oh again

no matter what, this person just keep floating in my head....

hheehe! u can see it here!

thks <3

oh man!

dear laylin~

oh goodness! that seriously isnt going in a good way! i mean woah why is teachers in jc like so freaking omg????? in poly, all the tutors are so nice, except those that hmmm........ but not to ur extreme kind!

hahah! i wonder if u would be reading this now.. how i wish i could be there to pour ice water on u to cool u down! hehe:P smile! dont blow up on monday yea!!!! tuesday is coming! oh goodness! how i wish its my holidays already, and i can make ur day great! if i could^^ smile smile! hmmm!! idk what can make u smile! i will find it one day laylin! hang on there! and please takecare if urself! and as usual, i would say please drink loads of water!!! haha!!!!!^^

ok, i shall go try and do my work! and yea! i've been spamming post at blog! maybe i should just tumblr! hahaha! but yea, what i spam here is somehow my little thoughts or quotes i like and yea, spam!!^^ hehe!

♥zihui

oh yea laylin, i forgot to say thanks for changing ur blog skin in attempt to show me ur post , but i cant see those dated long ago in the months, haha! and i figured cos ur setting must have the limitation of how many post per page! there's this place, where u can allow how many post per page.! hehe
! if u are free u can browse ur dashboard and look ard!

from tumblr!

We boys don’t get butterflies, we get fireworks. We don’t have you on our mind 24/7, but we do have you on our hearts. Often, yes we wait for you to go online, sometimes simply even just being online makes our heart skip a beat, even if we don’t talk. Whenever you talk to us, our face forms that half-smile; it means we are happy but are trying our hardest to not show it, and fail at hiding it. We do miss you all the time; granted, we’d spend all our time with you if possible. We don’t think of the smallest things you say, we think of every word you say, panicking at every single word, trying to define what it really means, to read between the lines. But wait there’s more.

We would love you in a million ways. And once we start loving you there is no going back for us. No matter how hard we try we will always love a girl that has touched us. Us boys when in love will think of that girl first thing in the morning, and think of that girl last before we sleep at night. Whenever we see a couple, our thoughts immediately jump to that girl, and imagine that the couple was us. Every single detail about her is loved; the way she walks, talks, speaks. The sound of her voice. Her laughter. The sparkle in her eyes. Her shy smile. The way she dresses. That cute face she makes when she’s asleep. And the way she says our name that our hearts just explode with mirth, a simple act that no-one else can replicate.

A boy in love with a girl is no simple thing, though ladies stereotype us guys as simple. A man in love is not simple. No. He will be unpredictable. He will be persistent, stubborn, and given the circumstances, if it means carrying you from one side of the world to the other to win your heart, a man in love would. He will be a martyr, giving his all and asking for almost none. He will show you how to appreciate the beauty of the world in a thousand ways, and then he will tell you how much he appreciates your beauty in a million ways.

A man in love is no simple thing

is this true?????

If you don't call me all day I understand, when you don't text me all day I understand, when I stop loving you I hope you understand.

You can erase someone from your mind, but getting them out of your heart is another story.

Isn't it crazy that in life, the person who brings out the best in you & makes you strong, is actually your weakness?

i'll nvr be the same~ if we ever meet again~

ok this is how much i'm thinking,.... its like dominating my mind. wth. haix. hahahahahaha! oh well...............

I don't want a perfect person, I just want someone to act silly with, someone who treats me well & loves being with me more than anything.

today^^

thursday~

oh well, after yesterday's swimming training, my whole body basically aches like shit when i woke up in the morning!!! oh man!!!! and then, yesterday, i felt some vein in my leg that feels painful, and i was wondering where i got that pain from, and this morning, i found out how. i went down my bed and tripped down! hahahha! i mean i tripped at the very last step of the bed.!!!! urgh!!! and it hurts!!! hopefully it wont cause any internal leg injury. lol(: hahahha!

okay, im wondering how's life for all my lovely friends. seems like its exam period for many of u all!!! hahah! and just when ur exam ends, its only my start!! hopefully i can go back deyi sec and zhonghua pri to visit the lovely teachers that taught us in the past! hahahha!

ok, i feel like posting pictures that im suppose to post! but i'm kinda afraid that the blog will have prob again, and that it will be deleted away due to the connection again! hahahh!

hmmmmm.

so in school, had this RHT lecture, where the lecturer basically keep making lame jokes and stuff...... and its like hmmm..... what am i learning in there???? and nxt up is POM tutorial. the teacher which everyone calls boh boh. so funny!!! and the most funny thing is that he kinda like that we are calling him that.! so funny!!! hahahahha!!! anw, was suppose to meet this guy name geo for lunch!! hahha! geo is this guy that i knew from biz cheer grp. biz cheer grp is the cheer team that cheered for biz sch during the orientation. he is funny luh, everyday oso would send a 'good morning' text. haha. but anw, was suppose to lunch with him cos he asked me to lunch, but end up my lesson ended early and i went for lunch with my friends. haha! omg felt kinda bad cos i promised, and i nvr go. but oh well, i've learnt! nxt time when i agree to lunch, i'll put a 'but no guarantee' at the back cos sometimes, my lesson just ends so early!!! ahhaahha!!!oh well, this is why sometimes i dont like to promise pple when they ask me for lunch or ask me for outings(:

okay, if there's anything to post, i will post again tonight! oh well!! please takecare lovely friends!!!!!

anything can always call me on my phone and i will pick up whenever i am able to^^

JIAYOUS!!!!!

Behind every girl's favorite song is an untold story.

HI!

anw, the previous post is actually typed on sunday???

so well, i must learn to put down things. anw, i must really thanks those that stand by my side when im really sad.

lets have an overview. so on saturday, i argued with arao san alot about resigning stuff. i mean i really love to work with and for arao san, but i know now, i must prioritise my studies even if it meant i gotta save for awhile before i can go out during my holidays if im gonna spend. and of cos, every time i go out, i will spend, as usual^^ so yea. and that day was feeling quite stressed up, cos everything is just so messed up. life~ oh well, and i kinda broke down by crying during my break that day. im so sorry to had scare some of my colleagues. hahaha. but yea. things are nvr as simple as it seems. oh well, if i ever get the chance to share with any of my lovely friends about stuff happening now, i will. hahahhahha.

so basically, after that a few days, i feeling down when i think about stuff, feel so down that when i take bus, i felt like crying while sitting right there.........

monday

so on monday, i went to school on the bus feeling kinda sad. then i received text from some pple, and out of those pple, i received text from egghead^^ haha. he asked me if i wanna eat pizza after school on friday.! im tempted to go and have fun and enjoy! but then, i was thinking i must compose my feelings before i go socialize again. i mean it wont be healthy if i act like my life is fine, and i enjoy and have fun, but come back end of the day sad right? so yea, i told him my life is kinda messed up, and that i think i wont join him and his friends. haha. sry bout that to him if he ever will read this, but i bet no he wont read cos yea he just dunno bout my blog. he was quite concerned bout why im sad. and he called me at night to ask. and woah, its been so long since i last chatted with him! but yea. guess he is busy ba. . . although i know him for such a short period of time, i really enjoy talking on the phone with him. he is just such a real person luh. anw, yea... thk him for not slping and calling me. i hope he will score well in his upcoming test^^

TUESDAY

on tuesday,sch is fine, and i kinda tried to let go of things that actually hurt, as egghead say, its life, gotta take it like that. haha. anw, tue is fine, and i kinda had a long chat with some of my friends. hahaa. its a nice chat. and somehow, it told me who is really true. i even cried to one friend when she asked about what happened. im glad i didnt scare her off. ahahha!

anw, during test, i got a weird answer, and i asked cher ' why my ans have letters and numbers?!'

he explained why have that kind of thing.

nxt i asked 'so my ans wrong??!?!!?'

cher: obviously its not the right ans...

hahah! omg im such a joke yea!

wednesday

today is kinda a gd day, at least days are getting better^^

anw, i went for swimming! went with cos i met him in sch library! hahahah! so nice hor, he waited for me in the library. hahahhaa.

so when i reached swimming, say the distinctive orangehead! dressed in orange! hahahahaha! and theres this guy name jian xing! the joker! wear all white like Pap. hahah! cool huh. anw, yea so we sat there by the pool and talk talk. ahahha! and orangehead was going on about some crap luh!! like saying 'i'm awesome!' then i looked at him and say WTH! and he told the rest 'i learn from zihui '!! wth!! hahaha! then he go talk crap, say 'look at zihui and me. who is more innocent' and he huh, gay sia, did a seriously funny action luh he joker! then anyhow take my bag, surprisingly, he is looking for my ipod(i guess) , then he open the side zip and found it. hahaha! idiot! anyhow take my things! haha! while swimming! ben bully me! he say its not bully, its tease! crap lo! i was doing pulling and hexun and him are both doing kicking, im just right behind them, then both of them produced water fountain in front of me luh! how to swim sia! they bully!!!!!!!!! hhahah! and egghead funny! he swim, then i suddenly hear, 'zizi'!!! hahahahaha!!! funny! anw, thks ben, he is really nice. he help me with the towing of mannequin today! im really glad that he gave me help, accompany me throughout the towing! so nice! and i managed to be determined enough to have improved that tiny little bit at towing it myself. so sry that i drag him down in training, and that he had to dive down the water so many times to take the mannequin that i have no strength and dropped it. glad that he helped me. its so nice of him! hhahahhaa! i will rmb and appreciate him! haha!

okay, thats all lovely friends! i wonder whats happening at all of ur side(those who nvr blog)^^ but jiayou!!!

anw, that youtube video u've posted is really touching, i didnt tear. just almost. like so sweet! i reallly wish i could be there to make things better for u. but rmb, must stay strong, when situation like this happens, make sure u live ur life well, and show the that u are better off and living happily without their crap. rmb how there's this picture which says ' make them wonder why u are still smiling' yea. live like that. i know its terrible to be in sch without friends. i hope some true pple in jc will appear in front of u to make ur life better. make ur jc life fun. no worries. u need someone to text, im always there^^ pls really do takecare. u know there's pple out here like me who cares^^ put us in ur heart and u can live well without them. i hope this can make u stay strong for now. hopefully things will be better. go listen to 'thing are gonna get better' by david archuleta!! hehe!

omg, now, when u stuff the earpiece in my ears] and played the song that u say u like, it add on to another song that i will listen to and rmb u. yea, its all so tricky..this things that are happening..

everything is always not that simple.

whenever i wanna look over things, whenever i think that something is just that simple, it nvr is.

i wonder why are things so unexpected in life.

why, when u treat someone like a true friend, they might just break that trust?

why doesnt things seem to be as easy as it seems?

why do i always seem to be the last to know of the things that are happening...

and all these really hurts...

wth

its not my fault to forget bout it when its over ok! whats ur freaking prob! normally u would say oh test over no point speaking of it. fine. u talk bout test when u like. u shut up when u like. why i cant forget when the test is over. its not my fault to forget ok., stop freaking scold me for not remembering this shit that u rmb ok. i've got enough things on my plates and u dun understand ok. idiot.

this is my blog and i have the freedom to type out my own feelings. it wont be my fault if anyone reads anything they dont like here. what i write can pinpoint at anyone and anything. if u wan to take it to ur heart, by all means. dont freaking read it if u dont like what i says. this is my privacy.

hahahaha.

i wanna say haix, but i guess ahhaha will make a better title. yea, now i can sing the 'in my head~ in my head~' song cos its in my head~ in my head~

i wonder when can i put u aside and forget. i hate this hot and cold thingy. its not really hot and cold.it just im lost somewhere suddenly..

haix.

now, when i think bout stuff, i just dont feel good. hate this feeling where decisions to choose between things thats gd for u and pple that u care for..

with photos. poly so far~

hehe! so im starting my post with this very very cute baby! my cuz! so cute right? its currently my desktop pic! how i wish i can be her! a kid, just eat cake, no worries! urgh! everything is just so stressed up now!!
hahah! this is suyi, a friend i knew in poly!!! someone that i actually have a lot of common with! hehhehehe! she's one crazy girl! haha!
during presentation day! these are the photos!!!!! hehe!
from left to right, swee en. dunno if its spelled this way, then janice, suyi and me!!
this is my grp mates! look the one with funny expresssion is kelly! she damn funny!!!


us with the POM tutor

this is my whole class!
this is one part of the swim team! u see!!! only me the girl!! hahahaha!

jiamin and me!
this is zuella! quite a gd friend of mine oso!<3
when in macro lesson! hahaha! trying to be funny!
this is rosalind! a girl from uniqlo! they say i look like her!!!
there's one time i went to meet jingwen zul, minji and weisi! ahhaha! hopefully i can meet pei n mh after sch soon!
the class outing photo long time ago. awhile ago actually! look what weisi is doing to me! miss those silly days! now everything is just so difff! with everyone of us at all diff sch!
so cute huh weisi<3
i thought this photo is pretty funny!
this is the amt of pple that went for class outing that time! so pathetic hor?? but it was quite fun!

uh this is during tat election period! hahahahha! omg i really miss those stress free days!!!

ok, kinda tired! i shall talk bout my job now!

that day, i ask arao-san,manager, if i can take study break, but he say no, and i say i cant cope with the 20 hr and my exams coming. but he keep insisting that i can do it. i keep sayin cant, till i have the suffocating feeeling, of everything, the feeling of wanting to cry. so i just walk off. back to work..... then when it all end, arao san ask if i need study break. then i say yea i need... anw, turns out i still cant compromise with him. then sunday, me and weiqi told friska we wanna quit, took the form and sign, then friska say she'll talk to arao san, then he say i can take study break but one wk must work 5 hr. i initially agreed. but when i think bout it, 5hr i can do many things i wan. so i called and say i will resign. then friska threw my letter. anw, i will quit this saturday (tmr) then. nxt sat will be my last day! omg! looks forward! i really needa rest! look at my eye bags! idk, swimming friends say my eye bag getting thick. sad....... i wan slp ttm! ok! i go rest and wake in awhile to study 7 freaking chapters
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JIAYOU LAYLIN <3 I KNOW U WILL READ^^ HEHE!!!! ANW, if u can got time, change ur blog skin!!! cos i cant see ur previous post u post last time!!!! hahahaha!!!! anw, i also everyday check ur blog!!! hahaha! do blog even if its just random few words k<3

heyyo.

okay, now i've finally completed my projects dued by today.

well, theres a few things that i need to blog in detail that i havent been doing it recently right.

okay, let me do an overview of this whole freaking week in sch.

oh well, i got a feeling that what im about to describe will sound freaking boring. ok, guess i shall pass that then. i mean pass the describing whole wk thingy. hahahahahaa!

basically, this whole wk, there's so many things to do, and i kept falling aslp at night and nvr do my stuff, so when im awake, im basically stressed up about how stupid i am for going to sleep and then not completing those shit that i should complete. but then, i will complete them in time still. so oh well...... although i fell asleep, i didnt have a goodnight sleep. so this whole week, i havent been sleeping well. like nvr sleep in a proper position, never sleep with my mind at ease.... so its kind of terrible. cos i always wake in a not gd mood. due to 'slp and nvr do work'......

its like a kind of disappointed in my own action thingy. like how i should've just completed my work, but i fell asleep in front of damn com, and then sleep sleep sleep throughout the night till ard 3plus or 4 plus wake and realise my night has gone. when i woke during that time, i told myself to close my eyes for 5more min, then wake and do, but i fell aslp till ard freaking 5plus 6 ! URGH! i seriously cant stand myself!!!!!!):

okay, so monday, there's like a few submission of work which is quite successful.

then on wed i forgot have what to submit but yea there's something. then thursday have formal presentation.(i'll upload photos if i have the time k^^) and today, have two things to submit.

oh well, we chiong after sch to finish up the food n beverage assignment, but we couldnt finish it well on time. at the very alst min, very nervous, so we didnt submit a work that is up to our potential. and i hope all our hardwork isnt thrown into the drain. cos the content is still there, without a contents page. ok i dun needa describe how bad this is, but yea. i hope he will mark it and still give us high grades. hahahahaha! oh well, its over!

urgh! i guess its kinda late now, and i shall stop the post here and continue it when i reach home^^

really am so glad of the work that my grp members had done and things we went through together. even if it meant our work doesnt end up being submitted well(:

screw the projects!!!

URGHHHHH IDK WHAT TO SAY, I HOPE ALL OUR TEAM'S HARDWORK WILL PAY OFF... OMG NVR FELT SO SCREWED FOR WORK SUBMISSION AT ALL. THIS SERIOUSLY IS SHIT. WE REALLY DID OUR BEST. NOW LEFT WITH SOMETHING THAT NVR SUBMIT AND TIME IS UP. OMG OMG OMG. ONE HOUR AFTER SUBMISSION TIME ALREADY! OMG ! I NEED TO DISCARD THE FEELING OF SCREWING UP IN PROJECT HEREEEEE. OMG I HOPE EVERYTHING ELSE WILL NOT GET AFFECTED BY THE LATE SUBMISSION THINGY OF THE OUTLINE.... OMG........ HOW WILL THE TUTORS THINK? OMG I HOPE THEY WILL LEFT US OFF EASY. OMG! JIAYOU TO ALL MY GRP MEMBERS AND EVERYONE. OMG?!!!!!!!!!! LATE SUBMISSSION!!!!! OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG

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whenever i see ...... i would be happy if we chat even if its only for awhile..

lol must stop thinking idiot. hahahha!

all in one..

hahaah! hello! so sweet! the hug hug thingy!!!!<3

anw, i hate myself! omg!!!!!!!!!!! why am i so sickening! havent finish my stuff, and i just keep sleeping! omg):

omg i was suppose to post here yesterday bout what i wanna say, but i guess i'll post some other day? yesterday was suppose to finish f n b. but i guess i was sneezing so hard tat i got so sick that i went to rest and my alarm failed me again): sian. i gotta chiong before i go to school now. im gonna be sick soon):

(:

all it takes to smile is just one greeting of 'hello' from u(:

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Sometimes the people we've known for a short amount of time have the biggest impact on our lives, even more than those we've known forever.

food..

well, recently i havent been having regular meals. i guess this is not doing anything good to my body yea. seems like my system will be ruined some day. now, im feeling the not so happy tummy feel.... hmmmm....... havent been eating regular meals.... haix.......

yay! reached home so late and i ate curry with bread! yummy! small aunt's the best! hhahaha! just now after sch, i went with zhiyu and kelly to tampines 1/mall/century square to look for our presentation clothings. goodness. not easy to search for something that u would wanna wear for three yrs...... so we walk n walk for so long. finally settled at buying the shoe and te shirt. left with skirt that i dun have, zuella wanna lend me, but then small aunt have(: yay! anw, i hope zhiyu can find her shoe^^

anw, i havent call uniqlo......

JOB.

anw, i think my final decision will still be to quit i guess. the only choioce now is to work 5hr a wk or quit. but for that 5 hrs spent at work, i can use it to get sufficient rest, and study with a gd head. right?

then if i quit, during my vacation, i'll go look for other jobs that are more flexible i guess. i guess right now, health and studies is better than earning money for myself. i guess, i'll just get allowance, and save that little money bit by bit, and not go out too much during holidays right? hahahahaha. there's always something tHAT i'll have to give up yea? and i definitely dont wanna risk my health over earning money and studying and trying to study, and the waking and slping waking slping thingy. hmmmmmm......

uh this is life.

to you(:

haha. u know, all those things sounds seriously irritating. i hope that things will somehow suddenly get better for u. hope and pray for u.

i wonder if u will feel this diff in urself? hmmm. for me, sometimes when i gets irritated, and i look back into the past, i suddenly saw a not irritated self. last time, i dont get irritated by anything. like nothing at all, cos i just feel for nothing, or my tolerance level is very high. i wonder if u had this kind of past self oso. the one that is so very very nice, will be very nice to everything, and its like nothing will ever make u feel irritated... but then, when yrs goes by, and reality hits so hard, and u see the ugly truth bout reality, i start to change. i dont tolerate nonsense anymore.....

but whenever i dont feel irritated anymore or i reflect on my actions, i'll be wondering where has that very nice part of myself went? and yea. suddenly i became so irritated by things that i just let irritatedness rules my head? hmmm.

i wonder if this ever applies to you(: but then, yea the things u've described sounds seriously irritating! i wish i can make u less irritated(: keep on smiling!

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.......

oh well, things are like that. does it really mean nothing? i guess maybe it doesnt mean anything.. and well, it doesnt feel gd. when songs and stuff keep reminding me... ... ...

hehe. lol me.

anw, heres some updates.

1) im gonna take study break and not work till 9 sep, OR im quiting job @ UNIQLO.

2)main exams are coming

3)im gonna keep swimming cos i <3 swimming^^

4)im gona study hard(:

5)i shall move back my house when im not working.

6)nxt sem, i might move to stay with granny at tampines

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so thats about everything so far. guess its summarized..

bye. blog tonight !

He ignores you, but you like him. He does nothing, yet you fall for him. You miss him, even though you know he's never thought about you

oh well.....):

mywk, idk how to describe cos i seem to have lived for looooong wks of idk what, which doesnt feels gd. this whole wk, i felt so drenched out of energy lacking of slp cos of project is one things. but then im really very busy. idk how. maybe, i will quit uniqlo and work at other places. but where? its really tiring, i enjoys working at uniqlo, but im really worried of getting not a gd gpa. im confident that if i dont work, i confirm can study . cos all i need to do is study. but everything is getting so expensive now. guess i must learn not to spend. spend on food at most. haix. i wish i could say everything here. i guess im just gonna slp. see how it goes tmr.):

retarded.

dont ask me anything.

ITS THE WEEKENDS

hello, anw, this wk had passed! endure pple! everything will be over sooner than we know!

today at swimming, i successfully plunge at least more proper than before! yay! i dont care! i must have the courage already!!!! urgh! everything is possible! yay!!!! and i can do things well if i want! just jiayou!

anw, pls takecare and dun get angry at stupid pple k??? hehe! yea! u must live ur own life, not for that stupid idiot girl! ahahhahha! be urself, and dont hide ur feelings cos i will really feel horrible. u can try to make things peaceful, but then, with this kind of person, things will nvr be peaceful yea???

ok, so at school today, during lunch time, was waiting for friends to be ready to go lunch. waited for freaking more than 40 min outside the library luh. endded up some of them nvr go lunch. haix what a waste of time man!!!! but anw, nvm. while waiting outside the library i saw so many friends luh. mostly is swimming pple! i saw hershey, saw ben, i also saw orangehead! hahahaahha!

ok, i shall slp now!~ nights and takecare~!

happy.

even if it means nothing, it will mean something to me(:

)))): chapter infinity of blur me

guess what? on thursday, i didnt wake up when my alarm clock ring! then end up i late for lesson, but is withing that 15 min! ahhaahha! lucky me! i woke up, then receive so many msg! dunno which to reply n stuff! omg! dun even kno if i replied all of them! anw, only have one lesson, after that was doing project! oh man! quick its gonna be over soon!

anw, when i go home, i took the wrong bus when i transfer! shit n i slept on that bus!!!!!!!!! omg! i mean how blur can i get right!!! awww and my mood really gone liao! sian. then come home like....

nvm. so tired! lets use some brains before slping yo!

anw, its weird. . . .

duck noodle...!

hehe(:

okay i just did a personality quiz! some parts r quite true yo!

this is the result!:

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

hehe! ok so enough for that! anw, oday at swimming as usual i so paiseh!

let me start off by talk about my day, anw, it didnt start well, but nvm, im not talking bout that! haha!!! then i was so tired the whole day! that after sch, i went library to do my stuff, but ended up sleeping!!!!! then chiong my project abit when i woke! i envy ben luh! he stayed so near!!!!! anw, ben came n find me at library when its closed to going swimming time! he helped me abit in thinking for my project! so nice! anw, today swimming was fun! haha! sara is there! i've got a girl partner! anw, im still the most paiseh person! ahhahahaha!saw orangehead when i go swimming!

i think the most paiseh thing is when i do plunging, everyone look at me sia! plus i did it wrongly! so sad!!! hahah! but anw, i'll improve ! yay!

ok! gotta read some project stuff before i slp!!! wooohooo!

anw yea. i guess i'll still think of ...... well, what to do?

TIRED~

idiotic..

hmmmm.

what's mine will be mine,

whats not mine will not be mine...

touched(:

hello all of u(:

u all nvr fail to let me fail so touch after reading post which is dedicated to me. even if its only small parts. i will feel like crying. hahahaha!!!!!!!!♥

yea peipei! havent been blogging so long!!!! and yea the ahem u want me to tell u, i'll tell u when i sees u k. currently on my blog, i can only say this limited things like hint here n there. but when i tell u u will understand. anw, thks♥ hehe! u r right. we r like in two diff world even though we're so close to each other. thinking back, how nice would it be if we've ended up in the same sch right??? but anw, life goes on.

and yea. holidays will be booked for u first ok? hehe. yea is booked for u all my lovely friends. u know, i still owes u all the card that i'm supposed to give u all! i will finish it before my holidays ends ok? holidays must meet up more uh! before everything starts again! n i miss u all loads!

travel ard singapore! and rmb our iluma day? i miss it! and yes i definitely wont forget our AMOURGRI!!!! even in sch, i oso tell my friends that nxt time i will open this shop name amourgri^^

hehe! anw, lets jiayou for the finals before our vacation starts! hopefully can meet up even before the vacation yea! although it might be not so easy!!!!!! hahahahahahhahahahaha!

HAIX

this is all i can put in words now. idk how to describe whats on my mind constantly...

♥

anw, i'm craving for DUCK NOODLE!!!!!!

ok! so random! but yea i want duck noodle!

JUST TO KEEP U GOING^^

WHICH ONE ARE YOU ?

A carrot, an egg, and a cup of coffee... You will never look at a cup of coffee the same way again. A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as one problem was solved, a new one arose. Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water and placed each on a high fire. Soon the pots came to boil. In the first she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs, and in the last she placed ground coffee beans. She let them sit and boil; without saying A word. In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl. Turning to her daughter, she asked, "Tell me what you see." "Carrots, eggs, and coffee," she replied. Her mother brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did and noted that they were soft. The mother then asked the daughter to take an egg and break it. After pulling off the shell, she observed the hard-boiled egg. Finally, the mother asked the daughter to sip the coffee. The daughter smiled, as she tasted its rich aroma the daughter then asked, "What does it mean, mother?" Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity: boiling water. Each reacted differently. The carrot went in strong, hard, and unrelenting. However, after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak. The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior, but after sitting through the boiling water, its insides became hardened. The ground coffee beans were unique, however. After they were in the boiling water, they had changed the water. "Which are you?" she asked her daughter. "When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean? Think of this: Which am I? Am I the carrot that seems strong, but with pain and adversity do I wilt and become soft and lose my strength? Am I the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but changes with the heat? Did I have a fluid spirit, but after a death, a breakup, a financial hardship or some other trial, have I become hardened and stiff? Does my shell look the same, but on the inside am I bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and hardened heart? Or am I like the coffee bean? The bean actually changes the hot water, the very circumstance that brings the pain. When the water gets hot, it releases the fragrance and flavor. If you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you get better and change the situation around you. When the hour is the darkest and trials are their greatest, do you elevate yourself to another level? How do you handle adversity? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean? May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human and enough hope to make you happy. The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; you can't go forward in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches. When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so at the end, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying. You might want to send this message to those people who mean something to you (I JUST DID); tothose who have touched your life in one way or another; to those who make you smile when you really need it; to those who make you see the brighter side of things when you are really down; to those whose friendship you appreciate; to those who are so meaningful in your life. If you don't (re)send it, you will just miss out on the opportunity to brighten someone's day with this message! May we all be COFFEE!!!!!! !!

FROM ALL WHO CARE ........

stress X infinity..

hhhahah! i just realised that it isnt time to relax yet!!!

i slept so much yesterday! today gotta buck up!!!!!

and i must learn to love studying for my modules like REAL soon!!!

this wk, wed must find the what water entry thingy before going for swimming & do up commskill ind presentation & wine label stuff,

friday must finish the rht report,

monday must hand up report for pom and article,

thursday pom presentation, friday hand up things for f n b,

then i think the following wk's tue, must hand up the macro econ report plus have macro econ presentation. then after all these its time to study for main exam! oh goodness! things are all like freak sia! plus all my tutorial work i havent even catch up! since the very start of sch!!!!!

anw, gotta go concentrate and start using my brains!!!!

i think..

i think i will stop roaming ard facebk and keep looking..

HORRIBLE HORRIBLE ME.

YOOOOHOOO! okay, i actually wanna blog yesterday but i didnt! now let me update!

so yesterday, i went swimming! then rush rush rush, went to school, then had commskills and f n b.

anyway, yesterday i was late for my guitar lesson. ate my fav vege yesterday for my dinner!! so nice! aunt cooked that!!!!! ^^ then rushhhhhh to guitar, idk why but i felt very tired! then guitar cher was saying why i look so down. hahahhahah! and yea! guitar is getting interesting! hmmm! must really dig some time out to practice guitar!!!!!! urgh!

when i reach home, i actually wanna slp before doing my researches for group project! but then. i ended up slping till4, woke up oh no!!! then i fall back t slp again): till 6plus i woke up, then rush bathe, find wine label for my proect! then rush to school!!! and u kno, i reached school at 8:20!!! i've nvr reach school this early before u know!! omg! lucky the rht lab is opened! so i came here, settle down and started blogging! sian!! today im so gonna be dead from researching!! must do rht, think for pom, and then must research for swimming oso-.-! hahahahahhah!

okay, so that's all, i hope all of u gets enough sleep and stuff , and drink loads of water! jiayou for everything!!!!!!! we'll pass all this very quickly and nicely!!!! lets look forward to the future yea! hhahahahhah!!! omg! i wanna slp!!!!!!!! omg slp forever can??

i'll keep myself busy to not think bout..

the story of us

And I'm dying to know, is it killing you
Like it's killing me~

hello

omg, hope everything is alright for u. hope tat ur PW is going on well. anw, i thought u love chem?? omg. the cher ruin it for u is it? and nvm, take ur time for harry potter post^^

takecare. and rmb body condition very impt. pls slp n eat well<3 smiles and life will be better^^

when you're close to tears rmb someday it'll all be over~

this song just stays . . . . . .

my kind of perfect~

I was thinking about ya
I drew a little picture
But some things you can't put on paper

kelly's braveness of facing deadline!

15th July ( 2 days later ): Comm skills report

22nd July (9 days later ) : RHT report

25th July) (12 days later) : POM report with 2 article analysis

28th July (15 days later) : POM presentation

29th July (16 days later) : FNB report

30th July (17 days later ) IHT test

August 2 (20 days later) : Econs report

15 August : Comm skills presentation

look, i just saw this thing on fb ! its like shock sia! freak! hahhahahha! deadlines all coming!!!!

tired~ but who is not?

yea. life so far has been a tiring journey. in terms of ' no time for ourselves' 'too much things bugging inside the small little head' .... etc....

sometimes, i feel so tired that i feel like just giving up on the spot and then forget about every single things. like i'll think why am i living in this world kind of thing. but somehow i just wont give up.

i guess, everytime when i feel so tired, i'll think of the goals i used to have, and will keep moving on. hopefully this will go on forever, having goals, and yea. what should i say? hmmmm.

jiayou jiayou.

the song of ...... came out suddenly n it haunts

repeated over and over again.

ok, this feeeling is like shit. lets not talk about it.

but oh well, i'll just talk about it(:

yesterday, ended work @ 11:30, came home n wanna slp. but ended up talking to pple on fb since they talk to me. oh well, eric, chat with me first, said bye after awhile, suddenly egghead oso talk to me. but there's nothing to talk about cos he dun wanna tell me something. so idiotic. then say bye. he is so weird! nvm. went off to slp, and idk why but i woke with a bad mood. went to work, mrt took so long to come, then ended up i reached work OTD. then, everyone is assembling already, me and zaxe rush, then assemble oso, end up zaxe noriyah n i was made to say sry to everyone-.- because they waited for us. i mean how.......-.-.....

anw, idk what happened to my mood. i hate how it gets affected by stuff, but after long hours of being busy, i kinda let that go and feel so tired that i dont feel anything already. so this is how u busy urself and forget about things yea... hahhahahahaa.

okay, a new wk is coming and im gonna get through it! this wk, i've successfully struggled through! now a new wk is coming and woooohoooo! lets embrace!!! D:

JIAYOU! TILL I POST^^ <3

typo..

omg! i just realised that my blog have got many typo! sianz! hahaha! anw, i fell asleep and just woke up! this have been happening recently! oh goodness! hahhahhahaha!!!

anw, happy for orangehead! he pass his test!!! hahah! i rmb the first time i talk to him on the phone is because he is sad that he nvr pass his test! time really flies!!! glad that he pass this time round n guess he'll be the crazy happy guy yea! hahahahas.

amw, i shall go slp n wake tmr n do rht.... hmmm i keep procrastinating. sianz. what happened to the zihui?????

as many times as i blink i'll think of you tonight

ANOTHER BLUR CHAPTER OF MINE

hi. i know i'm very blur. so now my turtle is found!!!!!!!!!! YAYYYYY! I think its thks to eric(jinson's) friends. so nice. went to library n help me ask. hahahhaa. so nice right. yesterday, his friend go use my account to add another friend of his called eric. then yesterday he was talking to me on fb. just nice it was the time that my turtle was lost. so i was complaining n being sad bout the lost of my turtle. then he said that if he could help me. hahaha. i was like dun even know what my turtle looks like. i mean woah he so nice. just know men is willing to offer me help.

ok, so my turtle is found yayyyyy! hahahhhahah!

ok i shall post again when i can think^^

takecares pple!<3

yoohoo!!

hehe!!! i changed my blogskin!!!! nicer right?!?!?!?!

still not over it.

yea i still havent stop thinking. bout... but yea. should not think...

anw, i still wants my turtle. my love. turtle is gone. haha. why gone. my mood gone with turtle oso. sad. haha. but i'll still smile. i hope i can find my turtle....

hahahha. my turtle.......

everything is just so heart broken-ing

LOST TURTLE

omg so sad. i lost my turtle thumbdrive. see im so sad. my turtle. my turtle. my turtle is goneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my turtle! i feel so heart broken. my turtle is gone. i've grown attached to my turtle. n its gone. its lost. my turtle. how......... will it ever come back????

losing things always feels like losing something. i love my things alot. i cherish them. i gave my heart to my turtle n its gone. n so sad. my turtle.

can u imagine, if i ever like anyone, n the person gone, i sure sad. decided. i shall love things thats not real.. hahha! my lovely toy. omg. gone my turtle thumbdrive. ok im not so stupid. haha. but yea. it doesnt feel nice the feeling of losing something. i hate this feeling ttm. n now, when im so happy n so inspired to do my project, my lovely turtle failed my mood. omg. lovely turtle is gone.

im so sad, my lovely turtle. my turtle

urgh nvr fail to stay in my brain everytime!!):

^^

yo! just to update before i go off and really concentrate! hehe!

so today at rht lecture, im basically figuring things out for my commskill project and not listening to what the cher says, but no choice... haha!

then at pom, i think mr boh is so funny n cute! glad that he enjoys having fn with us. laugh n smile all day, live young. good right.

anw, today i had lunch with egghead. hahhahahhaa. had lunch with egghead and his friends luh. lol. haha. i ate at mensa again. i swear im never gonna eat that dry fish ever again! hahahhaha! i'm sick of eating that dory fish liao! omg! hahahah!anw, his friends are nice. one even bought this drink for me. though it doesnt taste nice or what. hahaha. guess its the thought that counts. why must they be so good? hahahhahah! oh yea. then afterthat, come library and do project which is like now. then lame lame egghead called and come library find me with his friends again. then after awhile he is gone. hahahhahahas. idk luh seriously.

nvm.

not thinking anymore.

doing of project time!

as many times as i blink i'll think of you~

Vanilla Twilight lyrics
Songwriters: Young, Adam;

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
[From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/o/owl-city-lyrics/vanilla-twilight-lyrics.html]
Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here

haha i actually likes this song alot since last yr!

anw, laylin! i havent download the songs that u asked me to listen to! wait till i have time k^^ hahahhahahahaa!

ok, lessons havent started! so i came here and blogblog!!!!!

and idk what to blog about. i guess i'll just blog ltr^^ haahahah!

hehe !

ANW, end up i nvr go eat with egghead! just dont have the fate luh. hahahahah! cos he got some course meeting suddenly. n when it end, its my lecture time! hahaha! this is really called no fate! hahahhaha! but nvm... nxt time ba. then i after scchool, i went library. then i met this guy from swimming name ben. hahahahaha! then since he come find me, i accompany him to eat dinner cos how can a guy not eat right. then afterwards went swimming. haix. going swimming means hanging ard guys. aiyo. anw, yea went swimming with ben! today, finally the swimming freshie girls all there! this girl that i know is name sara! another new girl is name janine! she is damn white can! anw, today i didnt do certain things well at swimming!

hahah! okay, when i go swimming, i saw egghead oso! he finally go for swimming liao. but yea he swim like a fast sia. cos he swim with the freshie swimmer today, then change to train for his bm i think??? hahhaa. today, need to do this thing, but i cant dive down smoothly. sianz!!! haix! anw, then at the very end, they do plunging! omg! i've got the hobia for it that i dont wanna try! then ben was like go gogo! everyone was telling me to try! but idk where my courage went to! too much of trying make me scared! ahhahaha! but in the end i still tried! ben ask me to stand, then 45 degree for hand, nxt, he push me sia! but okay! lucky! so i got to try another one n ten wooohoooo! home time!!! im freaking hungry can!!!!D:

ok, tats all, i'll try to rush pratiwi's card asap! n i will share the present with u luh(: its a friendship gift ma(: hehe! thk u! and dont get dishearted by ur grade!!!!! u can do it!!!!! BELIEVE!

omg, i think if i keep training, muscle will grow ! omg! hahahha!

sneeze sneeze!

oh goodness! sneezing now! pray i wont get sick man! omg!!!))): just finished collating the data of 63 respondent of the travel trade survey! goodness! take up so much time sia! sianz! ok! now must do analysis on it liao!

but first! i shall blog bout today first!

okay! i updated bout morning!

now, is bout lunch time! went mensa with my friends! then saw egghead there oso! hahahahha! ate dory fish as usual! then left and went for econ class! just when i leave, saw egghead coming from behind. with his friend. then he called out my name, im like ay hello. then, i just keep walking. the he keep following. haha! then ask me go to him. hhahah. damn paiseh sia. im wondering what happened ! then he ask i free on wed or not. hahahhahahah. so funny. came with his friends from their sit just to ask tat. anw, i shall not elaborate.(:

ok then i went swimming after sch! then came home start collating. omg i feel so sick now! urgh! i shall continue my work! jiayou pple! persevere!

RHT^^

okay, yesterday, was supposed to wake at 10 after resting awhile. ended up i woke at 10 plus when justin , my grp leader called me, regarding the keying in of data. so i was to wait for his text for me to key in. then i ended up pigging till 3, woke uo shit! i went to on the wireless network, then proceed to keying in of data. then i was preparing my bag for today cos i know i'll sure late. ended up i still went house late and i took cab to school!!

oh goodness my pocket have hole again! my cab fair is $17))))': nvm. this is the first time i reached so early for RHT anw! hahahahahhaha!!!

yawns! i hope exam will come out regression cos its totally like maths n i love it! ok! i should really start studying!~ cos the stuff is not difficult to understand, but just need to rmb rmb rmb rmb rmb n love it! hhahahaha

sian! i feel like slping now! goodness i didnt do my econ tutorial! why why why!!!!

anw, i will get back on my feet real soon!!!
urgh!!!!

SCHOOL TIME !

HAHAH! AM IN SCHOOL NOW! HMMMM PROJECTS ALL DUeING AND GONNA BE OVER SOON!

but then, after that die! cos must start studying for the main exams! omg i really really hop that my main exam n my projects will help me to score very good grade so that my gpa wont die! i mean if i dont get good grade in 1.1, its gonna be very difficult to pull up my grades leh! sianz!

this is the disadvantage of poly! every grade is depended on ur consistency! while jc is A lvl! its got its own pros and cons as usual!!......

anw, i got this dilemma! hahahhaha! hmmmmm.....

takecare!

woah im glad i actually survived this wk! in a sense i really feels like collapsing with so much lack of slp!!!! hahhaha! working more than 10 hr at uniqlo is hell! today have many stupid pple with damn freaking stupid request! cant stand them! oh well! recently, when i work, im always at fitting room! oh goodness!! thats where many tsktsk pple are at!!! irritating sia! ok, enough bout work!

oh welll, studies is like a stress for u and me. i mean seriously(:

anw, i got home at ard9 today n i slp! i just woke up u kno! wanna do some research earlier but i just keep slping! anw, i was woke up by a call from the orangehead! maybe u will be wondering why is he called an orangehead. hahahahaa. come come ask this is for entertaining purpose^^ orangehead is such a nice name ba. but im kinda rude luh. call pple something-head. anw, yea, u kno right how i say things is always playing on me. i mean seriously.

yea its playing on me. i mean yea. been trying to put it out of my mind. n yea. thought i've successfully done that. but it always comes back. think i've been poisoned. but anw, lets see how long this in the brain thing will last ok. lets see what is it really. i mean u know, have not been contacting for over one wk plus i guess he just have freaking bad memory n he forgot bout my existence. but anw, yea just nvr contact at all. i mean i wonder whats this.bt oh well, its life, gotta take it while it comes right. just when i thought he wont call anymore, there comes a freaking call some time ard 2 am now? hahas. but anw, didnt talk long. he always somehow can hear that when he calls, i/m slping. so he'll insist that i go back to slp. so nice right. but idiot luh. hahah!

anw, saw him on fri when i went for swim training . haha. he is really orange head! ok stop talking bout it liao luh. gotta put it at the very far end of my mind n not think. but....... i wish i could say something here. anw, hahaaaaa. i'll just leave it.

anw, takecare, u! i mean u! haha! pls takecare of urself too! being so tired out made me realise that it doesnt feel gd to be so shag! pls eat well n have plenty of rest! im encouraging u! cos i havent been eating well lately! like i haven't been eating three proper meals! stress is eating me out. hahahhaha! i cant take this! but im surviving! hehe! jiayou! eally need constant motivation! hahaha! i miss the way weisi always gives me so much motivation!!! like aim high highest not just average cos we can seriously do it! its gonna be difficult now! but in the future if u looks back, things will all seem to be very easy! right?!?! haha!

ans yea u r not stupid k! pls dun demoralize urself! everyone has got their own talent! n i believe u are very talnted too! pls believe in urself cos i will believe in u!!!! takecare alot and i hope i can inject confidence in u!!!! JIAYOU JIAYOU! lets survive through all these and look forwardto our overseas trip together ok??? hopefully my parents n relative will allow me to go overseas with u in one to two yrs time as planned^^ really would love to travel with u! hahaha! and jiayou pe! dont stress too much! i also thinks bout many things likeshould i go swimming or skip swimming thtat kind of thing. but sometimes i would just have to go with the flow yea?

and yea till now im still thinking...... if u know what. how i wish i could really forget it, but yea as i said its playing on me like seriously.!

the adventure of CHOCOLATE will be posted again! chocolate rawks!<3

just to post

hi i know i should be doing my work n slp asap. but just to post. omg today walk ard shop floor, look in the mirror, ooh goodness. i've nvr seen my face so dull. omg. like no brightness at all. goes to show howi nvr take care of myself lately. im draining out of energy very soon. even fri when i go swimming, my head pan sia. i mean waaaaaaa. im really tiring myself out. hope i wont be tired out! takecare uh!

but how............

hoping it will be back, n hoping it wont. what is it i would really wan?

ZIHUI AGAIN.

ahem, im blogging again. i guess i really think n think luh.

i think im just gonna really put it aside and leave it at the back of my mind, and not think about it.

i mean its like really tiring. im tired of thinking already. im not gonna put myself in that kind of misery. it feels like tat time all over again. i shall just forget. n not think what will happen in te future. yea sure now things kind of remind me about u. but then, i must put down yea.(: its not gonna be easy but yes i can live through it.

i guess, i really dont like those waiting. i mean yea. just forget it(:

i will really concentrate on my studies and think about nothing else.

thks all my friends who stands there by my 'side' i mean it(:

thk u. i kno u all will always be there<3

do takecare.

with loads of love,

zihui the idiot always^^

just to update.

hello!

hihi u kno who u r^^ pls takecare! slp well ok????

and yea, yesterday i read ur blog, and i was laughing u know!!! can just imagine how u yell at pple!!!!!!! so funny laylin^^ hahahahhahahaah! i just imagined u yelling pple as a comedy scene! if only when u yell and u find it funny, u wont be angry already. in a sense of way, i'm saying that i nvr seen u yell tat much. only seen u really might wanna yell at zhibo tat time in the library for what he've said. hahahah! i mean even if u angry, i still find it very funny looking at u frustrated! its a funny scene for me! i cant help but laugh! how i wish i can be there to make u laugh! please takecare!!! hehe! anw, i havent went and download the songs that u asked me to download. was busy with chionging projects and assignment till now. but i will always update my blog^^ like de-stress^^

its freaking cold at the library now. yesterday i cant take it anymore, so i slept at 2, and woke at 7. haix. i wanna slp forever man! i mean slping is such a nice thing. it keeps me from this cruel reality. life~ anw, yea i woke and had lecture in sch, nxt up, presentation for my kranji war memorial field trip. u know, i was damn nervous. cos i didnt prepare to my very best. i mean, i didnt have much time and ii havent started using my brains since the start of my poly life and stuff. so yea(: ahix! a getting back on my feet with the support of the song that can motivate me! haha!

anw , mr chew my tutor was actually surprised that i can present quite well. hahah1 he didnt expect anything. like low expectation, then he was surprised. i was wondering how did i present, what does pple think when im presenting u there. hmmmmmm.

anw, time to chiong projects now^^

oh man

hahahhaha. idk why but all the things always links to u. think think think. should not get distracted in this way oh. or else i'll just try to block everything out. how do i make things go on naturally? is thoughts in the mind something natural or something we've created inside our head?

why is things not easy ...

hmmmmmmmm. im getting a little bit unfocused now..... haiyoyo. zihui! get back ur hardworking mode can or not? hahahahhaha!

currently listening to just the way u are. i still likes this song alot^^

hehe time to skip song or else ...

hmmmm. time to start using my brain and focus again!!!!!!!! ^^

everything happens for a reason.

must rmb the 4D's!

dedication determination discipline & diligence.

oh yea. must stop thinking of lying around and not doing anything. realised i've became very distracted and slack after o's. i must get back on my feet yea! like how yesterday was talking to weisi about sch work. and she said how she didnt do two or three tutorial already. i'm like since start of school didnt do it. oh yea. what's wrong with me right. i'm normally someone who will do all her homework diligently. now, i became so distracted. i should really stop my daydreaming things man. sometimes, we'll just have to put aside our distractions. whats ur's will be ur's. hahhaahahahahahs. no need to think n think. anw, i should really chiong like shit. just keep doing pls. from now on, i'm not gonna get on msn or twitter. facebook i'll just go and check grp project, while blog is to update. ok^^ hahahahas. no more distractions. time to be consistent. i mean where is all my positive attitude in facing things. things are really gonna get better. right now. i'm average and my results wont bring me anywhere im serious. but i can do better than that.

results.

commskill: D

food and beverage fundamental: D+

research in hospitality and tourism mangement: C

macro econs: B+

principle of management: A

well, if this end up to be my final grade for my module, my gpa will definitely look freaking pathetic cos its just 2.4....

but its not all the subject. and this is just midsem where its only 1/5 of the subject grades. must jiayou liao!!!

hahahahhahahhahaha!!!! work hard so that i can play hard after that!!! i mean in the future i will not regret!

hehe!

now, everyday i must read the newspaper!!! and do my tutorial! and do notes! and research for grp projects!

time to FOCUS!!!

JIAYOU PEEPS!

nice friends hard to get

haha.. all the bestt!!
cmon~ you have to go through one day no matter what:)

after this you confirm can go far:D

sooo why not endure and do ure best right~

you can do it:D

from riyaas.

i was randomly talking to this obs friend. complaining bout poly life. and u see, amazing how a friend can be so nice. i get motivation! u kno, this is so sec sch life! now, in poly, not easy to have friends like tat.

i will always cherish all these nice friends! <3

hello(: here again!

hahhahas! okay, i needa blog first or else i'll be sitting here daydreaming and not doing my work again.

OKAY, i wanna be specific n say what is in my mind. but i know if u kno me, u will kno what have been staying in my mind. okay, i still haventt been able to get rid of it. i mean really playing on me man. what a joke seriously...

okay, today~ yea. i'll say, i slp at 4:30 and woke at 7! goodness! my beauty slp=gone....!!!!!!

and well, i survived in sch man! but cramp kills meeeeeeeeeee!

in sch, nothing much happened uh. just feels like slping.

during rht i understands what he says, but then, i was blogging, changing blog skins! hahaahh!

nxt is lecture. can slp there luh. so boring. lucky what she says is like poa. kinda understand before she explains. lol. slp slp slp.

then during lunch, went biz park eat... spaghetti and pork chop? hehehehee. nice meal.(:

then after that went library to print econs notes.! then received a text from egghead saying 'pink girl i saw u......' hahahhahaas. but i didnt see egghead! nvm. hahahahahhahas. and i saw this guy name geoffrey at sch second time! hahahhaha! i actually wanted to prank him when he gave me his number but cant think of anything to prank. ahhahahhas. anw, i call egghead egghead cos he likes egg alot. answered ur qn? (:

anw, was suppose to post that like yesterday, but i slept! u kno, suppose to do project to hand in today!

but i end up falling asleep! goodnes zihui!!!!!

anw, i shall stop here... time to start working hard! WEISI NVR FAIL TO MOTIVATE ME^^

anw, i still think of... ...

yoooohooooo.

am here again! now am inside this lesson RHT! today the tutorial is all graph! something like maths! but the coefficient of the eqn i totally of a diff meaning!

oh god! im in such a great pain now! hate period X infinity!

anw, just slept for only 3 hr! i shall go home pig awhile after sch and then start ind finding for grp project @ night! god!!!!!!! sianz...........haix........... i wanna go swimming oh!

haix. pain.

THKS(:

hihi! here's thks with a big smile for u:D promise i'll be strong^^

anw, thks really much^^ even though u have many things to do, u took ur time to post, to advise me, to make me smile^^ its not being mean, its just telling me facts. thks anw(: if only i can show my cuz what u wrote, she sure say u're the best man(:

thks really much. even though u dunno my cuz, u actually cared(: thks for being such an awesome friend! hahas!

anw, egghead is really a gd friend too! u kno, egghead actually went and post on my cuz wall asking her to stay strong and stuff. there's still such a nice person existing in this world yo. egghead oso dunno my cousin. u two are the best. thks for helping me^^ i appreciates it^^ and i'll stay strong. life is awesome! anw, today i learn about wine in class, its super interesting! like i learn n i feel like going for wine tasting! hahahha! ok, i actually needs to do my article. i slept n woke up, n i dreamt till now! pray hard i can finish! oh god! there goes my beauty slp!!!! urgh! hhahahahas!

thks X infinity <3 takecares! willl keep u posted^^ and JIAYOU!!!!