know what?

ok, yesterday im so irritated! i think im gonna be forever irritated by her! ok i kno that makes me a very bad person!! but what to do! i wanna say *no brains* and everything!! but then, i feel its not a right thing to feel this and to say this! how can i vent out my frustrations? omg! why am i even thinking of venting out frustrations? i kno im very bad!

but deep inside me, i dun like her to nag at me or lecture me at anything cos i just thinks that she have no rights to do that! i think i've been feeling this since primary 3! but OH CRAP!! I DIDNT REALISE IT TILL NOW!!! CRAP THIS THING!!!!! TSKKKK!!! HOW?!?!?!?! yea.... i always feels that she doesnot have the rights! cos she's just not my mom! she didnt went through all my growing up process! and she definitely have no rights to discipline me cos she just dont! idk! OMG!!! i dun even have the feel of BASIC RESPECT towards her like a daughter even though i call her mom!
and i think she just invaded my privacy by touching my stuff. she touched the stuff that my dear gave me... and i think she read the letter he wrote me!!! FREAKKKKK THAT!!! WHY SO STUPID TO READ AND NOT PUT IT BACK PROPERLY?! IDIOTT!!!

OMG THIS IS LIKE A PIECE OF SHIT THAT IDK HOW TO SETTLE! COS I DUN WAN TO HURT ANYONE!!! BUT THEN IM THE ONE GETTING HURT COS I DEFINITELY DOESN'T LIKES THAT IRRITATION FEEL!!! CRAP THIS SHIT!!!!

i miss all my aunt.. and my grandma.. i feel like i'm being away from those i feel very close to. i miss staying with them, i miss staying at the place that i feel like i'm home)':

how)':