hello.

anyways, just a short post.

i understand that im very fortunate compare with the others. and i should not feel any little bit of unhappiness cos i have a home, i can study, i got food to eat n stuff. but sometimes, i cant help but feel ungrateful for whatever that im having or what people give me.

i definitely cant understand how it is to be someone else stepmom. and i cant criticise how she treats me. because she is not like some evil stepmom. so well, i should be grateful. i cant expect someone to treat me like a real daughter when im not one. and oh well, i should be grateful that she gives me allowance then. but even outsiders can see that she would save up n not give me if she can. sometimes idk the way she treats me is real or fake.
i dun understand why some people just dun show the true self or be truthful.

sometimes, maybe looking after their 'daughter' is what i should do to payback those allowances that was given to me huh?

 but

i will always know one thing is that my small aunt is more like my biological mom than the one i call to be 'mommy' .

sometimes life is just unfair huh