well... DAY 12 OF HOLIDAY...

ok so this is my grades. i can't help but be disappointed with myself now.

initially, i was very glAd to have passed all and not needa take supp paper, am very contented that i got this. cos i really didnt start poly life well.

i cant help it, i just cant accept poly life. i cannot accept the fact that im studying something so business. i cant accept that everything must do by ourselves. i had too much fun when i start poly, that i cant make myself settle down n do consistent work. I JUST CANT. i have too many things(excuse?)...

i dont have time to rest the way i cant in sec sch, thats why i cant accept it. and i am so stubborn that i continue working at uniqlo, continue going cca(cos i dont wanna give up things so easily) , and i took up guitar class, and i just dont do my school work and study even if i should. i know that i did not do all that i should do. i kept staying in my comfortable zone.. i dont wanna get out of it...

and just when i'm able to accept how poly works, there's no time, and some grades are already stagnant already. you knoww how sad is that? oh well, but i dont mind that. i told myself, this sem has already past.. and i cant do anything but i can in the nxt sem, and i know that i can score well if i want. in fact, i believe anyone can score well if they want..

but u know why am i disappointed in myself? so disappointed in myself that i feels like crying?

cos i look at all my sec sch friend's grade, i look at what they are doing.. they are working hard, striving for their best. they are doing their hmwk. and i look at myself, and i've realised that its not been pointed out to me, that i've became another person. where have i lost all my motivations? i wonder..

when i go back sec sch and tell everyone bout my studies progression, teachers were shocked at the results i'm getting. see, i've changed.

i am not doing things to my very best. all i do is last minute work.

WHAT HAPPENED TO ME )':

ok so the aadventure for today.

morning

went to nex with small aunt, enen, yan to find second aunt. walked and ate at nex, then i flew to amk hub to meet siwei<3

afternoon

siwei and i am so tired that we slp, talk, slp, talk on the bus otw to tp. so nice of siwei to go tp with me so that i can drop my indemnity form for the penang trip.......

then we went to wisma and ion. i went uniqlo! i miss uniqlo! and the alteration auntie so funny! she was like screaming so excitedly when she saw me^^ so cute!

anw, saw MR SAM LIM at ion!!! omg i miss him man!!!! he said he is freelancing! he's working part time at CHIJ & is teaching at nafa u know! omg he still look the same! how i wish i can be brought back to those days! haix!

evening

so weisi and i were back at amk . we sat and talk talktalk. haha! i miss all my sec sch friends i realised. oh well. soon i'll be able to see most of them...

when we're deciding to go home, we saw jasmine,michelle,and some guys frm 408'10...

its so nice to see these familiar pple, we stood at the middle of the amk and talked talked talked. haix..

ok, so im home and eating small aunt's nicenice fishhhhhhhy soup^^

and now, looking through all these while of what im doing, im kinda disappointed in myself. i wonder where have the me in the past went? i left it in the past? and whyyy... i hope i will not disappoint myself by nxt sem. imma gonna start it right.

okay, and just now was taking photos with weisi. and she say this is nice, but am so ugly look at my hair. .... tsk. ahahhaa!

okay smile! its the holidays! day 12 oh!