Protecting the Heart

i use to protect myself from hurt. i protect my heart and swear that i wont give it to the person i dun love or the person that dun love me. i don't know if giving to jinson will become my regrets. but i know that at those moments, i believe strongly that he loves me too. now that he said that his love for me has faded, it made me wonder if the start of the relationship was already a wrong step taken. but i really loves him. i know there are many fishes out there. but why?

i wish i could protect my heart again. but i guess to love means risking the heart in someone else's hands. and here i am risking my heart. just didn't knew till now that this risk was kind of a very big risk. a risk that might cause heart to break. but heart don't break. it will always stay intact. but why do i feel the great heart ache. the ache which when i dig out the memories and the things he promised and said, it feels so pain. i wish returning the letters back to him will make him realise that he still love me deep in his heart. what im afraid is after reading, he tells me that he doesnt love me anymore.