moving so fast nowadays
pple r always telling me that they r bOred nowadays
I'm being abit lazy nowadays
stress seems to be found on everyone nowadays
I'm like sleeping at 10pm nowadays

...lols(: hahaas enough of NOWADAYS?
let's talk bout other things den(: it's the third week of sch now.stress is on the way. How can I destress?
Swimming!!
Btw, I'm gonna stop learning swimming when February comes. But I'll keep going swimming(:
loves swimming(: I can flip! Hahas.
Lols(:

btw,qualifying test is on wed.dunno will I be prepared for it.hope I could get better results than the mock. Lazy zihui here just can't seem to settle down n study for all I need. I realized that I could write in English with an okay .but when it comes to having conversations,CMI. though I can speak during oral,but when it comes to chatting,I seems to be bad at it. Needs help. Pls speak to me in english frm now on(:

FLAG DAY on 30th Jan @ amk. Pple pls COME N DONATE.be a kindhearted one and come make things easier for the poor ones(:

hope the real hardworking mode comes everyday.my hardworking mode normally only comes a few hours after I stares into blank space. And by the time ,it's when my eyes feels like closing while I feels determined to finish my work. Damn it.

One word :lazy.excuses.
Smiles(:
tired of things.
Am gonna learn to put aside unimportant things or what is it called? Distractions? Hmmmm.I'll think about it.

•LAUGH AS LONG AS U BREATHE & LOVE AS LONG AS U LIVE:) •
btw,I WANNA GO WATCH VALENTINES DAY!!!!!!!!
Taylor swift & Taylor lautner in it! COol!!!!

YOz!!

:D
hahas.
am now at big aunt's house using her com(:
hahas
ltr im going to tampines central with big aunt and fourth aunt.
and also am gonna collect my spoilt phone.really hopes that it would not be spoilt again...
and it'll of cos last until the two years are over man. hates phone probs.
in fact, i hate any kind oof problems that arises. hates to have to think of how to solve those problems . hates it. hates it when i cant even solve it.
hmmmm.
hahahas.
thats life i guess. i shall learnt to overcome it and not learn to hate it. hate it till that i keep writing hate.
when hate arises, nothing ever in the world seems beautiful anymore. nothing infact. its just like colours. it represents lots of things in the world. when u hate someone, the colour found in urself doesnt seems nice anymore. [dunno what am i talking about yeah?] hahas.

anyways, yesterday was checking my hundreds of meaningful unread mails and i saw this one which truly is meaningful. it is something about having two CHOICES. 1)u can choose to think about something in a unpositive way. or 2)u can choose to think positively. another one was that when u wake up in the morning, u have two choices too. whether to wake up and do everything thats needed with a happy feeling as u accepts it or u could choose to be unhappy about everything and then , lead the rest of ur day miserably.

does it makes sense? TWO CHOICES. and well, everyday,every minute, everyone of us r making choices. every choices we make changes everything in our life. so,its actually important to make GOOD choices. and nvr ever regret any choices that u had made as life is too SHORT to be living in regrets(:

anyways, i had sent out the email 'two choice' to pple who might read. *if u r someone who read mails and didnt receive it from me, tell me!! and i'll forward it:D

hahaas.
still have got loads of mails unread. some mails r from 2008!!!:O
im such a lazy pig yeah?
i reealised that i havent even achieved any of my new yr resolution that i've written down on 1st january 2010......

hmmm.
ending here(:
SMILES![english]
SOURIR![french]
SONREIR![spanish]
:D

...gOing intO e hardwOrking mood....

hahaas.

its the end of the week again.

friday is always a good day as school seems kinda short and theres no cca.

theres some hope for d'art club now.

im gonna enjoy everything till the cca is stepped down and i'll say bye...

but guess i'll be back there one day(:

current activities that i rmb;

-learning journey [ice skating,seoul garden!]

-fashion design

-art syf competition

-graffiti

-batik[if im not wrong

.

.

.

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anyways,i think im starting to get into some hardworking mood.

really hopes to do well for my o's.good luck everyone!

jiAyOus!

:D

maybe i shall post here only once a week from now onwards(:

life sometimes just seems sooooo complicated.

will it always be busy and stress?

hmmmmm.

shall end here(:

awwww.

min sis b'day coming.mus find a present for her really quickly!i still owes her last yrs bday present*guilty face*

gonna buy something for papa too.

what shall i buy????

...LOST COUNT..112 days I think...

Aww.
Short post here.
I'm *hah chewing!*
haven't complete poa!:O
die ar
did nothiNg today.
Went eat PLASTIC food at amk hub wif pei n huamao after decorating class.
I ate HAPPY VEG.and the stall pple were talking bout my face(I think) when I was buying food.but didn't heard what try say.hahaas.
Think they say my face shape nice ba.
Hahaas
Lols.
I'm sleeping!
...

113days!

Yoz.!
I'm SO SO SO SO SOOOOOO LUCKY TODAY!!!!!!!!
hahas.!
There's kindhearted person in the whole wide world!!
:D
SOMEONE PICKED UP MY EZLINK AND RETURNED TO MEEEEEE!!!
hahaas!
YAY!!!!
WOOOOO!
Hahaaas
happy happy(:
now there's nothing sad to think about.
Not gonna disappoint myself.
Am gonna concentrate better by tmr,maybe the nxt day etc....
Am not gonna have tOooooooo much distraction being there for me.
Am gonna find a way to keep my iPod out of my sight.OUT OF MY BRAIN.OUT OF MY WHOLE SYSTEM.
MAYBE I'll keep my PHONE OUT OF SIGHT TOO.NO DISTRACTIONS.NO STORY BKS IN SIGHT.NO DIARY IN SIGHT TO WRITE.NO NOTHING.
Hmmmmmm
the onli thing that'll keep me distracted without anything to hide of cos isssssssssss:
MY BED!!!!!!
hahaaas
I know I'm quite like a pig
LOVES TO SLEEP
hahas
but I'm not a pigggg
I'm a doggy!
Hahas
lols(:
no la.I meant I'm born in the dog yr so I'm not pig..
Lols:D
keep smiling.
O LVLS SOUNDS SOOOO NEAR SOOO SCARY.
maybe if my results r well, I might still consider junior college.
Jus now went looking at the jc thingy on google n stuff.
Maybe temasek jc Is quite gd.maybe nanyang jc.and maybe national jc.hahas but national jc is at bukit batok there! So far.
Hmmm.
Maybe I shall NOT TALK SO MUCH UNTIL I STARTS GETTING SWRIOUS AND DO MY REVISIONS AFTER REVISIONS.
currently,haven't done anything serious and all to improve myself.
Not even that English assessment that I bought.
Not gonna waste money and not do a thing.
And I'm wondering shall I buy that MATHS ASSESSMENT that ms chew suggested? Would I be ableto finish it all and do tat?
I still dunno now.
Do I need?????
Haix.
Haix
haix
idk.
But now, I learnt to be more responsible ba.
After EZLINK INCIDENT.
hahaas
dun like losing things.
COS OF CARELESSNESS.
hates it.
(:
now, I'll keep smiling and all.
I'll await for my hardworking days to come n go soon.
I jus knows that HARDWORK PAYS OFF.
Au revoir...

..when u spent 1min to be sad/angry,u'll lose60sec of happiness tat you'll nvr get back.

I finally understand that.
Although I know that it's always better to stay happy,but I realize thAt when u r unhappy,u'll nvr put in thoughts of having to lose ur happiness over unhappiness.
I had decided that I'm not gonna care about anything and everything le.I'll onli care bout families n relatives n my studies.impt things now.

I'm gonna put down everything.
I'm not gonna care about whatever they r gonna do to d'art club.
Not gonna care what others say about it.
I'm gonna go with the flow.
Do what I can
leave all decisions to the teacher no matter how irresponsible and wrong she is.
I'll just help when I can
do my best
and stay happy.keep smiling as always

I shall not let all these affect my mood.
I won't feel guilty unless I had done something wrong.
So well,DUN ANYHOW BLAME ME .
I won't say anything to tell why am I saying that.
I won't pinpoint.
I'll jote everything in my diary as always(:
i WONT BOTHER ANYONE WHO DOESNT CARES BOUT D'ART CLUB AND COMPLAIN ABOUT IT.
hahaaas
so that I'll be HAPPY(:
keep smiling peeps
first week of sch had past.
Summarized version bout first week:
-busy busy and busy
-stress stress stress
-abit not so lucky

guess it'll be that(:
and well,second week will get better....

I DEFINETLY HATE THEM>:(

YOZ man.here are some bad news
-D'ART CLUB SEEMS TO HAVE NO HOPE
-MY EZLINK WAS LOST AT NANYANG POLY YESTERDAY!!!:O
-MY PHONE CANT BE ON!(I'll be phoneless for dunno how long!)

currently,HATE those peeps who dun wan d'art club.
HATE THEM.
INCONSIDERATE FREAKY PIG!
all cos of MRS GRACE CHUA!
SHE DUN LET US RECRUIT!
ONE OSO DUN!
IDIOTS!
AND NOW?
ONLI CAN AS SECOND CCA!
AND THEY DIDNT INCLUDE d'art club ON THE CCA ORIENTATION PLACING FORTHE BOOTH.
ARGGHGHHHHHH!

Btw,I can confirm that my EZLINK dropped @ NANYANG POLY !!!!
:O
kind souls will help me right?
):
pls let me get it back man!!!!!!!!!!

:D

Heys.guess it's sortof crazyy for my last post to be full of cap locks yeah? Hahas.
Today Is a great relieve after I took my amaths test! I can finally relaxxx abit!! Hahas. But guess if I've put in more effort to revise amaths during my holidays,I would have been able to do today's test a whole lot better.hahas.

Today, I have nothing much to post(: but I'll put thus song here
:D


The Sound of Music Soundtrack Lyrics
the Children - So Long, Farewell Lyrics
 
[Children:]
There's a sad sort of clanging from the clock in the hall
And the bells in the steeple too
And up in the nursery an absurd little bird
Is popping out to say "cuckoo"
[Marta, Gretl, Brigitta:]
Cuckoo, cuckoo

[Children: Marta, Gretl, Brigitta: ]
Regretfully they tell us Cuckoo, cuckoo 
But firmly they compel us Cuckoo, cuckoo 
To say goodbye . . . 
[Marta, Gretl, Brigitta:]
Cuckoo!
[Children:]
. . . to you

[Children:]
So long, farewell, auf Wiedersehen, good night
[Marta:]
I hate to go and leave this pretty sight

[Children:]
So long, farewell, auf Wiedersehen, adieu
[Friedrich:]
Adieu, adieu, to yieu and yieu and yieu

[Children:]
So long, farewell, au revoir, auf wiedersehen
[Liesl:]
I'd like to stay and taste my first champagne

[Children:]
So long, farewell, auf Wiedersehen, goodbye
[Kurt:]
I leave and heave a sigh and say goodbye -- Goodbye!
[Brigitta:]
I'm glad to go, I cannot tell a lie
[Louisa:]
I flit, I float, I fleetly flee, I fly
[Gretl:]
The sun has gone to bed and so must I

[Children:]
So long, farewell, auf Wiedersehen, goodbye
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye

[Guests:]
Goodbye!

UNFAIR .DO YA KNOW HOWS IT FEEL LIKES TO BE MADE USE OF???!!!

Yoz.
Am soooooooooo Lucky today! Ms chew postpone the test(:
but i'llhave tostudy after writing in here.....
Guess can't possibly chat wif Aaron much yeah? Would jus bless him and wish him luck. HAHAS(:

DAMN STUPID IDIOTS JUS KNOWS HOW TO MAKE USE OF US YEAH? BUT I GUESS AT THE VERY END,WE'll STILL BE FORGOTTEN. CAN'T THEYJUS TELL US THAT ART CLUB IS OF NO USE,NO COMTRIBUTES TO THE SCHOOL? AND THAT THEY DUN NEED US? WHYY MUS THEY DO THINGS TO MAKE US FELT BEING MADE USED OF? WHY DO THEY LET US FEEL THAT ART CLUB IS JUS A USELESS CCA TO THEM? WHYY DONT THEY STAND IN OUR SHOES AND THINK? DON'T THINK THEY HAD EVEN BOTHERED TO EXPLAIN TO US WHY DID THEY NOT LET US RECRUIT LAST YR.HATES MRS CHUA FOR WHATEVER SHE DONE MAN.DUN WAN D ART CLUB.THINK ITS NOT IMPT.right.not impt I guess.but whyy make use of us yeah? During impt events.why make us rush everything.not happy change.happy jus happy.DUN THINK WE WERE EVEN APPRECIATED .some might appreciate for our help.WE R NOT WORKERS MAN.at least workers gets paid.WAT R WE? Students good enough to help? Students good enough to use? Last yr stuff is over and it's fine.dun let us recruit last yr,so be it.what can I do? But well,WHY CANT PPLE CHOOSE D'ART CLUB AS FIRST CCA? why did it have to be SECOND CCA? who will join it as second cca huh? Secondary school life isn't full of time.do u think letting us handle last minute stuff willlet everything turn out to be SUCCESSFUL n FUN? NOOO.! ):

Today isn't such a good day man.
Today is the first time I felt so SAD at sch. Felt so LOST.
Wif a irresponsible teacher and a new teacher left wif us ,do u think we can survive????
LETS SEEE MAN.
no offence to ms carol.she's good.gues one day she'll be like mr Sam lim.but she's just abit not so experience now.being new and all.
MISS THE DAYS WHEN MR LIM WAS STILL THERE MAN.
I'm gonna stop here.....
I mus study now! Where to start?????

Happy new yr

Hahas.damn it.got chatting wif someone and started neglecting my hmwk again! :O shall wake at 7tmr and do!(:
good luck wif endless work
•two amaths paper
•emaths some qn didn't do
•poa
•eng bk review (3)
•chi
•physics

I'm gonna be dead! I wan an extended deadline!!!!!!!!!!
Bb(:
gtg