HAZE

by no doubts, I'm getting giddy spells due to this bad air in singapore.
It's so bad that my nose is feeling so terrible. and I havent got the good head to do my projects.
Conditions everywhere is really bad..

HEAT

I cant help but blog about it. the HEAT.
Nowadays, the weather is getting so unbearable. This on going heat might just become the future illness. HEATstroke. I bet soon there will be many people falling ill due to heat stroke. because I have been feeling it. the symptoms. The headache. the heating up of the body etc. oh my goodness.

Does 心静自然凉 works under such circumstances?

I truly wonder. May all of us have a peaceful heart leading to cooling feel on our skin !
hehe!

Anyways, I should really be chionging my projects right now. but then I  thought I will blog about my life so that I would settle down nicely and chiong my researches. This semester 3.1 is gonna be over for us. Time flyies truly truly after what is called the secondary school(:

Soon I will be off for my internship overseas at X island.
Here I would say goodbye to all my lovely friends on bloggie!^^
but if the internet assess is good over at X island, I will most probably be blogging constantly^^

I feel that I'm suddenly growing up really fast after the secondary school stage. With all the jobs that I've taken up, I have been responsible in the things that I want to buy. and also been thinking in the responsible way to provide for myself.

Such a surprising thing that most probably I will just hit straight into the work force and will be at that stage of being a young adult. I truly wonder what I will do in that future of mine.

Life is still unpredictable. It will never be predictable.
How am I going to go about learning to embrace it?

Love,
Zihui

English name

My name is Zihui. Is it a difficult name to pronounce? I came accross many people that could not pronounce my name right. But im proud to be Zihui because theres a meaning behind this name. And it is given by someone special to me(: 

I know that someday I should have an english name because once people told me thAt I should have an english name so that people can remember me and my name. What english name should I have? 

Once my OBS friend Sean called me Zoey. Hahahaha. At work, one colleague calls me Apple. 

Oh well?

Specially for you

Hi LL,

I guess u will most probably feel yourself searching for the meaning as to why are you born on earth, and aiming for god knows what.

Haha. you know, please don't feel socially outcast. Sometimes, you can become who you want to be. We all can choose if we want to be what. we can be a person that goes around socializing and having fun. Or we can be those people that just enjoys the peacefulness of life and keep to only a few close friends.

Maybe I don't know the feeling of you feeling socially outcast. but I can tell you a story.

In poly, we have a lesson called APEL.

Recently in APEL class, my teacher was discussing with us a topic. Diversity. It sort of linked to talking about social outcast.

And this is what I know, that it doesnt matter if a person is social outcast or not. The important thing is how we see ourselves.

To me, sometimes I get it, and I don't like to mingle around people. Sometimes, I just don't socialize with people I do not know anymore. I rather sit by myself and isolate from the crowd. Sometimes I see myself being weird and unfriendly. But, I ask myself what is it that I want. And I remind myself that it doesnt matter what others think of me. Because they can judge, but they will not know who I really am.

My APEL teacher, is normally classified as a weirdo by many people. She is those 'one of a kind teacher'. But I find her unique. She is a very open minded and cool teacher to have(: But she is really weird, in the sense different from the normal teachers. But this difference is good. It gives her an identity of her own. Making her unique.

So, Please don't think of yourself being social outcast or not. Its just whether you want to make a stranger you see as a friend. Just make sure you feel comfortable in the situations you get into all the time. And be happy(:

Don't bother what others think. Be yourself and strive for what you wants to get(:
Don't regret(: And believe in yourself alright?

with love,
Zihui

Blinded future

So I always wonder what there is to have in my future.
Does everyone  wonder about their future too?
Somehow, the future is always blinded.

We don't know what will happen the next
Seconds..
Minutes...
Hours....
Days.....
Weeks...
Months....
Years......

and it goes on and on.

So lets just look forward in a positive note.
Smile(:

Year 3

Alrights. Hi people, it's been a long while since I last blogged. I know. I've always been starting my blog post saying this boring statement(: well, hopefully it's something funny for you all to read(:

So I took this photo off susu's blog cos I'm lazy to upload photos from my itouch(: but, also, because I havent start studying or doing any of my hmwk yet(: so Jinson might think this is just typically the Zihui that he know. But I guess for my secondary sch lovelies, you all probably cant imagine a Zihui that doesn't do my hmwk right? Cos in the past, I will not miss my hmwk (: or miss studying or paying attention in class right?(:

At many times through my poly life, I felt warm in my heart as I know that I have you people out there that gives me the encouragement and confidence that stayed with me through secondary school till now(: Sometimes, I've forgotten that part of myself that used to be so hardworking and determined to do and believe in all the things that I do. Reason why I can survive through poly feeling the confidence although I didnt study enough or work hard at all is because I kept that faith that you people had in me. Although I don't rmb the exact words that my secondary school friends or teachers said to me, I definitely know tat at those times, part of the confidence I have in myself is because of all of you(:

My moto every other day ;)

Again, Nice to reminisce times like that(: 

I rmb how we use to encourage each other each and everyday. No matter what we do, we will push each other. Because faith is all that we can grab onto at those times when everything seems to be so uncontrollable.

I know that till today, Life is still uncontrollable. Unpredictable. Oh i added the link to our IRSDMP blog. hahahahahaa. what a blog thats so dead. hahahhahahahaah!

Anw, I should try to study now(: I wish I could get back the old me that is so serious about the things that I do(: Went into poly with the wrong mindset. But life goes on(:

Let's JIAYOU for the very last run of the SCHOOL in poly!
And congrats to my many friends in JC that's gonna move on in life and EXPERIENCE different chapter of their life soon <3 p="">
With love and smile always

Earth Hour 23MARCH

OH well, it will be a DATE to rmb(:

23 march 2012
I was at ilight marina bay(: With ZUELLA!!!!!

and on 23 March 2013, 

I met zuella again! spend quite a long time chitchatting with her to catch up in the evening(: hehehehe! such a coincidence eh?! hahahahahha!!!! great catching up with her! and eating SOGURT!!! ahhhahhahahahhaha!!!!

& we spent $20 on this D:

ok im currently having the lazy feel to blog about anything at all. well, Takecare my friends(;

So was I that Bored?

YA I am(: but I'm still having this little enjoyment of my holiday spending time with myself most of the time(:
well, of cos when im at home, I browse through twitter and instagram all the time when I'm too lazy to do productive things(:

And one of those days, I happen to see this youtuber on instagram
here's his video. About why they hate going to the mall. hahaa

It's pretty funny. These two guys are such a joke!

haha
Alrights! post another day!
Takecare my lovely friends(:

At First Sight

So I've just finished reading 'At First Sight' by Nicholas Sparks. And this is truly a heart wrenching tale with a twist in the story which caught me off guard. Worth the read(: 


“Just when you think it can't get any worse, it can. And just when you think it can't get any better, it can.” 
― Nicholas Sparks, At First Sight

Live my Life.

So this holiday, I've decided that I will do things that I, Myself, wanna do. hahahahaha. Want to work where, I work, Go where, I go. Stay anywhere I wanna stay. Haha. What's living life by someone else opinion right? Start to treat myself better and do things that I wants to do(: Who cares about anyone else's opinion right? Oh wells, Over the years, I've learnt that no matter what I do to try to keep people happy, no one is ever satisfied. There's always a way in which they will pick up something and be unhappy about.

Of cos, I'm not that perfect too. I get irritated by many things. I'm learning to not expect anything so that I will be happy(: Oh well, this is life right?

So actually, I'm blogging today because I wanna blog about decisions that I've made.

So I'm gonna get a NOKIA LUMIA 820 when my contract ends!

And thanks to Jinson's mom, I've got a challenger voucher as my early birthday present! and I'm gonna use that to buy an itouch5!

HAHA! that's all for today(:
Wish me luck for tomorrow's interview at XX country club(:

The day before

by Lisa Shroeder

Oh well,
this is a great book
and this
is how the author
writes her book

It kept
me reading
on
and
on

hahahah!!!!!
So i actually read this book before and I forgot about it! oh well, its still a very nice bk(:

nxt up will be Nicholas Sparks. oh well. 3 more books before I go to library again!
and I've read her other books too!

The book I read and cried at the ending! HHAHAHAHA

All in all, books by Lisa Shroeder is always easy and simple to read due to the way she publish her books.

In a way
that no one
can Imagine.

hahaha!!!!

What i wan(:

GONNA SAVE UP FOR THIS <3 p="">

All i've been doing

Monday 4th March:

I went to bowl with Jonas & Zoe both are my groupmate this sem^^

and then jonas's dad drove us to IKEA to eat. and nat ate wif us too!

Tuesday 5th March:

Didnt do much ! i sprayed my shoe! hahahhahaa

Wednesday 6th March:

started to watch 'The Notebook' a movie based on the novel written by Nicholas Sparks.

 Here's the Trailer! really nice and touching movie(;

I watched this movie because i wanna read 'The Wedding' which is a sequel to the notebk!

After thirty years of marriage, Wilson Lewis, son-in-law of Allie and Noah Calhoun (of The Notebook), is forced to admit that the romance has gone out of his marriage. Desperate to win back his wife, Jane’s, heart, he must figure out how to make her fall in love with him… again. Despite the shining example of Allie and Noah’s marriage, Wilson is himself a man unable to easily express his emotions. A successful estate attorney, he has provided well for his family, but now, with his daughter’s upcoming wedding, he is forced to face the fact that he and Jane have grown apart and he wonders if she even loves him anymore. Wilson is sure of one thing—his love for his wife has only deepened and intensified over the years. Now, with the memories of his in-laws’ magnificent fifty-year love affair as his guide, Wilson struggles to find his way back into the heart of the woman he adores. 

This is quoted from Nicholas Sparks website!

this book is even more touching!!!!!! makes me wanna cry especially when its about the SWAN........

So after the movie and the bk, its finally

 Thursday 7th March

I read these 2 mystery book! really very mysterious and nice!!!!!!!!

Over the Edge

Nobody knows how Peter ended up at the bottom of MacAdam’s lookout. Chloe can’t figure it out, or why his mother seems to think she was his friend. Peter had no friends. He was a loner, more interested in astronomy than in other people. But something – or someone – pushed him over the edge. . . 

Double Cross

From the second she met him, Chloe thought Jonah was a jerk. So what's she doing going all over the place with him, telling lies, getting in trouble, all to prove that his father isn't a murderer? Especially when she isn't even sure it's true? In this nail-biting sequel to Over the Edge, Chloe finally pieces together what happened the day Mary Shackleton died. The trouble is, the closer she gets to the truth, the closer she is to danger. 

 Oh well, Im done with these books now(: and i went to borrow bks by Nicholas Sparks again! and by Lisa Schroeder!!!!

I love the books by Lisa Schroeder! this is how it looks like in the book!

e.g: 

“Was it hard?” I ask.
“Letting go?”
“Not as hard as holding on to something that
wasn’t real.”
I gulp. “Can I ask how you did it?”
“I just decided, Ava.
That’s all.
I just decided.” 
― Lisa Schroeder, I Heart You, You Haunt Me

hahah! so isnt it fun to read a book like that? anw this bkkk 'I heart you, You Haunt Me really made me tear. Imagining the heart ache of the girl. hahahaah! i read that in secondary schoool I think(;

Okay! that's All for today<3 font="">

KEEP SMILING!

Patience

You know, I think im kind of pathetic. I have such a great patience. Today, I made myself wait. Wait for a response. Wait for things to be fine. Wait for something. Just a reply. Is that too much to ask for? I waited in vain. Now I really got nothing to say. I lost hope in you. Am I not being understanding? I guess maybe Im not understanding enough. But idk. It truly disappoints me. Im not gonna look forward or wait anymore....Im tired of all these. Really tired to think. Maybe it was me who think too much...maybe.....

SAMSUNG ATIV S

maybe i wan this window phone instead(:

TOdayyyyyy. hahaha

so well, im gonna upload what i was telling LL bout the AH Boys to men actors.

RMB this guy? anw i upload this cos its really funnyyy

and this is tosh rock aka Sergeant Ong in ABTM2. hahahaa. this video is the one that my cousin show me before this ABTM is even out(:

enjoy the funny video!
blog again sooon! too lazy nowwww

Anime?

So recently, Xiuying was watching film by a guy name Hayao Mizayaki. She said his film all very nice. Since I was lazy to study, I join in watching the show she borrowed from NLB.. hahahahaa. And it is really good.

Howl's Moving Castle

Castle in the Sky

Kiki's Delivery Services

So you think you can dance

So when i watch "so you think you can dance" , this dancer really dance like it brings out his soul?

anw this song he dance to is "My Immortal" by Evanescence......

Didnt he really dance very soulfully?

anw, watching it reminds me of a video that i showed to the class when presenting on the topic "Child Sex Tourism" in brazil. 

anw, i found that,

 "'My Immortal' is a song of pain and despair caused by the loss of a family member or very close friend and how it drove her [Lee] to the edge of insanity."

hahahaha.
Goodbye till I post again(: enjoy the video!

3 days till the FREEdom.

oh wellz, I have just realized that my post have all been quite negative recently. I guess I ought to aim to be a better person when I have the free time. Need to brush up my english, and also, to think more positively. Out of the sudden, I've realized that I'm not that positive as how I once used to be.

Recently, I've started writing in my diary again. I must be more diligent in writing. Because the more I write, the better I will be when forming up sentences. Sometimes, I realized that what I write is so broken. As in broken english everywhere. I wonder how my dear lovely friends read my post. Don't you guys have a difficult time reading and trying to understand the things that I've been talking about? hahahhaha. I guess I have to start enhancing my life with more meaningful things I do everyday.

At many times in life, motivations are gain and forgotten behind. I want to dig back the motivations that I once used to have to push me on in life. Recently, I realized that there is nothing that keeps me going anymore. I guess I've kind of lost myself when I graduated from my Secondary School. I lost myself in the complicated life out there. And I don't work hard in my Polytechnic years as I have no idea and no aim of where I want to go in the future.

I guess this is why its is important to have dreams in life. Only with dreams, then can a person have the strength to pursue what we want.

Once, my Care person (what we call form teacher in sec sch, but its called care person in Poly) told me to wake up from my dreams. Because I asked him what should I do if I have too much dreams to achieve. And he told me that I should wake up.

At that point of time, I thought that I should really be more realistic and wake up from all the dreams that I have. But now, I realized that without those dreams, I find no meaning in going on everyday in my life. I feel that there is nothing to pursue to push me to do my best in life.

So I guess having many many dreams would be better than nothing. At least all my dreams will keep me busy in life. To gain more knowledge and I will live up to my 'name'..

with Love,
ZIHUI(:

*the boring typical title*

in life, i dont know anymore what is going to be what.
I don't know anymore what is a good choice. nobody gives me the answer...

*insert typical heading*

hahahaa. so i actually wanna put LIFE as the heading, but i guess there are many post with such a heading. so well, now i should be trying to finish the assignment dueing in less than 8 hr.... but.. i wanna post. so i have been thinking.. there is this quote that says people comes and go in life. and that peoples changes and life goes on. i guess oh! i forgot! in life the most constant thing is CHANGE. haha. oh well, i think i have to season myself with that. have to accept anything that comes my way and stay happy(: and rmb that nobody will really stay here forever. someday, i will start to expect nothing from anybody. at least thats the least i can expect(; hehe. oh well, I think at many times, many will be selfish to keep themselves happy. i will also be one of them but i will be selfish to keep myself happy and have a clear conscious and not do anything that harms others. life is really an intricate piece of thingyyy. more complicated than anything else. SMILE(:

project

so lets begin my reflection with a single word to reach the thousand digit. hehe

End of January 2013

hi friends! sorry its been awhile that i havent been posting.
JIAYOU N TAKECARES TILLLLL I POST SOMEDAYYY

end of 2012

hi there! rmb how i used to have so many goals in my life. every year, i would definitely post my new year resolution! but right now, i will nvr do that anymore. time seemed to be travelling too fast. once again, i pass by my life in a blur. 2011 and 2012 pass by me like some zooooming lightning! oh well, i guess that's what teachers meant by time will fly after the O levels. Smile people! do remind me that i use to say keep smiling so much. i use to be very positive and full of hope. i hope i wont lose it in the year 2013. i hope i do what i like to. hopefully when i post bout end of 2013, i will be able to be so excited and full of hopes in my life again. smile people(:

Goodbye for the moment

so hi! on christmas, i went out to kampong glam with dear jinson to look for my baggggg that i love but didnt buy the last time i was there!

 we reach kampong glam area n we r both so hungryyyyy then we went to eat murtabak!

 murtabak! first time trying this(:

 presents(:

 what i bought !! hehe! batik designed bag for $39-/- and body lotion for $21?

 this photo took for NAD cos she wan see my hair! cos i told her my hair same length as hers(:

so here's homemade popiah made by small aunt, YUMS

Well, here's memory of last year's mid semester holiday. i realised this holiday i didnt spend much time to relax n chill. i didnt go out with jinson like whole day at all...

but last yr december 2 wks break, we went to many places. and we swim very often.... miss those times....

hahahahhaaa. 

so here are some photos(:

looking at all these photos made me smile and i feel so relaxed. ahhahaaa. this holiday, i dont know what i've been doing.... and the most horrible thing is its gonna be over! now lets get back to reality cos school is starting!

from now on, 

1. no Facebook
2. no Twitter
3. no Instagram
4. no Blogging
5. no Tumblr
6. no Online browsing of those blogs or blogshops.
7. and must study
8. and do project
9. and exercise
10. SMILE and be HAppy of cos

<3 2="2" all="all" div="div" ltr="ltr" months="months" seeya="seeya">

christmas eve 2012

so well, on this christmas eve, there's no such thing as yay lets party n count down! but there is such thing as lets do research! deadlines to meet. no time. so many things to accomplish.

well, anyway, i dont celebrate christmas. so well, nothing much. seems like just another ordinary day, just that everyone dont need to work. LOLs.....

sianz... sometimes i cant figure myself out. well, smile. i forgot what being happy and keep smiling is all about anymore.

Merry christmas eve. till i post. lols

things changes life goes on

i think sometimes, its difficult to understand that 'chimology' of life.

Stress MAX..

idk what to say. on monday, i got presentation, i got submission, and i need to do presentation today tmr. do the ttb submission today tmr. do grp research today tmr. and what else? omg feel like dying

Its FRIDAYYYYY

Today's Guest lecture on SEX TOURISM.
and the guest showed this click five music video which kind of link to this SEX tourism topic.
many says that todays lecture is an impactful one as u will feel strongly about it. so well, the only thing that i can share with u about is this video.
ENJOY^^

so now im waiting for my grp to present our proposal. so i decided to blog here and study after the proposal presentation^^

land transport-TRAIN

http://www.orient-express.com/web/eoe/eastern_and_oriental_express.jsp
Expensive train rides!

thinking

sometimes, i think i got to learn to be less busybody. from now on i shall not care for anything or anybody that much. smile. life will be better off

one day

my aunt came home and she asked me :'who's the person you respect most in this world?'
my answer : 'hmmm. grandpa'

love. a thousand years?

(Verse 1)
Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid
To fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt
Suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

(Chorus)
I have died everyday
waiting for you
Darlin' don't be afraid
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

(Verse 2)
Time stands still
beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything 
Take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath, 
Every hour has come to this

One step closer

(Chorus)
I have died everyday

Waiting for you
Darlin' don't be afraid
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a 
Thousand more

And all along I believed
I would find you
Time has brought
Your heart to me
I have loved you for a 
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

One step closer
One step closer

(Chorus)
I have died everyday
Waiting for you
Darlin' don't be afraid,
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

And all along I believed
I would find you
Time has brought 
Your heart to me
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a 
Thousand more

21 GUNS

Do you know what's worth fighting for?
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?

Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/g/green_day/21_guns.html ]
Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone?

When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

More lyrics: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/g/green_day/#share

life so far......AGAIN..

hi pple. i got too lazy to think of nice titles that i just like the title life so far.
hahhahahaahaaaa
anw, its good to hear bout my friends from their blogs.
i guess for those who are in jc, they are gonna be out of the misery of studying soon! goodluck for all of ur papers! CARPE DIEM!!! :P

anw in poly, we still has got like 1 and a half more yrs! its kind of scary. hahahahhahaaa.
and all the project seems to revolve around MARKETING!!! hahahaa
ok!

21-25 nov is the arena warehouse sale!
yayyyyy!

interesting?

little childhood memories

aunt says that when im young, i wore 3/4 pants so tat when i get caned i dun feel pain.
haha. didnt know im so smart.

additional photo from gardens by the bay