hey yo.

hi there. i didnt cry because of him. i mean cry because of him for? hahahhas. if things ahem did makes me sad, its not gonna be worth it. i mean i am thinking at the realistic term, in a sense of way, i just takes it easy. yesterday i cried.

i cried so hard. i felt so helpless. its cos of my cuz. i mean yea. sch sucks for her X infinity. in a sense of way she really cried so hard. n its not easy to see someone cried till she really really sad. and just look at her and tell her everything is gonna be alright. i mean, yea initially i keep telling her ignore those idiots, n try to get on the yr 1 class n smile. but its not nice to eat in sch alone. not nice that u dun feel u fit anywhere in class, not nice tat u are outcast by idiots who are childish. pri sch is happening all over again, and this time round is worse than anything. she really feels tat its the worse of her life. like she cry. she really dunno what to do. they just treats her like shit. and its very sad. idk what to say anymore. i kept saying go n slp n not cry over stupid pple, tmr will be better. but all she say is she hope. its really sad. then all i can do is hug her so that she dont feel so alone. but then it really affects me. how i can do anything to help. cant stop her frm crying. i feel so sad. so sad for this kind of life.that i cry. but i cant cry so hard, cos i need to give her strength. so i end up going out of the room n sitting in the living room by myself crying. i really feel so helpless. i dunno how i can make things better for her. how i wish at that time someone will entertain me n make me smile. but no such luck. i should just embrace it myself.

i seriously miss my grandpa. how i wish he is right there for me.

anw, im super stress now. i wish i can finish my article analysis. i'm so sad. and nothing can makes things easy. this freaking july is gonna be like no rest. i already see mountains of unfinished work waiting for me. i dont wanna get a bad gpa. why is everything taking away my time. i dont even have time for myself anymore. ))):

anyway, at this pt of time, this song really fits the mood...

David Archuleta - Things Are Gonna Get Better Lyrics :-

Yeah, yeah. Mmm hmm.
Everybody's got a time in their life
When everything hurts and nothing's right.
But you gotta walk on, yeah you gotta walk on.

Everybody's got a piece of their heart
That's been stepped on and torn apart.
But you gotta move on, yeah you gotta walk on.

Cause I, know, it's hard to have the strength and,
Sometimes, all you feel is pain, but,
Things keep floating by on that river in the night.

But I know things are gonna get better,
And I know things are gonna be fine.
And I know things are gonna get better.
Life is gonna get better, yeah we're gonna be fine.

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Everybody's got that one regret, no matter how they try, they can't forget.
But you gotta move on, yeah you gotta move on.
And everybody's got someone they've lost,
And they can't believe they're really gone.
But you gotta live on, yeah you gotta live on.

Cause I, know, it's hard to have the strength and,
Sometimes, all you feel is pain, but,
Things keep floating by on that river in the night.

But I know things are gonna get better,
And I know things are gonna be fine.
And I know things are gonna get better.
Life is gonna get better, yeah we're gonna be fine.

And I know there's hope.
I see it in your eyes.
So take me, touch me.
Cause with a little bit of love, we can win the fight.
With a little bit of love we can see the light.
With a little bit of love it'll be alright.

I know things are gonna get better,
And I know things are gonna be fine.
And I know things are gonna get better.
Life is gonna get better, yeah we're gonna be fine.

Walk, walk, walk the line and,
keep, keep, keep walking on.
Keep, keep, keep walking on.

anw, yea love this song alot. i mean things are gonna get better^^ this morning was like taking note of tat lyrics. and i read this part And everybody's got someone they've lost,

And they can't believe they're really gone.
But you gotta live on, yeah you gotta live on.

hahhas. when i read this part, my eyes totally clouded right there in the bus. cos i really really miss my grandpa. and yea. i havent let go. since that day i saw him there, and my granny say he is dying soon cos she felt it. and im like totally omg, i totally cried. i rmb how scared i felt. i felt so scared of losing him., praying so hard that it was a dream. and its just like after dunno how long, sits there right by his bed, looking hard at him breathing, and then he stopped breathing. he stopped. he stopped breathing

and i cant believe it. im just 11. then suddenly he is gone. he is not gonna be there with me. not gonna see me graduate frm sch n stuff. where is he gone to. then eveery night, wishing i would dream of him. but he is not there in my dream. and he is only once in my dream. and i realise i wish so much that my dream was actually reality. and everytime i cry, i cry n know i should not cry. but then, i will cry like shit cos what i really am crying is cos he isnt there. its so painful. the feeling.its like idk, its painful to lose someone u love alot.

ok, i shall start my econs. tmr submission. damn that. stress. i wish i could just slp...

takecare and dun worry friends. this is what i feel now only. tmr morning i'll be back to normal. cos things are gonna get better~