NO LOGIC.

just before i go lie in my bed and sleep or study, i would like to say NOo LOGIC..

what a retard. i feel so retarded all these while.. cos i've been learning the NOT SO RIGHT stuff.. and go take the extremely CMI test. retard. i feel damn freaking demoralized.

to add on, i nvr feel not demoralized at swimming. n i will always feel demoralized if this goes on. although i didnt quit swimming from the start, and i dun wan to quit, the demoralized me will ask myself why did i hang on to keep swimming when PRACTICALLY all the stuff i've been doing is like WRONG? can anyone tell me?

anyway, on friday, i took my lifesaving 123 test. this is when i feel damn freaking retarded again. u kno, basically from the start of the test, we've been doing every single things WRONG.. and the tester talked so much n taught us so damn freaking much in that short few hours compared to what our instructor taught in those FREAKING MONTHS. WHAT A WASTE OF MY TIME TO LEARN SOMETHING AND THEN THE RESULT FROM IT IS TO FEEL DEMORALIZED AND LIKE A CLOWN DOING EVERYTHING not so right. FREAK THIS RETARD THING..

omg.. how tell me how not to feeel demoralized? how?

but anw, all of us pass the test. EVEN MORE NO LOGIC TRUTHFULLY. IDIOTTTT!!
anw, yea, NO LOGIC. THE TESTER SAY 'WHY U ALL DO THESE WAY? NO LOGIC.......... NXT,.......NOLOGIC......NO LOGIC......NO LOGIC.........' and it just keep going on.......

what a sad lifesaving learning that i went through. so sad.. so demoralized.
i cant have confidence when all things i do is wrong wrong wrong.. cos i will look like a confidently retarded clown. )))':