inevitable thought that floats back at times.

morning !!((:

just finished my milo plus biscuit for breakfast.

while eating my breakfast, this thought suddenly floats back to me..

i always wonder would i ever so coincidentally bump into this women n suddenly its a shocking news that i've bump into the women whom is my mom....

ok... why am i thinking stupid things...

anw, then i start to think about everything. this thought that i ever have came back to me once again.. this kind of thought is the thought that when i think bout it , i will feel like crying...

its how when i think, i feel like i don't actually belong anywhere. you know though i actually belongs somewhere, i feel that i don't really belong anywhere. its just so stupid.

you see, i don't actually belong to anywhere u know why? my biological mom have her own family, and maybe her own child with her current husband or whosoever, my papa also have his own family, with my stepmom and step sis inside. literally, i dont belong anywhere. i broken somewhere that belongs to 'in the middle of NO WHERE'....

im living with my papa stepmom n sis now. i belong to this family.. but truthfully, i seem to be someone extra. my aunts always say that when i grow up, they will treat me like money tree, u kno the one tree that pple shake n money drops?
yea.. they say that. dont u think someday when these stupid thoughts gets back to me, i will feel like im being made used of?

i feel like a sad.. whenever these thoughts comes back to me.. like i don't actually belong anywhere at all. i would ask myself why am i being born into this world... sometimes.... but i kno that im here for a purpose(((:

anw, i know im very blessed with the people that are in my life. i should not think of those stupid things and i should just live my life happily..