HI!

anw, the previous post is actually typed on sunday???

so well, i must learn to put down things. anw, i must really thanks those that stand by my side when im really sad.

lets have an overview. so on saturday, i argued with arao san alot about resigning stuff. i mean i really love to work with and for arao san, but i know now, i must prioritise my studies even if it meant i gotta save for awhile before i can go out during my holidays if im gonna spend. and of cos, every time i go out, i will spend, as usual^^ so yea. and that day was feeling quite stressed up, cos everything is just so messed up. life~ oh well, and i kinda broke down by crying during my break that day. im so sorry to had scare some of my colleagues. hahaha. but yea. things are nvr as simple as it seems. oh well, if i ever get the chance to share with any of my lovely friends about stuff happening now, i will. hahahhahha.

so basically, after that a few days, i feeling down when i think about stuff, feel so down that when i take bus, i felt like crying while sitting right there.........

monday

so on monday, i went to school on the bus feeling kinda sad. then i received text from some pple, and out of those pple, i received text from egghead^^ haha. he asked me if i wanna eat pizza after school on friday.! im tempted to go and have fun and enjoy! but then, i was thinking i must compose my feelings before i go socialize again. i mean it wont be healthy if i act like my life is fine, and i enjoy and have fun, but come back end of the day sad right? so yea, i told him my life is kinda messed up, and that i think i wont join him and his friends. haha. sry bout that to him if he ever will read this, but i bet no he wont read cos yea he just dunno bout my blog. he was quite concerned bout why im sad. and he called me at night to ask. and woah, its been so long since i last chatted with him! but yea. guess he is busy ba. . . although i know him for such a short period of time, i really enjoy talking on the phone with him. he is just such a real person luh. anw, yea... thk him for not slping and calling me. i hope he will score well in his upcoming test^^

TUESDAY

on tuesday,sch is fine, and i kinda tried to let go of things that actually hurt, as egghead say, its life, gotta take it like that. haha. anw, tue is fine, and i kinda had a long chat with some of my friends. hahaa. its a nice chat. and somehow, it told me who is really true. i even cried to one friend when she asked about what happened. im glad i didnt scare her off. ahahha!

anw, during test, i got a weird answer, and i asked cher ' why my ans have letters and numbers?!'

he explained why have that kind of thing.

nxt i asked 'so my ans wrong??!?!!?'

cher: obviously its not the right ans...

hahah! omg im such a joke yea!

wednesday

today is kinda a gd day, at least days are getting better^^

anw, i went for swimming! went with cos i met him in sch library! hahahah! so nice hor, he waited for me in the library. hahahhaa.

so when i reached swimming, say the distinctive orangehead! dressed in orange! hahahahaha! and theres this guy name jian xing! the joker! wear all white like Pap. hahah! cool huh. anw, yea so we sat there by the pool and talk talk. ahahha! and orangehead was going on about some crap luh!! like saying 'i'm awesome!' then i looked at him and say WTH! and he told the rest 'i learn from zihui '!! wth!! hahaha! then he go talk crap, say 'look at zihui and me. who is more innocent' and he huh, gay sia, did a seriously funny action luh he joker! then anyhow take my bag, surprisingly, he is looking for my ipod(i guess) , then he open the side zip and found it. hahaha! idiot! anyhow take my things! haha! while swimming! ben bully me! he say its not bully, its tease! crap lo! i was doing pulling and hexun and him are both doing kicking, im just right behind them, then both of them produced water fountain in front of me luh! how to swim sia! they bully!!!!!!!!! hhahah! and egghead funny! he swim, then i suddenly hear, 'zizi'!!! hahahahaha!!! funny! anw, thks ben, he is really nice. he help me with the towing of mannequin today! im really glad that he gave me help, accompany me throughout the towing! so nice! and i managed to be determined enough to have improved that tiny little bit at towing it myself. so sry that i drag him down in training, and that he had to dive down the water so many times to take the mannequin that i have no strength and dropped it. glad that he helped me. its so nice of him! hhahahhaa! i will rmb and appreciate him! haha!

okay, thats all lovely friends! i wonder whats happening at all of ur side(those who nvr blog)^^ but jiayou!!!

anw, that youtube video u've posted is really touching, i didnt tear. just almost. like so sweet! i reallly wish i could be there to make things better for u. but rmb, must stay strong, when situation like this happens, make sure u live ur life well, and show the that u are better off and living happily without their crap. rmb how there's this picture which says ' make them wonder why u are still smiling' yea. live like that. i know its terrible to be in sch without friends. i hope some true pple in jc will appear in front of u to make ur life better. make ur jc life fun. no worries. u need someone to text, im always there^^ pls really do takecare. u know there's pple out here like me who cares^^ put us in ur heart and u can live well without them. i hope this can make u stay strong for now. hopefully things will be better. go listen to 'thing are gonna get better' by david archuleta!! hehe!

omg, now, when u stuff the earpiece in my ears] and played the song that u say u like, it add on to another song that i will listen to and rmb u. yea, its all so tricky..this things that are happening..