end of 2012

hi there! rmb how i used to have so many goals in my life. every year, i would definitely post my new year resolution! but right now, i will nvr do that anymore. time seemed to be travelling too fast. once again, i pass by my life in a blur. 2011 and 2012 pass by me like some zooooming lightning! oh well, i guess that's what teachers meant by time will fly after the O levels. Smile people! do remind me that i use to say keep smiling so much. i use to be very positive and full of hope. i hope i wont lose it in the year 2013. i hope i do what i like to. hopefully when i post bout end of 2013, i will be able to be so excited and full of hopes in my life again. smile people(:

Goodbye for the moment

so hi! on christmas, i went out to kampong glam with dear jinson to look for my baggggg that i love but didnt buy the last time i was there!

 we reach kampong glam area n we r both so hungryyyyy then we went to eat murtabak!

 murtabak! first time trying this(:

 presents(:

 what i bought !! hehe! batik designed bag for $39-/- and body lotion for $21?

 this photo took for NAD cos she wan see my hair! cos i told her my hair same length as hers(:

so here's homemade popiah made by small aunt, YUMS

Well, here's memory of last year's mid semester holiday. i realised this holiday i didnt spend much time to relax n chill. i didnt go out with jinson like whole day at all...

but last yr december 2 wks break, we went to many places. and we swim very often.... miss those times....

hahahahhaaa. 

so here are some photos(:

looking at all these photos made me smile and i feel so relaxed. ahhahaaa. this holiday, i dont know what i've been doing.... and the most horrible thing is its gonna be over! now lets get back to reality cos school is starting!

from now on, 

1. no Facebook
2. no Twitter
3. no Instagram
4. no Blogging
5. no Tumblr
6. no Online browsing of those blogs or blogshops.
7. and must study
8. and do project
9. and exercise
10. SMILE and be HAppy of cos

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christmas eve 2012

so well, on this christmas eve, there's no such thing as yay lets party n count down! but there is such thing as lets do research! deadlines to meet. no time. so many things to accomplish.

well, anyway, i dont celebrate christmas. so well, nothing much. seems like just another ordinary day, just that everyone dont need to work. LOLs.....

sianz... sometimes i cant figure myself out. well, smile. i forgot what being happy and keep smiling is all about anymore.

Merry christmas eve. till i post. lols

things changes life goes on

i think sometimes, its difficult to understand that 'chimology' of life.

Stress MAX..

idk what to say. on monday, i got presentation, i got submission, and i need to do presentation today tmr. do the ttb submission today tmr. do grp research today tmr. and what else? omg feel like dying

Its FRIDAYYYYY

Today's Guest lecture on SEX TOURISM.
and the guest showed this click five music video which kind of link to this SEX tourism topic.
many says that todays lecture is an impactful one as u will feel strongly about it. so well, the only thing that i can share with u about is this video.
ENJOY^^

so now im waiting for my grp to present our proposal. so i decided to blog here and study after the proposal presentation^^

land transport-TRAIN

http://www.orient-express.com/web/eoe/eastern_and_oriental_express.jsp
Expensive train rides!

thinking

sometimes, i think i got to learn to be less busybody. from now on i shall not care for anything or anybody that much. smile. life will be better off

one day

my aunt came home and she asked me :'who's the person you respect most in this world?'
my answer : 'hmmm. grandpa'

love. a thousand years?

(Verse 1)
Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid
To fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt
Suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

(Chorus)
I have died everyday
waiting for you
Darlin' don't be afraid
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

(Verse 2)
Time stands still
beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything 
Take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath, 
Every hour has come to this

One step closer

(Chorus)
I have died everyday

Waiting for you
Darlin' don't be afraid
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a 
Thousand more

And all along I believed
I would find you
Time has brought
Your heart to me
I have loved you for a 
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

One step closer
One step closer

(Chorus)
I have died everyday
Waiting for you
Darlin' don't be afraid,
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

And all along I believed
I would find you
Time has brought 
Your heart to me
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a 
Thousand more

21 GUNS

Do you know what's worth fighting for?
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?

Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/g/green_day/21_guns.html ]
Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone?

When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

More lyrics: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/g/green_day/#share

life so far......AGAIN..

hi pple. i got too lazy to think of nice titles that i just like the title life so far.
hahhahahaahaaaa
anw, its good to hear bout my friends from their blogs.
i guess for those who are in jc, they are gonna be out of the misery of studying soon! goodluck for all of ur papers! CARPE DIEM!!! :P

anw in poly, we still has got like 1 and a half more yrs! its kind of scary. hahahahhahaaa.
and all the project seems to revolve around MARKETING!!! hahahaa
ok!

21-25 nov is the arena warehouse sale!
yayyyyy!

interesting?

little childhood memories

aunt says that when im young, i wore 3/4 pants so tat when i get caned i dun feel pain.
haha. didnt know im so smart.

additional photo from gardens by the bay

those depressing thoughts

anyway, i dunno why, but i just feel like i should blog. so that i can blog away my frustrating thoughts.
for the whole of last week, i have been thinking nonsense. somehow, i feel that jinson will not be able to tolerate my nonsense soon. i just feel so... u know? idk how i feel also. i just dun feel nice. i think im to busybody. i always likes to know everything. i guess i got to be not so busybody about jinson. cos he also wont tell me everything like naturally. only me, only i will like auto say what im doing n where i am and stuff. sometimes, i just feel that everything in this world isnt so nice. sometimes i wished that i wasn't born in one situation or the other.

of cos i know there's alot people that care for me and loves me. so well, please pardon my thoughts if u guys love me. hahaa. i think im someone that thinks alot. sometimes this thinking too much is just very inevitable. so after a few days of silly thoughts about jinson, i decided that i would not be bothered with who he talk or chat with, or who he text. its alright if he wanna tell me about those things or not. from now on im just not gonna be bothered with all those stuff. cos the more im bothered with it, the more i will not feel happy. even if i wanna be bothered with it, nothing will do me good cos those unimportant stuff is not something that jinson will talk about. its like how he oso wont be bothered with who text me. i guess he have his freedom to text whichever guy or girl he wants as long as i have my freedom too right?(:

so well, now im happy i just feel so much better when i decided not to care. and i realise one thing about myself. in the past, i dun care about alot of stuff. so im always happy cos not caring kind of makes me feel so much better than caring. caring hurts. but when i dont care, i suddenly feel like im in my own world again. nothing seems to be important to me anymore. somehow i just wish that i will quickly walk pass this life of mind and go on to somewhere else which idk where.

today, i went to watch skyfall for free. second aunt n uncle invited me n jinson to watch. while we are on the way there via train, we are talking bout some stuff. one of it is like u kno nxt time if we get married, then like stay where n stuff like that? somehow i feel very gloomy whenever jinson say bout how daughter who got married is like water that is splashed out. i mean this is the 20th century is it??? for me, i kno that if get married must treat my spouse parents like my own n look after them n stuff. but that doesnt mean i dun have my own parents to look after. i think if a daughter is married out and mean no need care bout her own family so much, i think that is a very selfish thing. for me, i will not be able to do that.

in my context, i feel that getting married is just being able to live n learning to live with the person tat i love. but that doesnt mean to forget those that raise me up and stuff. i will nvr be that selfish. to me, i feel that i owe my life to many pple. even when my stepmom did the minimum she can do for me, i will still feel grateful for what is given to me. much less those that really helped me alot. firstly, the reason that im having this life im having now is because my father got my custody. right?? n how they got it is because of my big aunt's help. lawsuit and everything u know? i will forever be grateful to all of my aunts. there is just too much example to give. so the above is one example.

anw although some of my aunts have kids to look after them, thats their problem. because sincerity only can come from the person itself. doesnt mean they have kids i cant care for them or visit them or be nice to them in the future when i get married or what right? haix. sometimes life is just too complicated..

i guess i will see how everything goes then? sometimes i just cant help but feel sad when nobody understands what i say or what i wan to do. i know there's so many things that i can be happy about. just... u know?

anyways, smilesmile. i hope i will smile everyday. n be like what im like in the past. i wish i could go back to those times when things are so much more simplier than now. but i guess everyone has to grow up right?

sometimes i feel that i do not have to grow up because im starting to feel that growing up doesnt make me any happier than when im young. sometimes i wish my grandpa will be here to listen to how i feel. because he is the closest person that will listen to me and not bring me down with my thoughts(:

school this sem.

so recently school had been very interesting and that also add up to some stress.
although many interesting things had been introduced into my world, stress is inevitable as those things we learn got to allow us to turn something creative during our projects.

so lets have an overview on what is so interesting.

for Festival and events management
we are exposed to many many events that i dont even know about(: it all interest me so much!
let me show u some videos(:

this is la tomatino @ spain

and this is diner en blanc first held in asia @ singapore

it is organised by some french pop-up restaurant?

and this is sentosa spootacular for halloween.

and now i can tell u a story(:

this spooktacular is said to be a event that was planned by HTM senior last yr. and it is brought to live as their event was being selected. it so fun and exciting to see your grp project being put into live from a paper work right!!!

this festival and events management subject, for grp project we will be planning events for 'singapore river one'... and out of all the classes, so many report will be submitted to the person in charged of planing events at singapore river. so it seems damn freaking exciting to really plan something!!!!^^

and ok, so tired to blog.. hehee.

i will blog about anoher subject then i will end it there(:

another subject is club , resort, and spa

so for this, we are suppose to plan something like the subject name at sentosa. (: 

let me show some video of some very nice stuff

so this is the overview of Capella singapore

it is very atas. hahaa

staying one night over there, cheapest is like ard $500-$600

and the expensive price can be set at $12,000!!!!!!!

and this is a very exclusive spa at capella.

i was thought that if want to go spa, its best to spend a whole full day to relax if not it will not be useful..

and at capella, once u step inside, its full of relax mood till the very time u end ur spa with very good tea and stuff.

thats all lovely friends! hope u enjoy seeing those videos(:

hello.

anyways, just a short post.

i understand that im very fortunate compare with the others. and i should not feel any little bit of unhappiness cos i have a home, i can study, i got food to eat n stuff. but sometimes, i cant help but feel ungrateful for whatever that im having or what people give me.

i definitely cant understand how it is to be someone else stepmom. and i cant criticise how she treats me. because she is not like some evil stepmom. so well, i should be grateful. i cant expect someone to treat me like a real daughter when im not one. and oh well, i should be grateful that she gives me allowance then. but even outsiders can see that she would save up n not give me if she can. sometimes idk the way she treats me is real or fake.
i dun understand why some people just dun show the true self or be truthful.

sometimes, maybe looking after their 'daughter' is what i should do to payback those allowances that was given to me huh?

 but

i will always know one thing is that my small aunt is more like my biological mom than the one i call to be 'mommy' .

sometimes life is just unfair huh

e wk before e last wk of sch!

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this is something i wanted to do for fun. hehe

 lets explore at my failure but not so fail  peace of experiment^^

 looks artsy eh?(;

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tada!

 lets forget bout this ruined but not ruined shirt^^

anyway, this is jinson and zihui's 1 yr!!!

10/10   

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so we planned to meet at 11:11 again. but both of us r there earlier than 1111.

this yr, i didnt rush^^

surprisingly^^

so we went frm nex all the way to city hall.^^

we walked frm city link all the way to marina square^^

then we went there to bowl!!!!

after which, we walked all around marina square! heheheeh

n we ate lunch @ swensens! cos there is free sides/i-scream/drinks with a meal!!

 soft shell crab pasta

 fish and chip forever

 bowling!

 then GARDENS BY THE BAY!

 woahhh look at that gloomy and windy weather!!!

looks like its gonna rain!

 ticketing^^

 now lets enter gardens by the bayyy...

 anyways, these are the photos from my phone!

didnt take much! as i used jinson's phone to take photos instead! hehee

will post it up if theres chance! cos the view there is really good!

on a fridayyyy...

mh pj n zh visit back to deyiii

and guess what? look at this board! been there since startt of 2009 without changing. it was done by d'art club's secretarial team before mr sam lim left!

goodness... its nice that its still here to see. but................

 look at pei! taking photo of herself!! hahahaahaha.

 memories~

then we proceed to strictly pancakes.

 what-a-spread

 blackforest dunno what..

 tiramisu

 'we r happy cos pancake's here!'

 'omg. too much to finish......'

 the wasted parts.

 my neatly cut pieces^^

 my so-called dinner on that day^^ noodle plus tomyam CP wanton

 the sunglasses i bought wif pei @rubi

 the nxt day, look after sis! i cooked sweet n spicy chicken wings

 n broccoli n seaweed toufu soup!

 something i havent write in quite awhile...

n this is the gift from dearest deer for the 10/10

^.^

thats all!
good luck for poly school reopens^^
and to those is JC, JIAYOU for A levels
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