all @ once(:

hello my lovely friends! im sry tat its been awhile since i've last updated yo!
heheee!
anw, when my holiday starts, i went to my granny hse to stay! tats why there's no internet for me to update^^

OKAY! time for some jumbled up phOtoS!!!

 one of the soup i drank @ nex, and felt so damn disgustedly full....

think there's prob with my tummy. feels like vomiting after eating):

but after the holiday of staying @granny hse eating nice food, my appetite n tummy is back to normal^^ WOOHOOOOO

 this is dear's neck. he got a bee sting @tiong bahru park ! D: what a bday celebration bite!

 sry for poor quality photo. this is the bee sting he scratched out frm his neck!

 @putien

 naughty enen! stand on chair! HAHA

 CUTE^^

 One of the photo i took after swimming by myself, and the sky went dark after i bathe. but apparently, the photo looks normal..

 second aunt bday pressie(:

 @ilight marina volunteer(:

zuella so funny! said that this so ugly. but i think she looks good(: HAHAHAA

ANW, zuella was saying that im so bad! hahaahhaa! nvr blog bout her before. apparently idk whaat i blogged. HAHAHAH! anw going to this mass experiment volunteery thingy with zuella is so nice! at least we can accompany each other ! hahahha! imagine zuella nvr go.. that will be a boring and lonely ilight thingy. hahahhaaha! 

anw, that day, after volunteering 10 bags of the light up thingy, i went to find zuella and both of us went to the toilet! hahahahha! the nice n clean n good smelling toilet! and we sat inside n enjoyed our time there! HAHAHAHAHAHA! WHAT A TOILET EXPERIENCE!! AHAHAHAH

anw, this volunteery thingy is like tskkk. some pple are just so stupid. a family came, n the father of 2 kids(2yr old & 1 yr old) told me to teach his child. stupid or wat! end up i do for them cos how can 2 yr old kid understand how to do?!?!?! anw their 2 maids helped-.-

anw sandy,sherlyn, zuella n i was slacking after we finished volunteer bags of 10, and we sit n enjoy the marina bay wind. hahahahaa. then it ended with zuella n i wanting to go see the ilight marina bay thingy, but its not light up, n i dun even kno why!!! HAHAHAHAHHA.

 zuella & her light catcher^^

 @the yacht club

 see the baby climbing playground! hahah

 she say i wan slide by myself

 not suppose to play at there but i went there! ahahaha

 jun looks like MR BEAN!

ying & me(:

 cuz dun wanna take photo):

 big aunt^^

 trying to dodge my cam

 satay!

 dun wan smile for me):

 EAT!(:

 smile but then moved as she think this satay photo will be retarded! hahahahahaha

 my fish n chip!

 night view there @yacht club

 @strictly pancake with miko!^^

 hawaiian!

each a cup date

on a random day reading @library with dear(:

he was so happy to find all the comics. omg so funny isnt it!

 guppy frm fishing kampong! went there to celebrate dear bday in advance organised by me(:

 amt of fish that died

ok im not suppose to do such sinful things like fishing. oh man... must keep it in my mind):

oh ! today was @ntuc! i saw this! is it imitation of kinder surprise eggs?!?!!?

hehhe! anw tats all!

the PHOTOS!

other stuff dun really recall... i will recall n write them in my new diary!

anw, today dear went off to jap. so sad. cant talk to him anymore......

aiya. dun think dun think. hahahhahaha. 

anw, was researching places. i saw this settlers cafe. it seems cool(: hopefully i get to go there(((: hehehehheeee

oh! i was so bored that i went to read the straits times! online...

then i saw stomp n read it for the first time! hehehhee!!!

n u kno what???!!! some of the things r so ridiculous!

i mean pple anyhow take pictures of pple n then criticise!! omg!its kinda immoral isnt it?

anw, i think im going to sleep ba(:

hehehehehehheeheeeeeeeeeeee.

bye peeps! post again nxt monday i guess! hope all goes well for all my lovely friends k?(:

my gpa

hi! i've got to say congrats to my lovely friend! im so proud of ur grade((: hehe!

jiayou over there my friend!!! mine is like ok........ hahahaa. no where close to good.. haha(: but i guess that's the consequence for my choice .

hidden problems

haha.
i just realised that sometimes, when the problem is there, and u hide it, it will just pop up and scares u once again. hahaa.
omg. i realised that arising expenses is such a problem. no job and all. well, where is the time. hahahaha. haix. money is always a problem when theres just so many things to do and pay for.

anw, today i felt so damn fainty outside when i went out to meet laylin. i had such bad cramps that i can barely answer laylin anything. omg.i keep feeling like vomiting too. idk what happened to my appetite recently....... when i really cant stand it, i bid farewell to laylin..i feel so bad to leave laylin cos we were just chatting halfway.. but i really cmi.. when i rush out of guardian, i see things in many black patches.. this scares me the most cos it felt like im going to faint. my vision is getting so damn dark that i told myself to sit.... and i sat at the floor next to a railing to rest. when my vision became alright, i went to find a seat.. then i force myself to reach home.... omg... what a fainty experience again.

i rmb quite some time ago, i stayed back for art club, and i got no time to eat my lunch... then when art club ends, and im going home with laylin n simin in front of me, i felt so fainty cos i didnt eat, tat i rest right on the pathway... omg...

so scaryyyy

holiday job

anw, just some updates,
this holdiay, finding a job is impossible cos nowhere wan to hire us.
stupid shit.
nvr imagine myself to walk around and fill up forms in so many diff freaking stores.
its just unbelieveable.

anw, which means that i will be pretty free during my holiday to do basically ENJOY HOLIDAY STUFF
heheee

and also idk, somehow get help my doe a DEER(JKJK), to train up my fitness level

so let me give u an overview on my horrible horrible deadly feel after swimming yesterday.
so yesterday is officially the first lesson of BM(bronze medallion?)..
and suppose to swim 8 laps within 11min.
but i swam within 12min15 sec, suppose to do 75 push up and the teacher was lenient enough to let me off(:
Edward(the teacher) ask my fellow bm friends to help me push up, and each of them offered to take 10push ups, so left with 15 for me. omg but i was really so tired that i feel like collapsing right straight into the water back n just die. hahaa. oh! not forgetting(: of cos...
my DEER Jinson<3 is so worried for me, and he say he help me do all the 75 push up, thats why Edward cher let me off. HEHEEEEE IM SAVED......
but i just feel so damn freaking out of energy that i didnt care much and just lie on the floor.
so lucky to have my deer cos he made sure im safely covered in towel and have water to drink(:

oh and nxt up must swim one lap n tow someone back within 3min15sec.
oh well i died on this too cos i practically feel i can kick like no energyly n stay at the same spot. omg. im still so scared of the water. its drowning me.

anw, then again, i feel so demoralised with everything after 1yr in poly.
sem 1, i work, swim abit, study, and everything failed. this sem, i only study and swim abit, but its all failing too.
life outside sec sch is really diff, i kno how my lovely friends actually felt when they mentioned about things and feels discouraged about it. i miss this sec sch days where everyone ard me and myself is dying to think positive about everything,and always encourage one another even though we all kno the chances are very slim. hahaa.

poly is drenching energy out of me, i dont even know where im going, dont know anymore what im capable of doing.
now i only feel that even if i want to believe so much in myself, at the back of my mind, i would think that im silly and i cant do it. cos there's just so much evidence of my failure in doing things...

haix. sometimes when i think about all these, its just makes me feel like giving up.
this will make me cry cos idk when had i became so weak that im having the giving up feel at the back of my mind. its so sad cos idk who i am anymore.

conclusion: me still dunno who myself is and will be.):

heehehee. anw, lets put that aside, i hope everything goes well for everyone now(:
and haha!!! todayyyyyyy is achyyyy body day. omg....

hehe

im back home with my internet(: anw, im so lazy to post. i think im looking forward to this holiday though it might be flying(:
heheee. work with deer at maybe subway?
hahaahaa. no call from anywhere-.-
im gonna pack my room now(: maybe swim ltr?
or just slack(:
heheeee

EXAM PERIODS(:

 omg nice food tat granny cook<3

 this is my fav(:

 singapore's small little guilin

 omg this is very nice!

clubhouse tat aunt work at(: the pool(:

OMGOMG!!!

YOU ARE FREAKING GOING BERLIN? OMG!!!
THAT IS LIKE OMG!
SO INTERESTING OMG!!!
HAPPY FOR U!
ENJOY OK^^
HEHE!

OMG BERLIN BERLIN LEH!!!!!!!

WOOHOOOO ITS THE END OF EXAMS &....

HEHEEE! THE START OF MY HOLIDAYS!

so hello my lovely friends.
anw, i've just read ur blogs(:

schools seems to be like so horrifyingly stress for u who's in JC. i hope things will get better for u.
A lvls is coming in just short fews months! and by the time u graduate, im only year 2 in poly.
omg. hahahahaa. i hope u will stay on and be positive for ur A's ok?
hehee! anything please text me! im just a text away^^
hahaaha! and yeaps! must meet up soon! i will text u soon! anw ur studying of the 60 hrs is kinda horrible!!! omg!!! ur whole march holidays will be gone?!?!!?!?!!?!?!
oh man!
but work hard there! hardwork will pay off!!! and JIAYOU ALL THE WAY OK!!! HEHEE!! SOON YOU WILL BE OUT OF THE MISERY!

and hahaha!
yay! its my holidays!
im looking forward to spend time with the deer from zoo, my lovely 'lovelies', and friends that i havent been catching up with from sec sch(((((((:

anw, i havent been in touch with the net for so long!
byebye internet^^ heheeee

will be away..

hello everyone! please takecare! i will be back only after my exams^^ hehee!!!!!!
JIAYOU^^

after cny posts.

 im the beer server at home.! hahahaaCNY

 YOOHOOO GRANNY COOK!

 OMG YAY AUNTS CURRY N BEEHOON!

 CUTE ENEN^^

 MY FAV!

 INTERVIEW

 omg rashes)):

 heheheeee fry egg for breakfast!with fav ketchup^^

 gathering.. dinner (buffet)

 looking like her bro when young

heheee so thats quite a fair bit of things i havent post about^^ been busy with project ever since cny is over. HAHAHAHAAAAA
been reading all of my lovely friend's bloggy too^^

V DAY^^

 heheee gloomy face cos he cant drink the mango thingyyyy. hehee

 gayyyyyyy :P

 oh! i rmb last yr v day, im working at uniqlo! i rmb LL gave me this lovely card and this fake rose with black ribbon! haha! so nice^^ i wonder how's ur v day this yr! must be stress in school huh?

anw, so v day this yr is kind of a surprise for me. i ate with dear and then he said its just another tuesday! end up he gave me this whole box of hearts n folded rose n chocolate! so sweet!<3

Today

dinner with my papa. hahahaaha^^

Valentines Day 2012 ♥

hahaa.
dear jinson says 'it's just another day'
so well, valentines day is really just another day.
the day where everyone is so happy and lovely everywhere you go.
same here.
back in sec school days, i rmb how everyone will buy chocolate to share the lovely atmosphere.
as the years pass by, valentines day is really just another day. don't even know how this day is called valentines day, but i know it's about saint valentines...

anw, dear dear gave me a shock. hahahahaha. gave me lovely chocolate!!! and a box of handmade stuff. heheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. omg i thought its just another dayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
anw happy valentines day!
yea! its just another day!!
just rmb!!
KEEP SMILING OK!!!^^

tada!! its almost gonna be over!!^^

yay!
projects will be over soon^^
yay!
and yay!
i going wildwildwet!!
but papa not going!
and got bowling!
oh man!
papa say to go bowling with me!!!!!
now im gonna bowl with my sis n mom!!!!!
awwwwww man!!!!
who wan to go????
hahahha!
relax day before study^^
yooohooooo^^

i hate it

i hate it when my sister lie on my bed.
rmb how last time use to have this higher bed n the lower one, suppose to she sleep with me
then she dun wan!
then now she always purposely go and lie down on my bed
i hate it!!!
in fact i dun like it X infinity
i hate it when she just lie there as if its her bed!
why do  feel like shes so idiotic?
i feel that everything i have she oso wan!
she have hers and she wants mine too!!!!!
i hate it!
why am i such a bad sister?
yea.
yucks i dun like tat she purposely do all those things!!!
which idiot will do these kind of things on purose can u tell me?
yea maybe she is just a kid!
yea!
a kid wont like do things on purpose u kno!
do bad things like making me angry indirectly on purpose!!!!
kids dunno how to do BASICALLY EVERYTHING INDIRECTLY!
WHAT THE SHITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!
I CANT TELL HOW MANY THINGS SHE HAD ALWAYS DONE ON PURPOSE BUT YEA I KNO SHE ALWAYS DO THINGS TO MAKE ME IRRITATED ON PURPOSE!
AND SHE WILL FEEL SO DAMN HAPPY ON THE INSIDE WHEN IM UNHAPPY!
THAT FREEAKING! IDIOTTTTT!!!!!!!!!