Dearest blog. A space left abandoned for too long.
On days like this, I just need to pen down my personal thoughts.
I am a mother of two now. How time flies.
Currently on my maternity leave, and it is going to end in less than 3weeks time.
Tmr will be the first day of school for my infant. I really wish to let her adapt slowly and comfortably. Yet, this have to become an issue. I wish I could blame someone on this. Blame the person who plan to go buffet? Or blame the one who insist that I go to the buffet?
Why cant it be simply just me and my baby. My baby is starting her first day in ifc. I just wanna make things right for her. I wish it could just be this simple. Yet it couldnt.
You are selfish. Why cant you see it. Shes young, she shouldnt be thrown there so many hours on day 1. Just couldnt see it.
I really am speechless about this, and it just ruin my night. I dont feel any love for us, as he's not thoughtful enough. Theres so much I have to do at home, so much I need to pack up. Not forgetting I even need to pump milk before I pick my daughter up, so that she will have something for tmr or the day after.
Nights all
Tuesday, July 31, 2018
Friday, March 9, 2018
Saving for the future with more freedom
It's been really tiring.
I guess it must've been due to the fact that Im pregnant & tired. It's the start of my third trimester, and I'm feeling really lethargic. Hardly any energy. All I want to do is hibernate and zoom till the part where it's already after my delivery & 1 month confinement done. So that my body could be back to normal, and I just need to be at home to feed my newborn.
Im losing my grip to want to chase for the goal. the goal to save money and just to get a job near home.
month after month saving up all the savings. just to put aside, but Im feeling like Im still standing on the same spot. Couldnt feel myself progressing to smell that freedom where i could just work part time and watch my children grow up.
You can say that Im losing hope. And all i want is just to be a SAHM and be at home doing whatever.. And maybe get that job where i could earn from just staying at home.
But life as such, and here I am.
Maybe just not the best time to debate about all these. Should just keep on moving forward.
Cos there must be a light at the end of the tunnel.
I will see that light somehow someday.
Love,
Zi
I guess it must've been due to the fact that Im pregnant & tired. It's the start of my third trimester, and I'm feeling really lethargic. Hardly any energy. All I want to do is hibernate and zoom till the part where it's already after my delivery & 1 month confinement done. So that my body could be back to normal, and I just need to be at home to feed my newborn.
Im losing my grip to want to chase for the goal. the goal to save money and just to get a job near home.
month after month saving up all the savings. just to put aside, but Im feeling like Im still standing on the same spot. Couldnt feel myself progressing to smell that freedom where i could just work part time and watch my children grow up.
You can say that Im losing hope. And all i want is just to be a SAHM and be at home doing whatever.. And maybe get that job where i could earn from just staying at home.
But life as such, and here I am.
Maybe just not the best time to debate about all these. Should just keep on moving forward.
Cos there must be a light at the end of the tunnel.
I will see that light somehow someday.
Love,
Zi