you know, im such a disappointment i know. sometimes, i wish that i wont be so ambitious..
sometimes i wish that i wont disappoint anyone.
today, i feel like im really a disappointment to others.
why dont i have any discipline?
the whole of today, i can say that i literally didnt do any revision or tutorial.. i did everything BUT study.
i need to study. yet i just waste the whole day today..
lets see what i did.. i laze in my bed, i stare at the computer and look at all website but anything related to geography.. i did look at the GTT stuff.. i LOOK.. otherwise, i did nothing that im suppose to do.. and i saw on fb this link for this 'you are the apple of my eye' video.. and my eyes got stuck to it.. its not a video. its literally the whole movie.
oh my goodness..
someone come tell me im such an idiot.. im so disappointing.. what am i doing?????
why do i always end up not doing the things that i said i will do?
i feel like i've let pple who believe in me down...
its just feels like the last sem before my main exam..
went back to secondary school and i got to see all my teachers.. was telling them about my poly life.. no one even my friends believed that i hadn't did consistent studying. then i realised that i lost that part of myself that study consistently, i lost the part where i will work hard and do my very best in my studies.
i lost the part of myself and i feel that i've let down people that believed that i can do it
and this isnt something that felt nice. its like..... disappointing.. why am i such a disappointment? what's the point of saying and not doing a single shit about it?
stupid me.
anw, ok i shall stop doing all this retarded saying and i should just do it huh?
whats the point of saying when there is no action?
retard only.?
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