Reality of Parenting

Dear Blog,

this is the sad truth.
As I watch that video of my toddler throwing her tantrums, I'm overwhelmed with a huge sense of guilt that I caused my daughter to scream in that monster way.

I must've not done my part as a parent.
Resulting in not able to handle my toddler well.
Why didnt we read more to understand the behaviour of a child.

As the saying goes.
人之初，性本善。性相近，习相远。

Just hope that we can give her more love to grow up and be a lovely human.

Yet we're not that perfect to know how to make it right.
Just hoping our kids will turn out to be a better us.

Love,
Z

Gotten into me

Dear this space of mine,

I feel awful.
Been screaming in frustration recently.
Felt like my blood pressure is about to burst soon.

Have no idea. Just felt like the negativity have really gotten into me.
Like is it because I havent been writing in my blog for very long?
Havent been able to write down and analyse my thoughts.

Nor did I take the effort and time to think about things in a clearer mind?
Is it that my stomach virus got into my head?
So I'm having some form of virus in my head right now.
Couldn't think properly.

I should do better. I saw this video posted by my friend, something to do with the subconscious mind i think. Need to use it more than using the conscious mind.
Need to rest my brains. Maybe its the lack of sleep eating my brains.

Ha.

Till then

Dear Space

Dear this personal space of mine.

Who does blogs nowadays?

This space I read back, and soon realize that its been really abandoned, and only remembered when there's unhappy things to write about in life.

Haha.
Anw life's been good, so the post are just a moment of unhappy thoughts.

Hope alls well for whoeever reading this. If theres anyone who ever chance upon this space.

Love,
Z