life is shOrt.

i guess i should always keep this in my mind.

hi pple!

it's been awhile since i last posted yea?

mid sem test is over!

and swimming bbq was quite nice! coach have a really BIG puppy!!!!

on saturday,  i guess i spent my whole day at home??

then on sunday i got a shocking news... my god dad died.

i realised that life is really short.

although i nvr really interact with them all these years, and i only got to contact them this yr january, losing my god dad is a really sad thing. i rmb how much he doted on me, the things that he bought for me. all those girly dress when i was a kid. how when my bday they celebrated for me. how if they got the time, they will come and visit me. 

i even rmb the time where i went to stay over at their house when i was very very young.. i rmb the noddy and the toy land bag they bought me, and its so precious to me that i nvr use it at all.. which i gave it to my little sis this yr.

i rmb how when they lost contact, and this yr, they are able to contact me, they were so happy and joyous to see me. that when im busy working at uniqlo, they will come all the way down to see me, and give me red packet cos cny just pass.. and when my sch start, they wanted to bring me to dinner, to catch up with whats in my life now. i can say that i wanted to meet them to sit down n talk to my god dad n mom.. but sadly, sch kept me so busy that i didn't get the chance n didnt bother to take some little time just to call them up.

now that he is gone, i wont even have the chance at all. all i can do is whenever i think of all these, i can just sit and tear a bit. bit by bit. this is another regret that i have. a regret that i can nvr ever forget.

i rmb in the pass, we always sit boat to places, and when im scared, i will tell my god dad that i wan to sleep. he will carry me n let me slp on his shoulder, or he will let me slp on his lap. i rmb i always nvr slp.. i just say i wan to slp so tat i can close my eyes n not be afraid of the waves.

my god dad doted on me. now he's gone. i nvr even get the chance to talk to him. i nvr even get the chance to talk to him when im this old. all i had is again, those vivid memory that i had when i was young.

some might say memories are better than when there is none.

but this sad feeling of someone gone in my life will forever like taking a piece of my meat away... it's painful..

how i wish someone would just come and tell me its not real.

how i wish my god dad will call me n ask why i hadn't call them at all... signs of im being alive. living in this world happily.

i want to cry. but i don't want to cry .

i want to cry so hard. but i don't want to cry .

this is how i felt.

anw, sunday i went to national museum with my deer :P

the museum isn't interesting, but its interesting to spend time with dear.

at night, we went to dinner with his mom. and his mom is very nice. we ate at dian xiao er. then his mom so sweet. bought me headband.. awww man. i will think of something to make for her some day..

anw, that's sunday.

so today, beautiful day spent with dear too. went to do grp project at parkway, and then at night dear dear's mom came n we eat dinner. she is so funny. i say my tummy pain cant eat, then she insist  i eat something... hehee.

then she walk walk then went to grab the medicated oil, to buy for me.. oh man she's so nice...

how can i show her that i appreciate what she does ???

hmmm..

anw, i shall slp.

goodnight my lovely friends and of cos my deer((: